Last night goes down in the books as one of the worst pain nights I've had - the worst my husband has experienced with me. Along with the unexplained extreme irritability and stabbing pains that I have been feeling for the past couple of weeks, it all seems to have culminate with deep aches, more stabbing pains in pressure points and nerve pain all over. At one point, a lightning storm rose from my bowels and into my stomach causing me to gag. My husband wanted to take me to the ER but I didn't want to brave the sensory overload of the waiting room, plus every movement brought a burning head rush. So there we were sprawled on the bathroom floor trying to breathe through the pain - waiting it out. This is cycling. When untreated, after a Fibromyalgia cycle, your baseline health becomes worse than it was before. On the Guaifenesin Protocol however, after the cycling your baseline health is better than it was before.
Today I feel lighter, more free. I'm fatigued and sore to be sure and I've spent most of the day on bed, but it's more like the aftermath of over doing it.
After everything calmed down last night, I sat in my Epsom salt soak with muscles still jumping and shivering from over exhaustion thinking how these past couple months I've felt sifted like wheat. We've experienced pressure from all sides. However, God continues to bless us, revealing His presence to us giving us hope through the blows coming right and left. When Satan intends to sift us like wheat his aim is for only bitterness and brokenness to remain. But God intends for a more purified soul to come through. It feels like death is coming but really birth is happening. God's will cannot be thwarted and not one of His children will ever be lost. And so we sing, 🎶 It is well, it is well, with my soul!
Though Satan should buffet,
though trials shall come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And hath shed His own blood for my soul!
It is well, it is well, with my soul. 🎶