I like the thought of liking someone and the thought of being with someone. But I don’t like the feelings behind liking someone, it makes me feel vulnerable and susceptible (pretty much the same thing lol) to getting hurt. And I noticed that now when I like people I let myself have maybe a day or two to feel that emotion and then I just completely cancel it out. Anytime I think about that person, or possibly being with that person I tell myself “that’s not going to happen...” and then try to think about something else. And that’s really sad. It makes me feel like I’m strong and like I’m protecting myself but then it also makes me feel alone and sad. I hate it.