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Keeley▫️Producer▫️Londoner ▫️Trying to make sense of the crazy world of fertility and life that goes with it ▫️Unexplained infertility 😬😠🤞👶

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This is a picture of me BEFORE my cyst aspiration and hysteroscopy yesterday (if only they let you wear lipstick!💄) . I was just so happy to actually be donning a blue gown and going under (we all know I love an anaesthetic!), as I'd sort of resigned myself to my levels not being right as we travelled up to the clinic. I had the same issue as last time (ie cancelled cycle) on Tuesday, progesterone was a little high, so had to have bloods again to make sure they had come down, before going ahead with the procedure yesterday. BUT everything went well, Cyril and his mate were vapourised and everything else is still clear, so more bonus points. What has materialised from my results, is that the best option for us this time round, is to do a natural cycle again. We weren't sure how we felt about this, as I had it in my head that we were FLARE all the way, and because we had done a natural cycle before and it had failed. However once we had talked it through with the consultant (well two of them actually) and gone back over previous results, levels etc, it is definitely the right plan. In fact my hormone levels are now the best combination they have been for a long time, so clearly that means it's going to work! 😂 What wasn't so lucky was I think I have been supremely fortunate in previous procedures, where I have not really felt any after effects of the op, that was not the case yesterday! WOW that was period painesque but on another level, soooo uncomfortable (hence radio silence yesterday, just being honest!), BUT today I feel 100% better after a good nights sleep! Back tomorrow at the clinic for bloods and scan, and then treatment as normal really at good old ARGC, just on lower stims. Who knows what will happen this cycle, but as ever, just got to believe that something good is going to happen! Whilst clearly at the same time practicing a ridiculous amount of self preservation, a small amount of healthy cynicism to mediate any expectations getting carried away and generally being good to each other! Onwards.... In other news, am totally BORED of the rain now! I know I know it's good for the garden, farmers, general existence of the world, but enough now! Kx
Proud to be part of this campaign for @fertilitynetworkuk coming out in September! God knows what I’ll look like but that’s not the point... the point is #breakthesilence 😘 #Repost @fertilitynetworkuk with @get_repost ・・・ Listen out for Fertility Network’s loudest ever campaign and be ready to join your voice with ours as we amplify screams of frustration into screams for fair access to IVF. Launching Thursday 6th September- Sign up to our newsletter today so that you receive the info first! #linkinbio https://us1.list-manage.com/subscribe?u=087ee24860ff295c7011dcef8&id=999935bfab #scream #righttotry #fertility #fertilitytreatment #icsi #ivf #fairness #ccg #postcodelottery #nhs #nhsivf #secondaryinfertility #miscarriage #miscarriagesurvivor #ttcafterloss #ttcaftermiscarriage #stillbirth #malefactor #maleinfertility #infertility #childlessness #ivfat40
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This!!! 💕 #Repost @tryingyears with @get_repost ・・・ ☆ F E R T I L I T Y L I V E S ☆ The Event ☆ C O U R A G E ☆ Monday 10th September, 6.30pm to 9pm (stay for drinks after obvs ). The Castle, Farringdon #London We love our weekly #instalives right? What better than to take it to the next level with a ‘live’ instalive. But 20 minutes just isn’t enough so if you can join us on the night you’ll also hear 3 inspirational women tell their stories as part of my #EveryStoryMatters series. #linkinbio ☝️ to find out more about the panel and to buy tickets. The theme of this first event is Courage because we know that without it we wouldn’t be able to face our fertility issues head on, you wouldn’t be able to walk in to a room with a group of people you may not know, the panel wouldn’t be able to share their stories and I wouldn’t be able to put this event together in the first place! Why does every story matter? The more we can share our stories and learn about each other’s experiences the more informed our own choices will become. It will also enable us to help those with no experience of infertility understand everything that comes with such a diagnosis. What we want is to #breaktheilence around infertility; sharing stories is the way we can achieve this. These events will always be a safe space for the #TTC community first and foremost, but the ethos is one of inclusion, so we encourage to you to extend the invitation to friends, family and colleagues who are keen to find out more. We hope that it will help them to understand how best they can support you, and others they may know, better. This event is ticketed but if you have had to spend all your money on IVF (🙋‍♀️ I’ve been there), please contact me. I don’t want that to be a barrier to you joining us on the night. @thechiefcheese @coachingemily @wearethepantsproject #ttccommunity #fertility #fertilitytreatment #infertility #FertilityLives #londonevent #panel #cancer #stillbirth #mrkh #miscarriage #donor #donoregg #donor #surrogacy #story #storytelling #inclusion #breakthetaboo #youarenotalone #thankyou #storytelling #courageous #brave #goodiebag
❤️Stockholm A day of weather extremes!
Sweden spam #1 Fabulous weekend hanging out with the gang in Sweden, celebrating the gorgeous marriage of @ben_bevan & @emingeborg ! So much fun! #bevantibells #tyresö #gorgeousfriendsgorgeoustimes #luckyluckykeels
From Portugal to Sweden in less than 24hours! Quick dip in the lake! Lush! #nofilter
Nothing to say apart from Holiday Spam Part 1! Eat, drink, repeat. #dwightportch18 #dwattsportch18 #familyholidays #valedolobo #almancil #ivfbreak
IVF is 40 today! Happy Birthday to this wonderful miraculous science that gives hope to those who may not necessarily be able to have that hope naturally, and which constantly keeps me in awe and complete frustration at the same time! I think it’s fitting that we should both be 40 in the same year... I mean surely that’s a sign right?! Right?!? IVF hasn’t been that good of a friend to us, but I wouldn’t change that friendship for the world, the reality is far darker and for that I thank it (all those wonderful people that made it happen in the first place) for the dream, as it enables the hope to live on. Even if sometimes it is incredibly cruel, i know it doesn’t mean it. It’s like a drunk friend who says something in the heat of the moment, but you’ve known them for forever and you just say “it doesn’t matter”.... sort of! 😂 It is a wondrous, miraculous science and one I know has given many people I love and care about (and many more that I don’t!), the joy of becoming parents! What a beauty! For those still continuing to hope for their dream, I’m with you all the way! So here’s to IVF, the friend with the biggest love/ hate dynamic going, I know I couldn’t live without you, but sometimes I wonder why I have to! In the meantime, I’ll raise a glass of rose to you (because I can!) and celebrate your birthday by being in a place that makes us incredibly happy (and forgetting about you for a bit... sort of!😉) 💕💕💕 #ivfis40 #ivfat40 #ivfover40 #ivfstrongertogether #ivfyouarenotalone #argc #hopingforadwighty #dwightyisalegend #luckyluckykeels #tryingtobeamum
We are here... in our happy place! We are so lucky! It’s one of those places that as soon as as we land we feel instantly relaxed and at home, our second home. Since landing four hours ago, we’ve unpacked, had a lovely lunch, done a HUGE supermarket shop, sorted the villa and now I am horizontal on a sun lounger, book ... and beer in hand and some tunes! Yes a beer, a bloody beer, because quite frankly why not!? There may be more shots of me and alcohol over the coming days, don’t judge me, sometimes, especially on holiday, a girl needs rose! Does anyone else have a place that just makes them go “ahhhhh.....”? Doesn’t matter where is it, but I think it’s important that you do. It might be a holiday home, it might be your favourite park or your own back garden, who cares... just soak it up! But I’d love to know! Right better get back to it. Expect gratuitous shots of food, drink, sun, sea and sand, and everything unrelated to IVF... and I’m not apologising for that (well I sort of am 😂😂😂) #dwightportch18 #ivfminibreakonalllevels #lifeisforliving #happyplaces #ivfat40 #luckyluckykeels #tryingtobeamum #thankyoudwighty
More packing prep... so even though I have a kindle, I’ve decided to go back to the old school for holiday this year. I love books, and I do miss the smell of those printed pages, the slight smudging of the text from the suntan cream application and the odd water mark from a dripping hand as you dry off from the pool. Yes they take up room in your luggage and perhaps precious allowance for another dress or a pair of shoes, but I think it’s worth it. So this is my haul, and I will definitely get through them, I’m a fiend! I’ve gone for a variety of genres and themes and I’m excited! @tryingyears mentioned to me about the Adam Kay book last night so at least I know what to expect now, thankyou Cat! But am excited to read it nonetheless! Maybe I might need a G&T with that one 😉 You will notice there are no IVF related texts or self help manuals! No thankyou, not this holiday! This is all about fun, escapism and immersing myself in gorgeous literature that opens my eyes, makes me feel good and maybe challenges me! So between that and making sure we keep up to date with Love Island 😂 (am not missing that!), I think I’m set! #dwightsummerholiday #dwightportch18 #booksbooksbooks #tryingtobeamum
Such a lovely few hours with this one! I’ve known this guy since I was two and we met in a little town called Oak Hills near Beaverton, Portland Oregon, and we’ve been friends ever since! We even did the #penpal thing in our early teens! We’ve roadtripped together, got drunk together, been at each other’s weddings, and been through the angst of life! We don’t see each other often but I love it when we do, good friends are always the people where it feels like yesterday and nothing is EVER awkward. #vankerkovesnicestfamilyever #englishamericanpals #penpals
Excited about this tonight! My very clever friends! #Repost @boldandbold with @get_repost ・・・ Want to learn Macrame? . We’re running a macrame workshop next week to celebrate the launch of @creativecourts. Every basketball net made will be put up on a court in East London to raise awareness of under investment in Basketball, whilst showing the community we care about these spaces. . You’ll also get to make a plant hanger to take home. Tickets through eventbrite. Thursday 12th July 7.30pm Wood Street Studios London E17 3NB . . . . . . #nothingbutnet #macrame #basketball #hoops #design #ballers #net #thedesignkids #thedesignblacklist #collectgraphics #designtip #designfeed #designeveryday #visualstyle #typespot #typography #typelove #ilovetype #typegang #posterdesign #postereveryday #typographicposter #graphicdesign #goodquote #quotes @woodstreetwalls @woodststudiose17 #posterreposter
This launched today and is brilliantly moving, sad yet uplifting, and so amazing that there is real conversation happening around this. If I’m honest, although I feel have, I’ve probably not fully processed that miscarriage happened to us. I think because we are still on the “journey”, I just clicked back into gear, but also because despite how devastating it is, you just get used to disappointment. The struggle with fertility does that to you. You will know someone that this has affected, because it is so common, don’t be afraid to talk, it’s only by doing so that you feel less alone and break the silence. 💕 to all! K x #Repost @tommys_thebabycharity with @get_repost ・・・ In the UK, 1 in 4 pregnancies will end in loss due to miscarriage, stillbirth or babies being born too soon. There is still silence and shame surrounding baby loss. But if we can talk about it openly and honestly, not only can we help each other feel less alone, but we can also pave the way for greater awareness and more research to prevent baby loss from happening. This is why we are launching a brand new campaign, 'Together for Change'. No matter what your experience, we want to bring all those who have suffered loss together online to connect and share their experiences. Let's talk, share and support each other. See link in their bio #TogetherForChange or join our Tommy's Support Group on our Facebook page today! http://www.facebook.com/groups/Tommysblsupport/ ❤
#tbt to the weekend, and the hottest day of the year! Saturday was all about raising money for @bowelcanceruk and remembering our gorgeous Janey B, by doing something that she loved! Playing hockey, having all her friends together, giggling and having a beer! It was such a gorgeous day, the sun shone, the kids ran in the water guns and bounced to their hearts content on the bouncy castle, we all ate cakes and devoured the BBQ. England flags were the favourite face painting choice, and amazing prizes went to good homes in the raffle! Oh and apparently football is coming home too! 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁥󠁮󠁧󠁿 ⚽️ ⚽️ We raised over £1500, and the money is still coming in, which is just brilliant and so many people were so overwhelming generous in all sorts of ways! We all loved running around, sort of, and I didn't ache too much given I haven't played in over two years... I am putting that down to the yoga 🧘‍♀️! 😉 It's such a great day, and I hope that we can continue to make fools of ourselves until we can no longer physically pick up a stick😂😂 Obviously it's bittersweet, because as much fun as it is, there's always the best person missing! But we know Jane would be proud, particularly of this cute dude! 🐰 🌻💕 #bowelcanceruk #missingjaneyb #takentoosoon #lifeperspectives #doinggoodthingsforgoodpeople #smallthingsbigchange #warwickunihockeyclub #guildfordhockeyclub #wannieswildcards #noteverythingisaboutivf
I’ve known these girls for nearly thirty years, and last night was the first time in ten years that all seven of us have been in the same place/ country at the same time!!! What a feat that is! It sounds ridiculous that it should have been so long, but when one lives, in Portland, one lives in Yorkshire, between them they have 15 kids and life is busy, you realise why! I love these girls, because we all knew each other when we didn’t know ourselves and we still connect regardless of what has gone on in our lives since. Childhood friends have a proper special bond I think, and one I’m proud that we all still treasure! So we drank rose, caught up on each other’s lives, ate good food, giggled and got the tube home! London summer nights with pals, just the best! Xx #bancroftsgirls #oldfriendsbestfriends #distancemakestheheartgrowfonder #stilltakingthepissoutofeachother #tryingtobeamum #luckyluckykeels
Happy 4th July to all my American pals wherever you may be! Am very chuffed and honoured to know you all!! I still remember pledging allegiance every morning at kindergarten and the good old USA holds a very special place in my heart! I ❤️ Portland, Oregon! (And everywhere else too!😉😘) #yankkid #iloveportland #childhoodmemories
So today was fun!! Very odd being the other side of the camera on a shoot, but fun nonetheless. Also you get to have your make up done, which as you all know I don’t mind so much 😉. I’m probably going to find out why I did always stay one side of the camera, but that’s not the point! The point was that it was for a really important and brilliant campaign that will be going live in September for @fertilitynetworkuk ! Eek! Well done to all the fabulous women who took part in this, it’s not an easy or comfortable thing to do, and that’s what makes you all even more fabulous! #fertilitynetworkuk #fertilityawareness #ivfcommunity #fertilitysisters #stepoutofyourcomfortzone #tryingtobeamum #ivfat40
This is Family Pratt! Great night celebrating my dad’s 70th on Saturday!! We love a photo booth! Very lucky to have parents who still love to party and are much better at it than I am! (I clearly drank way too much prosecco and after 3months off the booze, the hangover was real!) Love these guys! #jpis70 #familypratt #ivfsupportivefamily #prattgiggles
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