There were good times, there were times I felt happy, and honestly times like that I wish I could take back. But I can’t. Maybe you were right. That this is all I ever deserved. Anything more would be all lies.
• SUICIDE BOYS • ❗️trigger warning - Male suicide ❗️ Make some noise for the
In a world so rough
In a world where he has to
Pretend to be tough
Don’t mention his emotions, don’t call his bluff
Because he don’t fuck around with that feeling stuff
Because feelings are a sign of weakness
Even if it means living in total bleakness
He gotta be strong just like his Dad
Because no one can know he feels like he’s going mad
Tryna bury the thoughts he wish he never Had
Not even his mum knew he was feeling this bad
His body is filled with fear and loathing
Disguised under 3 stripes & his baggy clothing
No one to talk to, not even his best Mate
Look in the mirror n what he sees he Hates
But We only clock on when it’s a little too Late
‘It’s alright bruv I’m fine’
Cause for these men Killing themselves is the first sign
The biggest cause of death for men under 45
Each week 84 men no longer have to will to survive
That’s 84 men that should still be here alive
Cut the stigma around mental health and males
And fix the system that is continuing to fail •
I know only of suffering,
The lights grow dimmer,
Pain is lustful,
Joy is lost.
Unable to comprehend hurt and ecstasy,
I surrender myself to its grips.
The blades rupture the veins,
The blood runs wild,
Every drop leaves my body,
The glow leaves my eyes,
Soon the spirit leaves,
And an empty husk remains.
Rays of light shine her body,
Sweat trickles down her neck,
Smoke leaves her nose,
Alcohol flows into her mouth,
Heat liberated from her breath.
Sitting in this dark corner,
Doing what we aren’t meant to do,
The thrill of it slowly grows dim in me.
I see her fade out,
Losing herself with every puff,
Her spirit fading with every shot.
I call out to her,
But she ignores my voice.
The void grows in her
As I try to pull her out,
It draws her in,
It owns her being.
Not wanting to lose her again,
I follow her to oblivion.
I'm ready to lose myself for her,
For she makes me whole.
We become one in the void.