This passed weekend I attended a women’s circle. We held space for each other, we meditated, we danced our way through a grounding yoga practice, & we spoke our truths. After my meditation I wasn’t quite sure what to share to the beautiful women of the circle because so much came up for me. But I’ve had time to process & understand what I experienced. When I sat in meditation, I felt I was outside my body & I was sitting with myself. I was sitting right in front of her. I was able to look at her, observe her, feel her. I was so fucking proud of her. Wow. So so proud. I know her story. I know all the work, the ugly, the determination, the dedication it took to be here now, just as she was. I sat with her in silence. We didn’t speak. We sat scrolling through each piece of our life; the beautiful, the awful, the sweet, the dark. No judgement. Only gratitude. I thanked each story of my life. Each page that was written. Each person that I met. Each choice that I ever made, even if it wasn’t the right one. I was grateful. Because without my story I wouldn’t be who I am today. I wouldn’t be there sitting in meditation with myself feeling like Wonder Woman. It’s taken years to be able to sit with myself & feel as though I’m sitting with a loved one. To not feel alone but to feel connection. To not feel anxious but to feel contentment. And to not feel broken but to feel whole. This experience was so overwhelming, so powerful, filled with so. Much. Love. All the effort put into self-discovery, self-care, the inner work, had beamed its way to the surface. Between moments of heartache, of pain, of confusing & doubt, there’s moments like these that leave you feeling rooted back into your earthful life & reassured you’re on the right path. And now I sat there not with one beating heart but with two. Indescribable magic. We all have a story & we all have a journey. My pages continue to fill with words & sentences that only I can write. I thank my past for the lessons, I thank the present for my message, & I thank my future for the opportunity to love life to infinite depths.
Big thanks to @life.as.jessi
for leading the Women’s Circle. Love you & grateful for you🌛