I think one thing that I find my friends forgetting, and something I forget sometimes too, is cosplay is meant to bring you joy. It's meant to be fun. It's not meant to be just for money, just for fame, just for petty reasons. Cosplay, in its basic form, it's all meant to be fun. It's a hobby. We all post photos of it on our instagrams, but it's just us posting our hobbies. Something that we love.
Working at netherworld this season, one of the fire fighters working with us pulled me aside the first night I was there to take care of me (I suffered head exhaustion because I'm an idiot.) while he was checking me over, he told me something that I've taken to heart. He said "if you're not having fun, take a step back and give yourself a moment." he was referring to if there was a moment where I was scaring that I was feeling more sick and in pain than I was having fun, I should pause and give myself a moment to calm down. But for some reason, I've taken this to heart. And I consider it with everything I do. Including cosplay. I reached a point at the start of the year where I wasn't having fun. It was pressure. It was meeting everyone's expectations of me. Of what they want me to do. It was getting followers, being the best. But I wasn't having fun. So... I've taken a step back. Stopped feeling bad for taking a break. For focusing on college and two jobs. I plan on starting again. Soon. Now that I feel that fun again. That... No expectations, completely happy, fun feeling.
That being said, have these photos of me, in cosplay, having fun. Not looking for the best photo in the best lighting. Not worrying about looking good. Just... Being an idiot. Being myself.
Thank you to @astarii.night @papaya_cosplay @so.what.summer @innovativefanboy @gardenofsprites
for being yourself in and out of cosplay and inspiring me to just... Relax and have fun. Even if you didn't realize it.