Yep... It went fucking crazy... And it went that way because I'm sick and tired. Tired of my nightmares, tired of being mistreated... But tires as well of being so angry at life all the time. But, first things first:
is fucking great. I am learning to feel the contraction on every movement made for the back, specially on the rowing movements. I used to feel every row on my biceps instead of on my lats or the mid back... But now the whole fucking game has changed.
Along with that, my back movements are getting a lot stronger, and ironically, my bench as well.
Today after hitting my 100 from hell warmup, i started with barbell rows and smith machine shoulder presses. My shoulder press is still weak, but... I'll get there.
Then low polley row and heavy dmbl rows (did 4 with a 100, no straps and no belt).
And to finish up, v bar pulldown, dips, flat bench press (180lbs per 6) and dmbl flies.
Today i wanted a pump, so... I played with the weight and reps, on all i did 5 sets, the reps went from 4 to 8...depended on the weight.
As you can see, i got the pump i was looking for, and that is awesome.
I am starting to look like someone who lifts so... Im proud.
We have to be proud of our achievements, they might not be mind blowing, but they are great. To some of us, the simole fact of getting through the day without commiting either murder or suicide... Is a great achievement, and we should feel proud of that. It ain't easy dealing with depression AND anxiety, i know... But for me, the gym helps a lot. And each lift, each ounce of muscle I gain or of fat that I loose, is a reason to keep pushing. I suggest you guys find yours, because at the end of the day... Life is great, we just have to learn how to see it. Maybe you don't do bodybuilding, but you dance, sculpt, compose... Art saves you... You save you... Be healthy, be secure, be confident... Be The Iron #BETHEIRON #bodybuilding #mensphysique #powerbodybuilding #powerlifting #strengthening #backday #trainharderthanme #fitness #training #pumppic #bloodsweatrespect #conquer #dominate #KillerBackProgram #joker #dc #thekillingjoke #blackcraftcult #mentalhealth #metalhead