Noelle Gray

84+ kilo powerlifter Michigan Push/pull masters deadlift/bench press record holder Pharmacy tech Passionate about life and lifting heavy shit❤

When one of your heroes and inspirations in powerlifting, @bubblypowerlifter , graciously agrees to sign your singlet for inspiration for the Michigan state powerlifting championships, you get JUST a bit excited 😂😂😂😂
How can I not feel lucky to know this sweet super talented badass??? Been following her for months and has zero clue when I met her at Saturday's meet that she was one of the powerlifters I had been following for months. When I found out afterwards, it was icing on an already awesome cake. If you don't know her, you should...if you don't follow her, you should. If you do know her, I hope you feel as blessed as me because of it ❤ Love you @thelittlethicklifter
Easing back into the heavy training with a 50% max day for all 3 lifts. Bench and deads went great, squats not so much, which is why only the bench and deadlift videos are attached. So much work to do yet on them. I realize I still fear squats and it affects them tremendously. It's so easy for so many people, yet it's the hardest thing for me to do. I watch countless technique videos, I know i have the leg strength, I just can't seem to get it right. But all I can do is work and work and work at them. Stare fear in the face and do it anyways. That's the only way I'll be able to get over my fear. 7 weeks out from states and I'll make any sacrifice, endure any soreness, sweat, bleed, and whatever I need to to get better ❤ #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #usapowerliftingmichigan #usapowerlifter #barbellum_powerlifting #roadtostate #powerlifter #powerlift #powerlifting #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #squat #bench #deadlift #roadtonationals
Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like this. I've been following so many other powerlifters and I've seen pictures like this before and cried at the expression on their faces because I could only imagine what they were feeling and i wanted that feeling so bad i could taste it. I wanted just one picture that captured everything I felt about powerlifting and the moment someone believed in me and I believed in myself. As @girlswhopowerlift put it, summing it up perfectly.. "if you've been here, you understand." ❤ It finally came Saturday. After 45 years. The picture I had of this moment was a still shot from the video of my deadlift. This is the professional shot taken by my girl @aperture_byangelica aka @thelittlethicklifter I've thanked her a million times and will thank her a million more because this truly is a picture of a lifetime for me. ❤ #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #usapowerliftingmichigan #usapowerlifter #barbellum_powerlifting #roadtostate #powerlifter #powerlift #powerlifting #squat #bench #deadlift #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #meetprep
@corissa_geer When my mom wasn't there to see me hit the biggest lift of my life and celebrate by hugging me immediately afterwards, she sent you ❤ When someone believes in you, it's everything.... The single best moment of the meet for me. The best moment in the 5 months since my mom died. Thank you for giving it to me. Thank you for believing in me. Love you C @thelittlethicklifter.....I never knew a picture could make me feel so much. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for bringing back the magic of that moment. I love you girl. You are so talented it brings me to tears ❤ Unbelievable happy I had the honor of meeting you 💛
People have said some of the nastiest shit to me since Saturday about my lifting. I was told I should be ashamed, not celebrating my deadlift numbers, that I was an embarrassment to powerlifting, that I should have hung my head after my final attempt instead of screaming like an idiot. Look, I know my numbers don't compare to others. I know that. But I bust my ass for those numbers. I sweat and bleed and grind for those numbers, just like any other powerlifter. I don't powerlift to compare myself to others. I powerlift for the joy, the love, the passion of it. Powerlifting has helped me manage the darkness of my mom's death. Powerlifting gets me through so much of the shit life throws at me. But when I see this Instagram post from the gym that the meet was held at, a champion powerlifter that i look up to friended me today, my Instagram has been filled with follow requests from my fellow powerlifters, i think maybe those folks are wrong. That i DO have every right to hold my head high instead of being ashamed of my numbers. Some people wait a lifetime for a moment like the one below and may never get to experience it. I had to wait 45 years, but it was one of the most powerful moments of my life and I fucking earned it and I will not let anyone tell me to hang my head and that I didn't deserve that moment. ❤❤ Powerlifting is about celebrating yours and your fellow powerlifters accomplishments. I'm going to work my ass off for states. And best believe when I pull 270 or 280 at states, I'm going to scream and cry in joy because I fucking deserve and will have earned it ❤❤ And when my fellow powerlifters break their own records, I'll cry in joy for them and be happy for them too because I know how it feels ❤ #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #believe #usapl #barbellum_powerlifting
Up at 4 am today just can't wait to go to the gym and start training for states!!!! 💛💛 So much work to do to get ready in just 46 days, but I will make any sacrifice and endure any pain to get better. The next 46 days I have to have a champion's mindset. I have to have a warrior's mindset. But I also have to soak it all in and have fun and just enjoy this time. This sport brings me so much joy and passion. I never thought at almost 46 years old I'd have made it to the biggest lifting event in the state. I earned my way there. My numbers may not even come close to matching up with any other lifter in my category, but that's ok- they're my numbers that I will sweat and bleed and sacrifice for. ❤ This girl will be back and better than ever in 46 days....I can promise you that ❤ #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #girlswholift #meetprep #roadtostate #michiganstatepowerliftingchampionships
It's not often you get to meet someone you've been following on IG, and when you find out she's even more badass and the sweetest girl you could ever hope to meet, it was the icing on the cake of the best day ever. Love this girl already!! @thelittlethicklifter was such an honor and a joy to meet you. All the fuzzies!!
Literally no way this just happened....1st in my division and third amongst all the masters... Going to take some time to process and take it all in, but for now I feel like a champion and I'm going to hold on to that feeling as long as I can ❤ Today I set a state record for bench in the master division for a push pull I left my heart on that I believed ❤ #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #roadtostate #powerlifter #powerlift #powerlifting #squat #bench #deadlift
A lifetime PR and so many tears.....I'll never be able to explain the raw emotion of this moment, but I know my fellow powerlifters understand. I worked so hard for so long and I'll never apologize for hugging my coach immediately afterwards and crying in pure joy and pride ❤❤ I live for this. I sweated and bled for this. I earned it ❤ It's nowhere near what many others lifted today, but it's a PR for me and no one can ever take away that raw moment of joy and pride when i realized i believed in myself, faced my fear, and did it. ❤ I love you mom. This was all for you ❤ @megan_thetrainer........thought of you when I first saw this especially understand the raw emotion of this moment❤ #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #girlswhopowerlift #usapowerliftingmichigan #usapowerlifter #girlswholift #roadtostate #powerlifter #powerlift #powerlifting #squat #bench #deadlift #barbellum_powerlifting
Getting pumped up for my meet today!! Weigh ins in 2 hours....I hope this feeling of nervous excitement never ever gets old...leaving it all on the platform today- my heart, my soul, and every bit of effort I have, because that's what this sport is about- and representing #gwplgear and #girlswhopowerlift in my 2 favorite powerlifting shirts- this one and my 9/9 shirt...both of which have the memorial phrase of my mom on the back.. This is for you mom. Always will be ❤❤
That's a wrap!! No workout tomorrow- we leave about 1 ish to head downstate for Saturday's meet! Recovery and stretching today- body feels pretty good....just some tight muscles that need loosening tomorrow night at the hotel. I've put it through hell the past 2 months but I've loved every session, every lift, all of it. I'm going into this meet more confident (but still super nervous) and stronger than I was last meet. I'm better technique wise also. I'm also mentally stronger because I'm starting to love myself. So even before I've set foot in the meet, I've already won ❤ Shed some tears during stretching was completely unexpected and hit me heart is hurting from missing my mom...and it's ok for that to happen, as many times as it needs to between today and Saturday. I guarantee she's up in heaven getting the pepsi and chips ready (once her favorite snack) and will have the best seat in the house come Saturday. ❤❤ So excited to be in the powerlifting environment's almost game time!! All that's left is to show up and give it all I have #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #usapowerliftingmichigan #usapowerlifter #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #meetprep #roadtostate #powerlifter #powerlift #powerlifting #squat #bench #deadlift
The next time I put on these wrist wraps and deadlift shoes, it will be for real, as today is the last day of moving any kind of weight until I do it for real on Saturday. Now the mental part starts, which for me is the hardest part. It means believing in myself, believing that I have the strength to do the lifts, believing that no matter the outcome I've made myself proud. I've done all I can in the gym. Now it's time to just execute what I've done thousands of times in the gym❤ I think that mentally for me, the hardest part of the next few days is missing my mom. I can't call her and have her calm me down, (the pre meet nerves are here) I can't call her before and after. But I can almost hear her say in the back of my mind "oh shut up Noelle, and go do what you were born to do. Stop the bullshit and go have fun." Which is exactly what I plan to do ❤❤❤ #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #usapowerliftingmichigan #usapowerlifter #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #meetprep #roadtostate #powerlifter #powerlift #powerlifting #squat #bench #deadlift
Meet week is finally here!!! Today was very light 5x5 of all 3 lifts. I wanted so much to put more weight on the bar but I respect the weeks end I'm legit going to be wanting to lift heavy so much, I'll be tearing my hair out and bouncing off the walls- exactly what's meant to happen- so by meet day Saturday I'll be more than ready to do my lifts. This week is all about prepping both physically and mentally. The mental part is always hard, between thinking of my mom and wishing she was here, visualizing completing the lifts, and getting pumped up. Getting more excited by the day...leaving in 4 days, competing in 5!!! #believe#usapl #usaplmichigan #usapowerliftingmichigan #meetprep #roadtostate #powerlifter #powerlift #powerlifting #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #squat #bench #deadlift
This may look like just a CD, but one of the songs on it my mom and I used to listen to together a lot. I've been searching for this CD forever, but the only place I could find it was Amazon for like $400. I went to my local music store and told them I was looking for it and how much it meant to me as a memory of my mom and by a freak stroke of luck, the manager tracked down the only copy in the entire chain inventory... Problem was, it was in a store in St. Louis that was closing. These folks went out of their way to get it. It took 3 weeks, but it finally got in. I went in today to pick it up and legit didnt expect to tear up when I saw it but I did. It brought on a rush of grief and memories. The manager handed it to me and said "this is for you and your mom at no charge and I hope it brings back some good memories." I pretty much lost my shit right there, hugging the CD....I was embarrassed as hell, because who bawls in a music store, but somehow I think I needed it and I think it was ok. ❤ Faith in humanity=restored. Thank you, FYE Music. ❤❤❤
And with squats complete, that's a wrap on my training for meet 2! Got to see my old coach and talk with him for a bit today, which was cool. Next week leading up to Saturday is a lot of stretching, getting rid of the sore muscles, being loose and relaxed, and for me especially, getting my mind right. I'm an excited nervous...kinda like that feeling you get on top of a roller coaster 💛 I'm also feeling a wave of grief, because I would literally give anything to see my mom at my meet, see her smile and cheer, tell me she was proud of me, talk to her before the meet to calm my nerves. I know it's never again going to happen, and it hurts my heart every time to think about it. But I'll let myself feel the grief, feel the joy in knowing I gave everything to my workouts this cycle, and all the hard work I've put in. I'm stronger than I was going into my last meet. Nutrition wasn't anywhere near perfect, but I own my mistakes and own my responsibility for what goes in my mouth. I've self sabotaged myself and I know why I've done so, and it literally all comes down to self love, something I'm trying to get better at daily ❤❤ All in all, it's been an awesome training cycle with Coach C. I'm super thankful for the programming and everything she's done to help me get this far. As always, this meet is for my mom❤ I know she'll have the best seat in heaven looking down on me.❤ 6 days out! #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #usapowerliftingmichigan #usapowerlifter #meetprep #roadtostate #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift #powerlifter #powerlift #powerlifting #squat #bench #deadlift
Deadlifts and rack pulls this morning 💛 Those legit gas you out but they're so much fun. 😄 I was able to pull 50 lbs more on the rack pulls today than I did last week, so I'm super happy with that....8 days out!! #believe #usapl #usaplmichigan #usapowerliftingmichigan #usapowerlifter #meetprep #roadtostate #powerlifter #powerlift #powerlifting #squat #bench #deadlift #girlswhopowerlift #girlswholift
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