because today is National Mental Health Day and I believe it’s apt to share with you my post-Chicago marathon evolution. Although I have never been diagnosed with anything mental health related, mental health is still related to how we calibrate our narratives in our brains. So here it goes:
I went into the race steely-eyed with surgical precision on what I needed to “get done” on Sunday. I had the 5 mile markers of when to take my #gu
written on my arm. My coach Nicole @heartnsolerunning
said to do a self check in at Mile 10 and then step on the gas at Mile 21. 7 “things” I needed to check off of my “To Do List” between the start and finish lines. ✅Got it!
I didn’t make my goal time and did not like that. I had too many #strangerfriends
around me the ENTIRE race. The crowd was constant and the fans were in the street. Admittedly, I was frustrated during the race, feeling like I was “stuck in traffic”. When people asked me how did I do? my response was generally “eh” or “meh” and downplayed the fact that my 41:53 PR wasn’t the 59 min I had hoped for. I also believe my body was working a little harder than I realized in trying to keep me warm. I didn’t realize how cold I was until I saw one of my race photos and my lips had no color (swipe to see).
It took a while for me to realize that now 3 days ago, I ran 26.2 miles from beginning to end as part of only my SECOND marathon at one of the biggest races in the world with all my #strangerfriends
from all 50 states and 100+ countries!!! #saywhat
It took me 6 half marathons for me to run 13.1 miles straight.
From that point on, I worked on reminding myself to bask in my continued badass-ery. Marathon racing is hard and you never know what the course, the weather, the crowd are going to throw at you that day. Embrace the mystery!! I should be and I am thankful for all my #strangerfriends
who surrounded me with their pursuit of their goals on October 7, 2018. Even though I didn’t get my goal time, things contributed to it were out of my control and I cannot be upset about that.
In the end, Chicago, you did not disappoint.❤️💙❤️💙❤️💙