Not only happy. Spontaneous, not bombardised with infinite thoughts every minute, not having suicidal urge every god damn second, not faking every smile, not fcking different, not ill, not problematic, not a moving coffin which talks, not paranoid, normal, glad, healthy....who bother with silly stuff such as boys and friends all the time and not with whether they're gonna kill themselves today or tomorrow... freaking happy.
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hi friends! if we haven’t insta met yet, i’m jordana like banana. ☺️ i’ll share more about myself tomorrow, but as for now, I want to share my struggle with anxiety over the past several decades of my life.
scared of riding in elevators by myself. scared of flying on planes. scared of driving by myself. multiple panic attacks a day for months. agoraphobia for months - multiple times. feeling convinced that i would die. wanting to be hospitalized on the worst days. emailing my therapist multiple times a day. being on meds since college. my first panic attack even happen right before a plane took off and I was evacuated directly to an ambulance waiting for me on the runway. 🙈
I share this because what might have been just as painful was the shame I carried. the embarrassment. the you-should-be-able-to-stop-feeling-this-way thoughts.
so first, if you’ve ever felt this way, if you currently feel this way, you’re not alone. you’re not doing anything wrong. you’re not a bad person because of this.
second, I want to help. so starting today, i’ll be sharing anxiety hacks on how to find relief fast.
third, I’ve decided to cap my workout accountability anxiety support group to only 10 women. we start on monday. 2 spots have already been filled so if you’re interested, drop a ❤️ and i’ll send you more info.
It is not always easy to be confident. Sometimes we say, "I will do this when I find the confidence". Confidence is not found it is developed. We become confident by engaging in activities that give us reassurance to go further. The important question is, how can we develop and that confidence? There is only one way, take little steps that encourage you to take bigger steps. Regardless of your fear, what I find works best is baby steps. Constant positive reinforcement. I don't believe in the theory of "just do it and everything will be fine". I believe this can have long term negative effects. Then again it is just my opinion! What do you think? #anxiety #goals #motivation #success #sales #stress #anxietycoach #panicattacks #generalizedanxiety #lifecoach #health #happiness #joy #livehappy #successful #love
🎉It's official...we are no longer home owners!!🎉 Yahoo! 🤗 (swipe left for before pics of master suite) ➡ While most people only celebrate when buying a house, we are thrilled to have sold our house & It's officially closed & done! 🎉 .
I instantly saw the bones & potential that this sunny home could be. 😍 We both envisioned raising a family here for years to come. ❤ As newlyweds, we were (unintentionally) busy crossing things off our adulting checklist. We spent so much time worrying & working towards the future, that we suddenly forgot how to enjoy the present. There never seemed to be enough time in the day after long stressful days at work for our hobbies or interests. Housework, cleaning, painting, projects & a handful of other responsibilities, always seemed to steal our time & energy.
Last winter was the most difficult period in my life. Being a full-time Architecture student again, running my own business, trying to manage our entire house + dogs & social pressure, finally had me at a breaking point. I was drained both mentally & physically. Things became increasingly difficult & life just became too much. I have always had a passion for Architecture, Interior Design, building, creating, d.i.y./renovating. But my brain hyperfocus on interests & can't rest until everything is "perfect".
So while trying to renovate & keep up with this house, on top of everything else, I was only becoming more anxious, stressed, sick & miserable. This house became a never ending to-do list. We both realized something had to give. What was really most important to us? Answer: health, happiness, us, peace & nature.
We quickly learned that if we don't advocate for ourselves, our needs, our wants, no one else will. So to all those who feel alone, please know that you are not! ❤ Maybe you're single, childless, unhappily married, miserable at your job, want a smaller house or a bigger house or can't afford a house or bills, you're ill or sick of whatever...please just know you can step away. You don't have to do what society tells you is acceptable. You can write your own story. Things on social media are not always how they seem, so don't be too afraid to just be you! ❤
💚 MEL 💚 This week has been tough.. it’s been busy. Every day of my life is busy to be fair.. 3 children, husband working away, chores, chores, chores.. but I’ve been feeling prickly and stressed and worried.. this week has been hard 😥
Some of you may know my Nanny died last month.. well my uncle died too.. and my father in law had most of one lung removed down to cancer.. August sucked big time for me.. 😢
I hate saying these things out loud.. it makes them all the more real... but this week I knew I needed to say them.. I knew I needed to talk to someone.. because I wasn’t sleeping.. I was having panic attacks at night that it was going to happen to me.. I wanted to close my eyes and sleep.. but was afraid of what I might dream.. 😓💔
The real pain in my chest and the feeling all over me that I might stop breathing.. and not be here for my children and they would have to find me.. I never thought I’d be that person that felt like this.. I feel strong.. did feeling like this make me weak? No... 🙅♀️
Saying these words to someone hasn’t made these things completely vanish.. but one thing I do know.. I feel ten million percent better than I did a week ago!💕 If you feel the need... talk... you will find someone to listen... and it may not disappear but it’s a first step 😘
When I first started drinking celery juice.... let’s just say I wasn’t a fan. I could only drink a few sips. But by gradually drinking a little bit more each day I was able to build it up.
Celery juice has been critical in helping me heal from anxiety, panic attacks and insomnia.
This is some of what Anthony talks about on celery juice (abridged for this post):
‘That celery’s mineral salts are such an important support for the central nervous system means they are extremely healing for people who are struggling with depression, anxiety and posttraumatic stress disorder (PTSD).
Celery can aid in neurotransmitter performance for sleep support. Celery also improves methylation, that is, the proper absorption and utilization of hundreds of nutrients, including B12 and zinc.
The electrolytes in celery hydrate on a deep cellular level, lessening your chances of suffering from migraines, anxiety, panic attacks, and more.’
No matter what you are trying to heal, whether it is anxiety, acne, eczema, fibromyalgia, IBS, migraines or so many other illnesses, you need to be drinking this miracle juice! Check out Anthony William’s website and books to find out more about how it can help you.
#medicalmedium #lifechangingfoods #thyroidhealing #liverrescue #celeryjuice #foodismedicine #anxiety #healinganxiety #panicattacks
another morning awake at 5am! (me, not parker pie, thank goodness 🙌🏻). had 90 minutes to meditate, tap, listen to a motivational audio, clear my fb notifications, and get some work done. and then this little guy woke up at 6:30! we’re cuddling and watching some tv together now before the day begins. ☺️
i have a full and fun day ahead! we’re dropping off little guy at school and then going to get massages and then this afternoon we have our weekly team meeting. feeling grateful, grounded and good this sweet morning. happy thursday to you!✨
I put make up on.. for me, i put lippy on.. just for me, i got dressed pretty... for myself.... you wouldnt know it but this is a face of someone who is suffering from Anxiety. Its sucks the life out of me sometimes.. Ive suffered from a few panic attacks and its drained me something shocking... but this girl is strong... she stil gets up the next day and battles on.. its exhausting but ill get there. .. #anxiety #onedayatatime #doingitformyself #panicattacks #tireddayindayout #wantittoendsometimes #Imstrong
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Today/Wednesday I woke up with anxiety level 2. I used TAP therapy to bring my anxiety to almost .50. I mowed the lawn and then ate a late breakfast. I didn't have any anxiety at all doing yardwork. I needed to get ready to drive Doug to the dealership in NB to get a loaner truck. The drive down I35 put me at a very strong 6. I had to get back to San Pedro rd. in San Antonio to pick up paperwork from my Therapist. I got there with about 20 mins to spare so I sat in the lobby and wound down doing TAP therapy from a 6/3. Although the quiet sound of her door opening thrown in with the medium sized water fountain spiked my anxiety and made my heart race like the anticipation of the sound of the principal's office door opening and you're next in line. So bizarre because I have complete trust in my therapist. So she saw I was hypersensitive to it. A new note to share here. Anyway, we chatted for a minute and I was on my way home. Another tough drive with a borderline panic attack. Just thinking about it right now gives me the butterflies in the stomach feel or like that feeling like you're free falling and have to trust someone to catch you.... I got home from therapy but not before nearly losing my life to an 18 wheeler. Spike (8) I started TAP as soon as I walked in from an 8/4. Hey I'll take that. Hung out here til Doug got home with only mild 2-3 anxiety. Wanted to nap but remembered I had to let Doug in because he didn't have his door opener. So here I am, wide awake at 12:30am, knowing I should be asleep. EDIT: Currently being diagnosed with Panic disorder w/o agoraphobia, thank God. As well as Major depressive disorder, recurrent, severe. Boooo!
9:10am - SUDS B&A 2/0.5
3:50pm - SUDS B&A 6/3
4:45pm - SUDS B&A 8/4
8:50pm - SUDS B&A 3/1
#cutting #butterflyproject #selfharm #selfharmrecovery #depression #depressionkills #anxiety
💯 #positivethinking #positivevibesalways #selflove
❤️ #trustissues #trust #timeheals #timehealsallwounds #smile #laugh #loveyourself #love #therapyheals #therapyhealsthesoul #letgo #lettinggo #lettinggoquotes #lettinggoishard #panicattack #panicattacks #panicdisorder
Such a beautiful day for an after school play at the beach... we are beyond blessed to live here 😌✨
It’s not an easy task for us to get here however, Connor hates sand and often prefers to be inside than out 😅 (you can tell by the way he’s holding his sandy hands in this photo)
My latest tactic for getting him along is some form of bribery, lots of encouragement and help him get the sand off whenever it’s getting too much 😞
But the funny thing is... Connor actually LOVES the beach, really, and once he can get over the sand thing he has the best time 🙌🏽 sometimes we just have to face our anxious fears in life, breathe through them and force ourselves to do the things we may find difficult at first, but actually so glad we did 💙
My therapist and I haven’t been doing much trauma work for a little while, but we finally had time today and so I read aloud what I had written a few sessions ago. Previously, I wrote out in as much detail as possible: a happy memory, the earliest memory of trauma in can recall, and the most recent one. I started to shake and anxiety rose as I read the traumatic ones- there wasn’t much written that I could remember in terms of details so my therapist had me read it again sentence by sentence and add more thoughts, feelings, descriptions (sight, smell, sound) and situational specifics of the space. This was really difficult to do and I became even more anxious (she was monitoring my anxiety by asking how I was on a scale of 1-10). Part of the memory included acts of physical abuse which she had me go into detail with as well. After taking a few minutes of frantic thoughts, I put something down...but my body did NOT like that. I had a pen in my right hand and I was looking down in my hands, but then all of a sudden my hands holding the pen were not mine, then my arms were not mine, then my legs, then I could feel myself detaching from my body- dissociation. I was able to describe the entire process to my therapist including “I don’t think I’m in my body anymore” which alerted her that I needed to do grounding ASAP. We did some descriptions of the room and I tried to describe how it felt to sit- pressure in my shoes, weight in my shoulders, but I was gone. I couldn’t feel any part of my body touching the couch so we did more grounding by deep breathing. This mostly brought me back to myself because I started to cry. The rest of the session was spent on a different, lighter topic to calm down, but I continued to silently cry. My therapist gave me some positive affirmations which I greatly appreciated and told me to repeat them on my way home and throughout today since this is the day I’ll probably struggle with due to feeling raw and exposed. I’m proud of myself, even if my body didn’t like the process, I made it through. .
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Some wholesome memes thrown your way ~🍑
At any given moment you have the power to say: This Is Not How the Story is Going to End
Absolutely say yes 👍👇👇
A conversation in my head 🤔
....... it’s 2:42 AM on a Tuesday! My brain is scattered and my thoughts are as loud as ever. Truth is my thoughts are always there and I’ve learned to ignore them by thinking of things of greater importance.
Of course, I can simply turn them off right? No! I certainly can’t because my brain is not wired that way. However, there has to be one very important logical explanation.... I forgot to take my meds. Nope I counted them, I did take them ... so what gives!!!! They stopped working and according to the doctor “we will try new meds and bump that one just to be safe”. 🧠🗣
When is it enough?
and #depression #iced
up with some #adoration
I know what it’s like
To live in the dark
But now I know what it’s like
To find my inner light
And the feeling I have
That is so hard to explain
Can best be described as FREEDOM
So I want to be real and honest. I’ve struggled with anxiety for a while. There are weeks where I have panic attacks every day and then there are month periods where I’m just thriving. I was doing great this week and then today I had my first panic attack IN SCHOOL. Now everyone’s is different, and I’m not going to try to explain how it feels because it is such a personal experience and it’s hard for someone to actually know what you went through. So for today’s post I want to share some of my coping techniques. -
My biggest thing is to focus on something else. So in the moment I like to touch as many things that I can and say out loud what they are and how they feel. This tends to put my focus on that and helps to calm my breathing.
After the attack, I like to sit outside and just stare at the sky to sort of “rewind”. Usually I’ll try to make shakes out of the clouds and that slows my breathing down too.
Is there anything that you do specifically that you think would help others? If so, comment it down below, you might just help someone in need🌼
Numbness and tingling
Stomach upset, nervous stomach
Pulsing in the ear
Fear of impending doom
Shortness of breath
Electric shock feeling
Shooting pains in the face
Weakness in legs
Feeling like you are going crazy
Inability to rest