Long post warning!
On Saturday, a faint positive line popped up on my #hpt
. I was ecstatic and a little incredulous. What are the odds that we would get pregnant on our first attempt at #IUI
? We immediately began daydreaming about the newest addition to the family.
I took a succession of six additional pregnancy tests over the next couple of days, and while the line got a little darker, it was never stark. I went to my #RE
for a blood test on Monday, and they called back to say my HcG levels weren’t what they would have expected. I went back two days later, and my levels still weren’t doubling. The nurse told me not to panic, that sometimes the levels build more slowly in an IUI pregnancy compared to an IVF cycle. But doctor still wants me to come in for yet another blood draw on Friday.
Best case scenario: my low HcG could mean nothing – just that the hormones are taking a little bit longer to build for this pregnancy.
Or it could mean that I’m having a #chemicalpregnancy
– where the egg doesn’t fully implant, usually because of some kind of chromosomal defect, and will result in an early #miscarriage
. This, while heartbreaking, would be the next best case scenario.
That’s because the worst case scenario is that it means I’m having an #ectopicpregnancy
– where the egg implanted somewhere other than the uterus , like the fallopian tube. Ectopic pregnancies are never viable and are the leading cause of maternal deaths in the first trimester, as they can cause internal hemorrhaging if the fetus grows enough to rupture the fallopian tube. Once identified, they might be able to be resolved with medication, or it might require surgery that may or may not impact future fertility.
I haven’t posted much since that first positive test. First it was because I was waiting to have blood confirmation before sharing my good news. Then it was because I’ve been struggling not to lose the joy of being pregnant to the worry about what those numbers could mean. I decided to post because the whole reason I chose to share this journey with #infertility
is because I believe being open can make this less lonely❤️