🎄 i rarely post videos but this one came up in my memories from 3 years ago and i can’t believe it has been that long. this video may not be very special to you but it is one of my all time favorites that i’ll always cherish. 🎄november is national adoption month and as i am forever grateful i was adopted into a big family with two loving parents, i am also so very blessed my parents gave me an open adoption so i’d be able to meet this amazing man (my biological father) , or anyone in my bio family if i chose to.
i wish i could rewind time and develop a relationship with him so much sooner than i decided to. i was upset, hurt, nervous and scared to meet him. when you’re younger and adopted, i think you hold a lot of resentment towards your bio parents because you don’t fully understand why they “gave you up”. in a lot of situations, that is not the case. sometimes humans make poor choices that can lead to your child(ren) leaving your care. when you’re younger, it’s harder to understand that. it’s hard to make sense of life. i don’t think you fully comprehend it at any age, honestly, but as you grow older and mature, you accept and understand more things and why they happen. therefore, you become more forgiving, understanding and more open to the idea of adoption.
the first time i actually sat down and met him, i brought a journal with me and asked him all kinds of questions so i’d never forget what he’d say. (so glad i did that) 🎄one of the many things we had in common was our passion for music, art and playing the piano. he was an amazing pianist. in this video, he’s playing, “The Christmas Song” (Chestnuts Roasting On An Open Fire)
he hadn’t played this song before so this was his first time. i told him it was one of my favorite Christmas songs so he played it for me. he got frustrated a couple of times because he messed up (you can hardly tell) but as he played, i saw me in him. oh, how i miss him.
we became so close in the last year of his life, and although i have feelings of regret for not developing a relationship with him sooner, my feelings of gratitude surpass that. i’m fortunate to have known him and have created many memories with him. i love you