In front of the @bellagio
with some of my favorite women on the planet, just after taking 5th at the @mrolympiallc #olympia2018
I am EXTREMELY BLESSED to have an incredible support network spanning sponsors, coaches, clients, friends, family, and fans (many of whom I now consider extended family). My circle is tight but VERY DEEP and I know that these women (@lindsaymakeupmadame
were missing) will be life-long friends (my Momma♥️ is on my right, btw). I think most of us know that success on any level begins with a dream and consistent work. Those that make it happen simply FIND a way. IMO, a true community not only eases the overall process but ABSOLUTELY enriches the entire experience. Of course, there are those that opt to get it done, alone.👎🏾👎🏾Been there... done that- and NEVER 🙅🏽♀️going back!!!
It SUCKED!!! Truly. It was awful. I progressed and did well- but felt “empty”. 😔There weren’t hugs to celebrate the wins or thought-provoking/tear-jerking conversations to address issues, when in doubt. I put everything I had into training and spent every free moment in research delving into everything bodybuilding/strength and performance/and overall health & longevity related. In the process, I removed myself from any semblance of community.
Why? Well, I was a reformed party-girl, with the audacity to dream of making an impact on the Olympia stage; building a thriving business; and eventually teaching others to change their lives, as well. I knew that I had to make a drastic shift so I completely removed myself from my former life; moved to an area I had never even visited; and cut ties with former “friends”. I was far from perfect and was battling demons of insecurity and unhappiness (spending 6-7 nights a week inevitably buzzed/blitzed- rather than insecure and sober) in seeking validation from utter strangers... All under the auspices of “fun” (while utterly miserable). But I KNEW that I needed change and was ashamed of my past- so “punishing” myself (in seclusion) seemed fair.
NINE years later, I’m finally beginning to forgive myself; own my past; and am, in fact, building my tribe.
I AM #BLESSED