I don't know about anyone else but since starting our journey I've tried my best to get my body prepared to carry a child. I've read & been given so much conflicting information about how best to achieve pregnancy, none of which appears to be working, that I've decided to go back to basics. You get given all this information about what you should & shouldn't be doing, what to eat & drink, what vitamins you should be taking, how & when to exercise, what your lifestyle should be like, knowing the ins & outs of your cycle and anatomy that you could almost call yourself an untrained gynaecologist..the list could go on & on & on..... & ON! I've been treating myself as though I'm pregnant every single month for what feels like forever & not having anything come of all the effort, not even a glimmer, is heart breaking.
I don't see the women "not trying" doing anything differently while we're all here bending over backwards, legs in the air (literally) trying juggle our lives, jobs, appointments, vitamins, not to mention our relationships, whilst also trying to fit in just alittle self care. It's draining, so I'm going to try and focus on myself for alittle awhile, trying to conceive will still be at the forefront of my priorities but I'm going to do things my way & make more time to nurture my inner self....
HSG may be in the next couple of weeks 😬 🤞🏻hopefully it will all go okay.
Remember to always look after yourselves 😘 It's not selfish, it's necessary! 🍍❤️🍍 Also don't know if anyone has noticed but my favourite colour is 💙
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One of the only things that I am grateful for on this TTC journey is how it has taught me to say “sorry” to others suffering without adding a “but” or giving advice. With all of the things that I’ve hated having people say to me I’ve learned what not to say to others. “Im sorry BUT remember it only takes one”, “I’m sorry this happened BUT you just need to relax more”, “wow that sucks, just adopt”. NO! A million times no! I’m so so grateful that I’ve learned this lesson. I’m so thankful that I’ve learned to give my condolences to people and meet them where they are. I know it’s natural to try and offer encouragement or a way out but it always ends up making me feel like shit when others say it to me. I’m so appreciative that I’ve learned to just say “I’m sorry this has happened, I’m here for you and sending you all my love”. I’m glad that I’ve learned to be a better person, friend and shoulder to cry on. Thank you infertility for helping me grow (even if only mentally and not in womb size 🙄)
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Positive opk 21st September 2018. We have decided to keep trying for our beautiful rainbow. We had some time to think about it and had lots of long conversation and came to the conclusion that we want to keep trying. This month could be 3rd time lucky as the last 2months we lost our babies💔💔I know I have some beautiful good eggys that don’t have the Chromosomal translocation so we are willing to risk it. A lot of information that I have researched a lot of time it’s a 50/50 chance of miscarriage. I understand that’s a huge chance but what if it works❤️ what if we get lucky and conceive naturally. What a true blessing and miracle that beautiful baby would be. I want this to work and I believe in my heart it will💖Thank you to everyone who has reached out and helped me so much the last couple of weeks, also thank you so much for all the feedback and the advice I have received about others who also have Chromosomal translocation it has been so helpful. It was the day before my husband birthday when I got my positive and I feel in my heart it was fate. Please send any positive vibes our way any extra support and luck would be amazing. We are so ready and I can feel our baby is ready to finally meet us and I know the wait would have been more than worth it. Hope everyone has a magical weekend. #ttc #ttccommunity #ttcsupport #ttcsisters #chromosometranslocation #opk #positiveopk #hopeful #love #rainbowbaby #infertility #ttcjourney #infertilitysucks #infertilityawareness #infertilitysisters #ttcaftermiscarriage #ttcafterloss #weareready #birthdayweekend #infertilityjourney
Own your story and love yourself in the process. ❤️ We all come from different walks of life and that's what make each one of us special in our own way. Embrace it and let the love shine through!
We haven't officially announced anything yet, but most likely in a few weeks this place is where we will call our future home?! 😳🤗
We agreed a while back that after two natural miscarriages and if IVF failed (which it did with another miscarriage last month) that we would put our house up for sale and move to Florida! Well it's finally happening! House has been on the market for a week and Jeremy got the job offer today. So now it's just the logistics of when we will be moving. Jeremy explained to his future boss our circumstances and he told him that God has had this plan all along and he has opened doors for us and will bless us!
The next few month will be crazy, exciting and nerve wracking!
When Aunt Flo arrives and breaks your heart, grab your partner an enjoy a beer. Another month, another failure, this month I have no tears, I feel numb, I know it will eventually hit me again but for now I will enjoy this beer and be grateful for what I have. I have a loving partner who deserves a happy night.
I’m going to let you in on a little secret . . . .
Drinking a cup of coffee isn’t going to stop you from getting pregnant. .
There. I said it. .
It’s really just not about the coffee. It’s about whatever in your life you are revolving around getting pregnant. Just hear me out. .
I read soooo many people talk about giving up coffee, or not working out, not eating sushi, not drinking alcohol .... whatever it is, in order for them to get pregnant. Guess what - I did it too!!! But In the last 4 years, 8 months & 21 days of living with infertility, I learned that at the end of the day - it is not going to make or break you getting pregnant. .
I, personally, believe that if you want to do something to make yourself healthier overall - Then please, do it! But if your sole reason for not drinking coffee (or whatever) is so you can get pregnant .... I promise that 1 cup of coffee is NOT going to stop that from happening. .
Now - if you are drinking an entire pot or more of coffee every day ... or getting wasted every night .... this is a different story - and I’m happy to have a come to Jesus meeting with you about it .... .
I lived in a 2-3 week “cycle” for far too long. You know - the one where you spend the first 2-3 weeks trying to ovulate .... and then the next 2 weeks being to scared to breath Incase you do something to mess up implantation. It was enough to drive me crazy!!!! .
If it’s your tradition to go out and have sushi and drinks with your girlfriends .... or have pizza & beer on Thursday Grey’s anatomy night ... DO IT!!!! .
I know it’s hard to not revolve your life around trying to get pregnant. I know what it’s like to be willing to give up everything and anything to get pregnant. I was there. I did it. But I stopped truly living. I got so caught up in the whirlwind of infertility that almost every decision I made was based off how it would affect my chances that cycle. This is no way to live. .
I want you to just live your life! If a cup of coffee in the morning makes you happy. Drink the coffee. .
First ultrasound this morning (swipe for video!)... and there are 2 sacs ❤️❤️ ... both of those beautiful embabes that are a little bit me and a little bit Anthony made it. Sac B showed us a gorgeous fetal pole with a heartbeat of 110bpm... and Sac A appears empty right now. My RE said it could possibly be too early and that Baby A is behind in growth... he said that maybe we’ll see a growing baby at next week’s scan, but not to get our hopes up. I know this is a happy day— I really really do... and I am celebrating and filled with so much love I can barely take it. But I also am stricken with a pain that I can’t quite shake... it’s fear I think. Or maybe it’s pre-grief? Setting myself up for the bad news next week that Baby A didn’t make it?... but at the same time so full of hope that it did? Also feeling the first pangs of mom guilt that I’m thinking about Baby A instead of beautiful, growing Baby B? This is such good news— we have a growing baby... finally ❤️❤️ I guess I just feel guilty to feel too happy and also feel guilty to not. I’m all over the place. xo .
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For all my #PCOS
sisters, I know the journey to ttc is fraught with lots of emotions and anxiety. I've recently been diagnosed with pcos when they found that my fsh : lh levels were way off kilter. I've accepted the things I cannot change.
Still trying to patiently wait out the two weeks from my ovulation shot following 100mg of clomid. I went to have my progesterone checked yesterday, still waiting on results from that! Fingers crossed that everything has workout out this month, if not I will keep trying! I know what I want, and my future children are worth it! #ttcrainbowbaby #ttccommunity #ttcsupport #ttcaftermiscarriage #ttcafterloss
I've been so swamped with so many projects that I forgot how much I LOVED creating new goodies for you guys. I'll be adding new goodies to my etsy shop every week - promise! Here are a bunch of new digital downloads 💖
Well, we did it!
As I have mentioned before we’re on a fertility break for the remainder of 2018.
We decided we were going to save like crazy & in January we would start again with medical treatment + start the adoption process, and whichever miracle came first we’d take the opportunity. BUT! I can’t sit still. I feel like everyday is wasted.
My husband shared with me that while he was at work he got emotional bc feels worthless. We got the zero sperm count & stopped. That isn’t far to him. For his heart. I’ve become a little on the Wifey Bear/Mama Bear mode and it pisses me off that my loving, biggest heart, hard working husband who would do anything for us has to feel this way. He doesn’t deserve it. And I am determined to change that. To find answers so he doesn’t have to feel this way anymore. So we don’t have to feel worthless & incapable.
So we did it!
Even though the cash pay prices scare us, we don’t care anymore.
We scheduled a consultation with a local RE. I’ve heard of nothing but amazing reviews & how he has gotten many people pregnant. What’s best of all is he works with male infertility also which our last Specialist did not & referred us to a Urologist 2 hours away.
Our appt is not until November but omgeeeee I am so excited! So hopeful! So ready for answers!
Can anyone relate? Have you said you’re going to take a break & did NOT? Lol. •
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So I can’t say enough about this series- Mindfulness Fertility Series. This is a 6 week course that I truly believe helped me get pregnant and stay pregnant. I had two failed transfers with 10 years of infertility before that and I’m happy to say with a doctor change, protocol change, all the things you read to help with implantation and this wonderful course, I am pregnant. Im not only a little pregnant, I’m a lot pregnant, 8 weeks away at most! I’ve learned how to be mindful of myself and what’s around me. I’ve learned how to listen to my breath, eat healthy and how to connect with others just like me. This isn’t some gimmick, this is a life changing series and I encourage all that are still in the trenches to sign up! I love the instructors and you will receive so much support even after the course is over! Just a few more days to buy your class and class starts on the 27th! Link in bio- you won’t be sorry... the class is $400 and so so worth it! So if you’re on a budget but need some help, maybe have a few less coffee drinks or less dinners out because this is your future! oh and I posted a new blog post the other day :) @kyannraye
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There are many things you can do to improve quality of life when you’re struggling #PolycysticOvarianSyndrome
🧡 One strategy typically overlooked is a #PCOSdiet
👈🏻 A #PCOS
diet can lessen insulin resistance & prevent you from becoming diabetic, improve the overall condition of the uterus, increase the chances for #ovulation
& reduce the likelihood of miscarriage❗️
Balance blood sugar levels by including plenty of foods that are low on the Glycemic Index (GI)! Try these items below ⤵️
🔸Leafy green vegetables 🍃
🔸Cruciferous vegetables such as kale & broccoli 🥦
🔸Sour fruits such as grapefruit 🍊
It’s necessary to prioritize a healthy eating plan because you can help yourself manage the rapid changes in blood sugar levels & seek advice from your doctor if insulin problems worsen! 👩⚕️👨⚕️
Protein sources that are low in saturated fats are also recommended! These include ⤵️
🔸Low-fat dairy products 🥛
Choose ORGANIC products whenever possible! 👌🏻 Especially when shopping for meat & dairy products because foods that contain added hormones can further disrupt the body’s chemistry.
When choosing carbohydrates, it is recommended to buy 100% whole grain products since they contain higher amounts of fiber & protein. 🍞 This means a slower rate of digestion, which causes a more gradual & lower rise in blood sugar.
As you’re making changes to your diet, try to understand your Unique Carb Tolerance aka UTC by watching for symptoms after you eat a particular amount of XYZ. Take notes to reference later if needed by your fertility specialist! 📝
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2dp5dt: slept pretty solid last night, cramping has been minimal last night and today, but I did have some pretty wackadoodle dreams last night, and I had a headache this morning. Other than that, nothing to report. I’m dying to get out and get back to my normal routine, especially exercise. Gosh I’ve been needing that for at least a month, not to mention the nocturnal gymnastics. Hahahaha, but I’m keeping myself busy catching up on Call the Midwife, finished that latest season up quickly. I think I’m gonna restart Supernatural, its my version of Friends, with a lot less pivot, and a lot more rooty tooty point and shooty. Doing my best to ignore the TWW. #ivfjourney #2dp5dt #ivf #ivfwarrior #infertilitysucks #tww #infertility #embryo #ttc #ttcsupport #pupo #Waiting4BFP
Today I just want to quit!
My toddler was being a little _______, I was worried about her peeing her pants #pottytraining
and my workout was FREAKIN’ HARD!! 😩
Instead of quitting I just had to Stop. Rest a min. Get myself together. And breathe.
That little voice in my head just kept saying ‘you can do it. Only 15 more seconds’. I may have even cursed at it. Ok maybe more than once. 🙈🤣 It’s hard to push past what you think your limits are. But that’s where the real magic happens!! 🌟
I lived through it and am so thankful I have another week before leg day tortures me again!! 🤣
What workout does this to you?
Not going to lie, I don’t feel great about this lot arriving this morning, plus all the boxes that are now in the fridge!
I’m not really sure how I thought I’d feel, but it’s definitely not happiness or excitement.
Ophelia is away with her nanny tonight, the house is far to quiet and I’m feeling a little lost, I know it’s probably normal but I just feel odd 😢
Stims day 10 and starting to struggle with soreness. Been on 3 injections per night for the last 4 days so my stomach is currently 10 shades of blue, pink and purple. Egg collection has been tentatively booked for Tuesday pending bloods and another scan on Sunday. Things are getting real now! #ivficsi
I wish I had better news especially after the devastating news that I had yesterday with the insurance company. My E2 level is too high to start stims. I will continue on the birth control and go back next week. Hopefully the level comes down.
To be honest, I can’t say that I’m taking this well.
This picture popped up in Facebook today from a year ago and gave me alllllll of the feelings. I scrolled by it but have been feeling all day like I need to acknowledge it, because knowing that you aren’t alone is the most helpful thing there is sometimes and it could help someone.
This was the last picture you can find of us together smiling before there are no more for about seven months. I was pregnant in this picture and already scared that something wasn’t right. And we had just ripped down the first wall in the house that hid countless really terrible surprises. Looking at this picture hurts because I can see it in our faces that we were trying SO hard to be hopeful... we were clinging to the hope that everything would be alright with us, and our family, and our home.
And then it wasn’t. Two weeks later I had confirmation that I was having a “missed miscarriage” and the pregnancy ended. It all tumbled from there with moving out and virtually rebuilding the whole home, finding out about my PCOS, two outpatient surgeries, a bunch of doctors, and my husband working around the clock, away from me, when I was in a scary and lonely depression. This picture feels like a visual reminder that even when you try to have faith things can fall apart.
I know a lot of people go through worse. And for longer. And I’m not trying to say we have been through the most terrible things that anyone ever has. But my point is that I get it if you’ve been through anything similar, or will go through it, and get pulled really low. And I don’t care how well I do or don’t know you, you can reach out to me. Sometimes life is hard and it isn’t because we’re doing it wrong, it’s because life is HARD.
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