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Sat watching cute dogs out the window wishing they were mine ๐Ÿ™‡๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ
Iโ€™m not usually one for long captions but seeing as itโ€™s mental health awareness day, I felt it would be appropriate. Mental health is something that not only myself has struggled with, but also friends and family around me. This week at work, I finally felt comfortable enough to share my own experiences with mental health. This is something I have avoided in the past out of fear of being judged by people in the fashion industry and labelled as incapable of doing my job. Opening up about it got a great response and ended up in a discussion about body positivity (go follow @bodyposi.b sheโ€™s fab) and everyone talking about self image and how it can be affected by social media, a topic I find really interesting. For the past 3 years I have struggled with anxiety, depression and disordered eating. I neglected my body, avoided socialising with friends and had very up and down emotions. The photo on the left was taken a couple of years ago during a modelling stay in New York where I was at my weakest, both physically and mentally. I started counting my calories and refused to eat any carbs in fear of gaining weight and being a failure in my career. I hated my reflection and considered myself โ€˜fatโ€™. I walked everywhere and was eating the bare minimum in order to be the โ€˜right sizeโ€™. It wasnโ€™t until 2 casting directors told my agency I wasnโ€™t looking healthy and that I should go home, until I realised the extent of what I had done to my body. Speaking out and getting help was the best thing I ever did. I regained my love for food, as well as my confidence and a regular period. Yes I have bad days where I hate what I see in the mirror but who doesnโ€™t? I look back on photos like these and realise just how miserable I was. The second photo is of me last month. I looked at it and felt happy in how I now have a โ€˜bumโ€™ (inc stretch marks) and look healthy. I now exercise for fun, because I enjoy the feeling I get from it, not to burn calories. I realised a lot of my problems stemmed from lack of control in my life so I decided to change that. I took something that scared me and embraced it. (Continued in comments)
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Hair and make up by the lovely @catparnell today โฃ๏ธ
Havin a fag for @make_magazineuk by @billiescheepersphotography @babskymakeup (donโ€™t know why I posted 2 white screens so ๐Ÿคž๐Ÿผinsta doesnโ€™t fail me this time!)
Bye bye summer ๐Ÿ˜ฟ
Thanks for refreshing my locks! @harryrjohnson @hershesons ๐Ÿ’‡โ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ’™
Hire me again @zara ? ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธ
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Sea at sunset ๐ŸŒŠ
Comedy = tragedy + time. ๐Ÿ•Œ
Playing dress up for @parkernewyork ๐Ÿ’“
Khardung La pass - highest road in the world at 18,000ft. The high altitude made me confused and breathless for half an hour but was totally worth it ๐Ÿคฉ๐Ÿคฉ๐Ÿคฉ
3 days with no WiFi in this beaut of a place. If anyone is thinking of going to India, I would highly recommend visiting this remote village set close to the india Pakistan border, tucked away within the Himalayas. Brought home to me how lucky we all are even to have clean water and a comfy bed to sleep in. (Wonโ€™t let me tag location but will try when I have better WiFi) ๐Ÿ‘ฉ๐Ÿฝโ€๐ŸŒพ
Could I please get one vegetable burrito, brown rice, pinto beans, hot salsa, lettuce, tomato, no cheese or sour cream. Extra guac. Ta
High bun and head scarf not a great combination
Life ainโ€™t all bad
25 hours into 40hr train journey, almost exhausted 2 packs of Oreos, a loaf of bread and a jar of peanut butter ๐Ÿ˜ถ my appetite has returned ๐Ÿคค
New for @twenty6magazine shot in the London heatwave. Havenโ€™t been able to leave the hotel for a few days so no new photos of India yet but hopefully coming soon.. ๐Ÿคž๐Ÿผ
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