"And if you don't like it, you can leave it. 'Cause it's my own and I'll keep owning it. If you don't like what I'm wearing, well, you're only bothered 'cause you're staring. And you'll never talk me into caring. 'Cause it's my own and I'll keep owning it. " S. L. U. T. by @beamiller
>>if you have a bad day read the text below<<
So this post is a big, big step for me. I'm trying to be more confident. I listened to the song I quoted the last two days and gathered the confidence to post this now. Biggie for me.
Wearing these clothes also is a lot for me, most of this is thanks to @spookymishka
the best support-confidence-starbucks-dork-motivation friend you could imagine. She basically forced me into all the things I bought, without her I would've bought my usual big baggy black clothes. So thank you, I love you a lot.💜.
But she also teached me that just bc smth doesn't fit you, it doesn't have to mean that you're too skinny or too fat. There are so many body types out there, the pants, shirt or socks maybe just don't do anything for you. WHICH IS OKAY. No one looks good in everything. Every type should be appreciated as long as the person is healthy! We have to stop with all the negative thoughts and have to try and be more positive to ourselves. Being nice to others is always easier than being kind to yourself. You don't have to live yourself right away. But you can start with an "I'm okay the way I am" or even with "I don't have to hate myself.", baby-steps are the solution. Ofc society tells us that we have to be skinny, but not too skinny! But srsly I don't give a damn about anything else society tells me. So why do I care what they tell me about my weight? Good question, but I don't have an answer. I think ppl should start with stopping the negative thoughts. So if you look in the mirror and you think "I'm so ugly I can't even look at myself today." you force that thought away, because we don't talk to ourselves like that anymore and you say "I'm beautiful the way I am." you don't have to believe it right away. But you will realise a change
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