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So June into July, I pushed through a thing (Built a motorcycle), day after day, even when that little voice in my head was yelling at me on most days....
* "What are you thinking, you're sick, you're weak, you've made your condition worse, you should be in the hospital, your shoulders feel dislocated, you can't walk now, say goodbye to your professional bartending career forever now, happy?" *
I responded to that little but loud voice with a big 🖕, "I'm strong, gaining momentum with my healing, and slowly beating an incurable, ruthless disease, Systemic Lupus, that stole my life away from me almost 2 years ago, and almost took it for good while alone in the dark a few times. I will love myself now more than ever, I will be happy, and grateful for how hard I've fought to be here, how hard I've fought to learn how to not fold when I'm in pain, mentally or physically, that I really can and will, simply breathe deep again." I think I just quoted myself, quoting myself. 🤔😂🧠💥🖤
I will always fight the toughest moments with all the things that flood me with life and love, those are what will make me strong again, not the sickening treatments that they say I'll need for the rest of my time. Look around you, learn to love you, and believe that everything you could ever need is within you. Keep an eye out for next post, the after shots 😉 #illbeback