Still a bit banged up a bit here and there. But, that's okay. It was necessary, I suppose. And, should I forever have to wear my scars on the outside from this experience, then so be it! Let it serve as a reminder to me whenever I look in the mirror as to what my lesson was this time around. And, what a valuable lesson it was!!! This was one I do not want to ever forget. I cannot believe I was on the verge of learning it when it happened, then almost immediately lost sight of it. I am grateful for tonight. I am grateful for what I have had to go through, and even put myself through, in order to finally learn what I needed to learn. Damn. And here I was upset that the other person wouldn't explain "why" to me. I doubt they even know. Perhaps, they couldn't even fully grasp it for themselves, even if I explained it. Although, the other stuff I said in my other post is still true. All that other shit is fucked up. But, I can say that I am damn grateful that the situation is as it is now and that I do now realize that I WAS STILL, and STILL AM, the ALMIGHTY "id". Well, fuck. I still have a long way to go. So, as for me and my ego, I'm still going to draw from my memories, thoughts, and emotions to write in here and continue to move on with my life, whatever that looks like. Good luck to you in yours, and, I'll no longer be asking you "why". ✌ -p.
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