This last week has been pretty pants to say the least.
There’s being back to reality after a holiday, with housework, kids to entertain on my own, food shopping (and actually cooking food) to do, bills to pay and lists to write (you all know I love a list). Then there’s coming back to that reality but with an extra added kick in the girl parts.
To say I’ve struggled is not only an understatement, but in my opinion, a brave statement to make. So many of us hide behind these social media squares, only posting the good stuff-leaving out the tantrums, the rows and the worries life throws our way.
But I have-I’ve spent most of the week unmotivated, guilty because I feel like I should be doing more with the kids, and in a general brain fog... I’ve felt at my absolute loneliest-unable to discuss why I’m so low, and what is worrying me-because I don’t want to be a burden to others, and I don’t want to share something so personal with people who should be there for me regardless, not just with this.
I’ve pined for my husband every day-knowing he’s the most support I have most of the time, wishing we were back on holiday where I had him by my side all of the time.
Every time I’ve managed to get dressed I’ve worn my mother in laws hoody I borrowed while away-it’s oddly comforting to have it near me.
Today though, I knew I needed more.
I emailed my counsellor from months ago, and told him the situation. He’s calling me tomorrow, to basically get me through next weeks events. And I did that. I took that step and listened to my own mind.
I don’t have to do this alone. And I have all I need to help me through whatever is about to come my way 👊🏻 #mentalhealthawareness #bebrave #askforhelp #dontdoitalone #yourenotalone #braverthanyoubelieve #listentoyourmind #youreallineed #takemebacknow #holidayblues #backtoreality