“What if the picture is bigger than you see?
And God has you right where he wants you to be.
Just listen to your heart,
He's telling you with every beat
You're still that girl.”
These lyrics from Britt Nicole’s “Still that girl,” touched my soul yesterday, y’all. You’re still that girl… you know, the one you were before infertility. I bet some of you are sitting there thinking, but am I? Trust me, I feel you on that. As I’ve navigated infertility and the subsequent grief that followed our diagnosis, I’ve felt as though it has chipped away at the very essence of who I am.
Before infertility, I was a complete goofball, quirky, kind, positive, optimistic. I was the girl that everybody told was way too nice, something I never saw as a fault! The days, weeks and months following our diagnosis, I changed. The color drained from my world, and I became the antithesis of pre-infertility Olivia. I lost myself, crumbling under the weight of it all.
As I am coming out of this grief fog, what I’m realizing is THAT girl is still inside of me, she didn’t go anywhere. Sure, it may take a little more work to locate that happy-go-lucky side of me again, but she is only gone, if I let her be. I can either lock her away deep in my heart and throw away the key or choose joy and find her again. The latter certainly sounds far better than the former. I AM STILL THAT GIRL! And so are you! In addition to being THAT girl, you are now stronger, more resilient, a fighter, an overcomer, a WARRIOR with an affinity for all things pineapple! Never forget how amazing you are, beautiful warrior. Infertility is only a part of our journeys, and it does not define us! You’re still that girl… you just have to choose to find her again. And if you’re not ready, that’s ok, just know she’s there and ready when you are. 💗🍍✨
“Your sunrise is coming brighter than gold.” #stillthatgirl #encouragement @itsbrittnicole