A needed look of happiness,
A smile upon my face,
But way deep down,
Inside's a hole,
Let no one go, behind the gates.
A changing shape,
A life that’s fake,
The effort needed,
I will make;
A cake I bake,
Like shedding skin,
I’ve been replaced.
An ending saved,
My life I’ll waste,
Won't have what's sought,
The things I got,
Did not embrace.
Peered over shoulders into space,
Life long mistake,
Dug my own grave;
My hopes and dreams,
I gave or trade,
All washed away,
The price I pay.
A birthing brightness,
Road was paved,
What love I had,
Chose not to stay,
None in return and none was saved,
A dying star begins to fade.
Nykki Mo ❥
Ce moment où les rôles sont inversés 📸
I can’t do anything right.
—6 kids living in squalor
my audio #vent
“I want to take my life just to give it to you.” - Lil Peep
ac drizzyaudios | cc orphcis
Is it really ok to not be ok..?
(Was a vent but I still feel like poopoo)
(Art credits in the comments)
At 12:14 p.m. - Text from “Best Friend”
“Stop saying it’s okay! What’s wrong?!” At 12:16 p.m. - You respond with
“I told you, nothing is wrong. I’m fine.”
You want to tell them everything.
But they WILL reject you.
At 2:27 a.m. - Text from “Person You Barely Know”
“Breathe, talk to me.”
At 2:28 a.m. - You respond with
“I’m anxious. I’m scared. Help me.”
They’re a good person,
But you barely trust them.
Stop it, you’re getting attached.
They’ll hurt you.
At 4:12 a.m. - Text from “Person Who ‘Cares’”
“I better see you tomorrow, promise?”
At 4:20 a.m. - You respond with
“Yeah, I promise, go to sleep.”
You make promises you can’t keep.
You get their hopes up and leave.
The last words they hear from you,
“Go to sleep.” At 5:00 a.m. - You call
At 5:05 a.m. - You call
At 5:08 a.m. - You call
They pick up.
You hang up.
They hate you.
Vent poetry/writing is becoming my new coping mechanism
Poem written above on a sheet of college lined notebook paper, written in black ink.
#poetry #poem #poemsofinstagram #vent #ventpoetry #anxiety #depression #mentalhealth #copingmechanism #art #artsy #writing #ventart #sad #notebook #pen #texts #cry #crying #sadpoetry
also had my #midnightsnack
while watching youtube videos. w nightsnack I opened the last package of my vegan oat spread I brought from sweden. I don't want to eat it but if I don't it goes bad soon and I wasted money 😩
latergram of #dinner
. spent basically all evening doing stretches and studying swedish. today was qute a good day but it didn't feel like monday at all, I hope I won't forget again that I have therapy tmrw.
» truly the bullshit has gotten old
red lipstick stained on
bleeding lips and rib showing
torso still has too much
flesh and not enough bone
do things in vein,
in their name, for their sake.
hide your pain for
pour your tears and
makeup on your sheets and
let the vodka sting your
soul, body and throat.
he's the one you love,
and he's the one you've changed for
for no reason but to
satisfy self doubt
she's the one you
loved and now she's
gone because of your mistakes.
she's all you think about and
you're nothing to her, now
and when people hear the tale,
they'll say your misery
is food for their morals
it's a free for all, no?
burn your arms and
light your heart up into
a blazing inferno
in her name and let the
guilt sink in, and
you sink in like
mask it all,
no matter how generic it sounds
you broke her
fucking heart and you'll
never forgive yourself for that
cry your sins and
greedy desires into these words
be vague so they can
understand the moral
but not the story
voltage. for maria
( sorry for scrap i wanted to complement but i fell asleep )
c'était un tableau en bois fait par un ami que j'avais ramené de paris ; (hier l'ordi à peine récupéré qui a cramé : redémarrage, un bruit sourd #ploc
, puis le noir)
l'automne fait le vide pour moi
#tabularasa #vent #nager
i remember when i was younger
after every day of an excruciating day of school
i would go to my safe place
watching futurama on my grandma's couch with hot chocolate and a cherry lollipop, always cherry
afterwards we would get a chicken breast from shoprite and tear it apart
my grandma was a pretty fancy, mannered lady in general
so this was my favorite thing
because she was never afraid to be herself with me
and i loved that
but while watching futurama i remember wishing
that i wasn't as alone as i was
that i had.. someone, anyone
that i could be like fry
and go to the future
where no one knows me
where no one hates me
where i can truly start over
and start a new life
with people who hate me as much as they love me
(it would also be pretty cool to befriend a robot)
but now i realize that i always had someone there
someone who saw through my depression
and through my fucked up life
someone who saw the good in me
and never stopped believing that i could be the better version of myself
even if i fucking murdered someone
she would still love me
her name was cecilia angela mulin
and she was my grandma
i didn't realize it
and now she's gone
so all i can do to make up for it
is to make her proud
by being that girl she saw in me
every time she looked at me with nothing but love -
please, appreciate those who are there while you still have the chance
no matter who they are
if they love you for you, fucking appreciate them
and spend as much time with them as possible
because you never know when the last time you see them will be
do you understand?
#grief #vent #imissyou #iloveyou #grandma #photography #horses #inmyheartforever #memory #gravestone
] Insomnia (It's fucking 3 am. I am tired.. But I can't sleep... I will be at school.
Another lonely day, without friends...)
Im sorry.. i haven't been well.. neither have i been a good partner or friend.. I'm having trouble finding it hard and have been taking it out on the wrong people so im sorry.. its just been one of those times where every little petty thing feels like everyone hates me so i hide away.. i dont mean to be like this.. im just scared. Afraid ill be more alone.. so im sorry.. for failing you and the one next in line.. #vent #nomanssky
This is a vent from yesterday. Something happened that made me pissed and I’ve only been telling people who I trust about this situation:/plz don’t steal this(and no I made this edit I have proof cause I know a lot of people who steal edit say that)but it would be great if nobody did... #jaidenanimations #vent
[ close as strangers ] ( i’m not gonna do requests anymore i’m sorry xx )
Super messy vent art that I’ll probably delete later
If you can’t tell, I’m feeling really not great