Can't sleep. These shoulders tho 👀🐻
Never! My childlike curiosity refuses to let me settle for less than GREAT! That’s what I’m after. 😎🤠#work
Life is short - things changed when I started swapping the lens.
Definitely not the most flattering pics but it's still weird to see myself at a normal size.....are those my legs?
Best jeans 👖 ever! From a size 24/26 to a size 2 🧚🏽♀️.
I remember how sick i was this day.
I had been doing so good with my eating..took this picture early morning and it got me so sad.
So.. i did what i did best.. I decided i should treat myself... one box of pizza to myself, sugar free candies ( because that was not technically bad.. but the ENTIRE bag) and a liter of diet DR.PEPPER.
Closed my shop went home to sleep and felt like I’d been hit with a bus. I slept off an on until the next day. Didn’t care about anything important. .
That’s so out of my character. So not who i am!!
It’s crazy to me, now the things ive looked back on. Like videos and memories of things I’ve said and done and that’s exactly my thoughts... It was like i had another person making decisions for me. . .
Forgive yourself for who you where and move on. Even if you’ve only been doing it for a little bit.. YOU ARE CHANGING. Inside and out and what you’re leaving behind is meant to stay there. 😘
When i start thinking about the roller coaster of binge eating that's effected me my entire life and I notice those tendencies creeping back into my life, it terrifies me to think I can ever go back to being a prisoner in my own body. I dont do well with depression or stress and the only way I know to "feel better" is to eat, to binge on thousands of calories. Even being sleeved I can still get down 5,000+ calories a day if I let myself. I still need self control, I still fight daily to keep the weight off. I need to learn new coping mechanisms other than eating my feelings so that's why I am trying my fucking hardest to hit the gym early in the mornings before work. It sets the tone for my day. It is easier for me to eat normal if I worked out that morning vs no gym then mentally for me it doesn't matter what I eat or how much. Stupid right?! I have a messed up way of thinking when it comes to my relationship with food. I am an all in or all out kinda girl, there is no in between. Hitting the gym in the mornings has really been helping my mood so I am gonna keep on this streak and see what happens. I believe exercise and food is medicine and heals our bodies. I am living proof of this. I have beat my body up so bad my whole life so it is time to treat my body the way it was always meant to be treated! My scars are part of my story, a painful story, but nonetheless my story and I embrace them!! #lovingmyselfie #gastricsleeve #vsg #gastricsleevesurgery #gastricsleevetransformation #wlstransformation #weightlossjourney #weightlossdiary #beforeandafter #skinremovalsurgery #trainandtransform #obesetobeast #fattofit #lowcarb #bariatriclife #motd #everydayisanewday #boymom #weightlossinspiration #fitspiration
Yesterday I woke up feeling like shit with a busted eye because during the night I thought my hair was a spider and punched myself in the face. Today I woke up feeling great. It’s all about finding a nice balance between existential dread and feeling good...probably...I don’t know. Im not inspirational and I’m bad at life 🤷🏼♀️😂
Now that I can eat solids, I am keeping to the same ‘safe’ food until further notice.
This is my go to meal.
4 slices of Cucumber
2 Tbsp of Cream Cheese
1 boiled egg
Half a slice of ham
This takes me about 20-35 mins to eat ( depending on the day ). Sometimes I can finish it, sometimes I cannot. I am at least getting in some Protein and Fiber.
Cant tell how awesome it feels to actually eat without feeling / getting ill.
This meal gives me about 9 grams of Protein.
Even before I had my surgery, I followed a wonderful WLS account ( @wokeuplikedez
) and grabbed inspo from her weighing everything!Now I weigh everything and this keeps me feeling in control and accountable.
When you finally master the fathead breadsticks 🤤🙌🏼
of me at my biggest. When it came to food, I went by the motto “you only live once”. I didn’t wanna die the next day without haven’t eaten exactly what I wanted or how much I wanted. What kind of life is that? It wasn’t one. I have a new outlook on life. I eat to live not live to eat. Not going to front, there are times where I’m satisfied and then I think, “I want more”. These habits took years for me to form so how can I expect to brake them overnight? My bariatric doctor office diagnosed me with an eating disorder. There is such a stigma around those 2 words. Eating. Disorder. You think of bulimia and anorexia but people rarely link obesity to them. It’s one extreme to the next. When I saw that, it opened up my eyes and made me realize I need to change NOW if I ever wanted to see tomorrow. There are only 18 days left of this year. End the year with a bang and go into 2019 with a healthy and strong mindset! Be nice to yourself because you’re always listening! #fitfam #keepingupwithashley #fit #weightloss #wlstransformation #gastricbypass