I’ve seen what life can do to people, I’ve seen people on their knees, literally and figuratively, I know people who want to end it all, and I know people that have.
You have to fight, no matter how big this demon is, you have to fight back. It won’t be easy and that motherfucking demon will knock you back until you feel like it’s not worth getting up again. But you have to. You have to get back up, and you have to keep fighting, ESPECIALLY when you feel like there’s no point in fighting it anymore.
Have courage. Have courage and faith in the impossible, because you’d be surprised at how often the impossible becomes possible.
Never give up.
You will see happy days again.
I absolutely could have written this post myself.
A follower said to me yesterday “you just don’t get it”
I was thrown back from this comment… It made me confused.
Yes, I am recovered from anxiety. Yes, I do not get panic attacks anymore.
But that does not mean that I forgot my past.
I seem happy now when I go live or post pictures but guys there was a time when I could not GET OUT OF BED. I had nothing. I felt hopeless and helpless.
The panic attacks controlled me, they were the forefront of EVERY SINGLE THOUGHT I HAD.
I was not living, I was living waiting to die.
I had agoraphobia- I got to the point where leaving the house was near impossible. I was so scared of anything and everything. Once my anxiety got to its worst I was having anxiety over having anxiety. I was always waiting and anticipating a panic attack.
Every single day I felt like I was dying, every single day I felt scared.
Every single day I struggled with dizziness, heart palpitations, weird vision, tingling feelings in my arms and legs, headaches, feeling of “I am about to pass out”, shortness of breath, chest pain, stomach pain, and more. I spent my days googling trying to just figure out WHAT IS THIS. Never believing a single doctor who was screaming at me “you are okay it is anxiety”. Because how could something this strong and powerful be just in my head? It seems impossible.. they must be forgetting something? Right? Right?
WRONG. I wanted so badly to just find an answer. Every day searching for an answer as to why but never looking deep Into “how can I help myself”. I never took steps towards recovery until I got to my worst. I just expected to immediately heal. Wake up one day and it all be gone. I set myself up for failure expecting a light to just switch.
Take the steps. Don’t give up. But also, do not forget that just because someone is smiling that they have not been there before. •
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I refuse to live life boxed in.⠀
Everyone’s so quick to crush our dreams, to tell us how to live.⠀
No thanks ✌🏼⠀
What you see: a happy new mama who is so in love with her baby. What you don’t see: the postpartum anxiety she struggled with daily for months.
General anxiety and depression are things I manage in my everyday life, so I knew to be looking for postpartum depression. But I wasn’t aware that postpartum anxiety is a very real condition that affects just as many women as PPD. I recognized what is was, though, and it was a nightmare trying to get the proper treatment, not for a lack of trying. If you’ve never experienced anxiety or depression, it can be even more challenging to know what it is that you’re feeling and get treatment.
Instagram can sometimes feel like everyone else’s life is perfect, but it’s important to remember that it’s just a highlight reel and that everyone has their struggles. If you’re interested, I’m sharing a little bit about my postpartum anxiety on the blog today. (Link in bio.) aid you’re just here for the food, that’s cool too!
This photo was taken my senior of highschool! During one of the most confusing, lonely, and lost times in my life from the outside everyone thought I was just another 18 year old kid who was going through a “phase”
Little to their knowledge I had been going through the worst phase of anxiety and depression episodes I’ve ever experienced! During this time besides school I couldn’t get out of bed or leave the house without having an attack! I isolated myself from everyone and everything I loved and thought I would never be the same I truest thought my life was over and I would never be able to be a normal teenager again.....
Until one day I couldn’t take it anymore I was having a severe panic attack and the only thing I could do at this point was run to my moms room and cry and tell them what’s been going on and why I’ve been so distant! 🤕
It turns that this was one of the best days of my life in my battle with my anxiety and a pivotal shift for me on my journey! You see sometimes we become so afraid of feeling “insane” or “crazy”to others we completely disregard the fact that in reality they don’t care about your issues and are probably going through some of their own and they want to do everything they can to help ❤️
Anxiety can cause you to miss out on a lot of great opportunities and memories because of simply not communicating you’re a little anxious and having a rough day to the people around you! I know might be a little nervous of something happening around your friends and family but instead of staying in bed and missing out on precious opportunities all you have to do is just communicate your feelings a little more and let them know what’s going on and I guarantee you they will be there with open arms ready to help! 😊
40 million Americans are estimated to have an anxiety order just like YOU! So if you suffer from anxiety you’re actually quite normal! 🤯
No matter how deranged and shocking you think your anxious thoughts there’s millions of people having the some issues everyday are I guarantee there’s someone close to you also suffering in silence but you can never help them or yourself without speaking up 🙌
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Ok, I arrive in NYC. So far so good!
Well, until I step off the train which at this point was already pretty crowded.
I thought NYC was my town after living here for 20 years. Ha!
It took less than 1 hour to have a mild panic attack.
I understand now why you were so reluctant, guarded and conflicted about coming here. Now I get it!
I really do...
And what I found at home was more than frustrating and disappointing. My plants were nearly dying and the ceiling in my bathroom had fallen down and one wall is collapsing. Brilliant!
I'm already on the train back to Philadelphia.
You were/are so right, smaller is better and less is more.
#nyc #waterdamage #stressfull #stressfullday #panicattack #you
Today I was baptized and I dedicated my life to Jesus Christ. Today is the first day of the rest of my life. It was put in my heart to do my best to heal my depression, anxiety, obesity, and high blood pressure through faith in our Lord, eating healthy, and exercising more. I have been obese for practically my whole life. I have struggled with depression, anxiety, and panic attacks for the last decade. And I've been suffering from high blood pressure for a few months now. I am in no way against taking medication, but again it was put in my heart to take a different approach. Any healing that I go through will be through God, I take no credit for myself. Thank you for following my journey, much love fam! #healthjourney #journeytohealth #health #nutrition #fitness #weightloss #weightlossjourney #vegan #plantbaseddiet #JesusChrist #Jesus #Christ #God #Baptism #Faith #depression #anxiety #panicattack #obesity #highbloodpressure
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You are not alone. Everyone gets stuck at some point in their lives. Whether it is past trauma, loss of a loved one, struggling with your own mental health, or whatever it is, YOU CAN MOVE FORWARD. If you are having a hard time, check in with yourself and see if you are doing any of these things:
1. Waiting for the perfect moment. It is a never-ending cycle or desire to reach the perfect moment, but you will get trapped in a bubble of indecision, leaving you defeated. You cannot wait for the right time, because it may not happen unless you make it happen!
2. Doubting your awesomeness. If you don't believe your potential, you will not accept opportunities in your life to show how great you are. If you believe you are amazing, you will do amazing things and that will help you move past your roadblock.
3. Staying in your comfort zone. You have to do things that challenge you! Start with making small changes and then slowly you will find yourself way ahead of where you were before!
Moving forward is hard, but so worth it! You will feel free and feel like weight is lifted off of your shoulders.
#moveforward #yougotthis #anxiety #depression #copingskills #bepresent #justbreathe #findyourself #breathe #meditation #innerpeace #mindful #meditate #selfcare #lookonthebrightside #anxious #anxietydisorder #panicattack #socialanxiety
PRAISE GOD, this girl has been panic attack free for 5 weeks now! Thank you so much to everyone who has been praying for me.😭🙌🏼🙏🏼🎉 // Something that most people don’t know about me is that with my anxiety, I experienced multiple panic attacks. Panic attacks are absolutely horrible. It got so bad that I started having them once every week. It took lots of prayer and fasting to come to a conclusion of taking the next step in helping me with my anxiety and panic attacks. Now, in the present day, I am feeling so so so so much better. I have seen God work in such miraculous ways and I never thought I could ever come to this place! It seemed impossible but God does the impossible! Now, I still do have anxiety but not to the amount it was before. And just because I still have anxiety does not mean that I don’t trust that God is healing. I know that He is healing me and it may take till eternity in heaven for me to be fully healed and I look forward to it! Anxiety and things like mental health issues are real. I never realized how real it was until I experienced it myself. I just want to say, you are NEVER alone. There are people who you can talk to. If any of you are struggling with anxiety or anything, please know that I’m willing to walk with you through your pain, suffering, and hardships. Feel free to DM me with anything and I’m always willing to listen and pray for you.♥️
Why do people think being fake is alright? They pretend a loyal friendship and the next instant they stab you in the back.
I swear I'm over yalls bs✌🏻 stab each other, lie to each other and do whatever yall want, idc.
I'm outta this shit
Nowadays being true and loyal and honest is as rare as a damn unicorn.
Your ignorance about mental illness inspires us to keep fighting. We don't talk about it to get attention or make you feel sorry. You have no idea of how is to fight with yourself. There's nothing here to joke with. Mental illness is invisible. It has no fever or wounds to alert people to the pain inside. It can affect anyone, it can affect you and I'm sure you wouldn't like being laughing matter. I am not a weirdo, you are not a weirdo. You are not freak because you self-harm, you are not freak because you hide yourself, you are not a freak because you are depressed, you are not a freak because you have bipolar disorder, anxiety and panic attacks, you are not a freak because you struggle with attention-deficit or obsessive compulsive disorder. I'm so tired of people talking shit like “Why are you wearing all black? What are you, depressed?” or “If we have another test today I am going to literally kill myself". I want to say it to the people who use bipolar as an adjective, ignoring the fact that bipolar disorder is a serious illness that affects millions of people. I want to say it to the people who use the acronym OCD like it’s a cute personality quirk, rather than a severe anxiety disorder that can affect a person’s entire life. I want to say it to everyone. I want to say it to you. Respect. Words can hurt. . One in four people will deal with mental illness in their lifetime. Think about your friends. It’s more than likely that one or more of them are currently dealing with one. Think about that the next time you go to make a joke or use scathing or insulting words or phrases when referring to mental illness. We are not insane, we are not weak. We're trying to find motivation to keep breathing. We are warriors.
#respect #mentalhealth #mentalillness #selflove #selfharm #depression #obsessivecompulsivedisorder #ocd #socialanxiety #panicattack #bipolar #autism #posttraumaticstressdisorder #schizophrenia #attentiondeficitdisorder #dementia #clinicaldepression #suicidal #suicide #sadness #warriors #mental #youarenotalone #wordscanhurt #bekind #lightning #multiplepersonalities #psychotic #eatingdisorder
It's funny how nobody appreciates what they have but only realize what they had when they lose it.
Anxiety sucks. 👎🏼 .
Mine has been at an all time HIGH this past week for some reason! 😕 In the past, week’s like this would’ve had me in a cycle of anxiety & panic attacks - usually for reasons I can’t even identify! 🙈 It’s not fun...as I’m sure some of you know all too well. .
I decided to give this hemp everyone is ranting & raving about & I AM IN LOVE! 😍 Finally I have something that isn’t going to make me loopy & tired, yet can take the edge off, provide a sense of calmness & keep the attacks at bay! 🙏🏼 I’ve even started using it on Oliver for his ADHD & the difference is insane! .
If you’ve ever thought about trying something like this, now is the time! Shoot a message my way & I’ll send you the deets! 💜 You don’t wanna miss this! 🔥 •
#anxietysucks #twinmomdiaries #hemp #hempoil #hempbenefits #cbd #anxiety #panicattack #momlife #momstress #stressedout #mentalhealthawareness #anxietyattack #twinmom #anxietyrelief
Intrusive thoughts and obsessive tendencies are literally defence mechanisms against underlying pain or other difficult emotions.
Thoughts and obsessions give the illusion of control when we perceive danger or threat. The danger or threat lives in our unconscious, but will come back to this in a moment.
When I help my clients get to the core of their anxiety, thoughts and obsessions we always find an element of pain under all of the perceived madness.
This can be pain that resulted from
👉 Difficult break ups
👉 Witnessing your parents divorce
👉 Abuse or Neglect
👉 Perceiving that we are not valued
👉 And much more
This pain usually gets pushed away into our unconscious mind because we were too young to handle and make sense of the situation and difficult emotions.
Not only does the emotion get pushed down and buried, we also develop beliefs about ourself and the world in response to these difficult situations.
Then what happens is we have parts of our mind that take on protective roles and try to prevent us from rubbing against that inner pain which wants to be rediscovered, witnessed and expressed.
So the thoughts, while seeming so real, are actually coming from parts of your mind that are trying to protect you.
🌸 Knowing this, it becomes easier to meet the disturbing thoughts with a sense of compassion and curiosity.
What types of intrusive thoughts do you have? If you’re comfortable and don’t mind sharing please leave a comment. ⠀⠀
Also, if you liked today’s post please give it a like and a share !
This is my journey and a lot of people don’t understand why I isolate my self, why I stay quiet from one to time, why I can’t go out all the time, why I don’t like to go out in public, why Indont like to go to family reunions when there’s people I need to meet and the list goes on and on.
Mental health is real but since it’s not something people can see it’s hard for people to understand the battle that goes on my head EVERYDAY!
I not longer thing about the past or the future Im learning to stay present and to take it day by day. .
#mentalhealthawareness #anxietyrelief #panicattack #healthandwellness #mentalhealthawareness #recovery #daybyday #youarenotalone
I can't tell you how happy I am to be sitting here again 😭
For an artsy, brainy kinda guy like me, losing the ability to think clearly is incredibly scary. The world kept getting dimmer and bleaker, and there was nothing I could do about it. Like slowly slipping into an inescapable abyss...
This week was the first time since last summer that I've been able to open my music software without being paralyzed by anxious depression. I honestly don't have the words for how profoundly this affects me...
Getting my mind back feels like a homecoming. 🙏🏽
Unfortunately we weren’t all blessed with amazing parents and loving homes. Some of us had to deal with shit we never should have as children. I’m tired of hiding from MY truth in fear of hurting someone else’s feelings. I’ve been hurting for too many years and the only way to get on a path to true healing is to be honest and acknowledge everything. But also remind myself none of this was my fault. It was the fault of another human being who is and was not capable of love, compassion, or being the parental figure I needed. I can’t hold this in anymore because I have for so many years and it’s literally killing me. At 30 I now have full blown panic attacks and anxiety because of things that happened to me 15+ years ago. I will take full responsibility for my actions but can no longer bare the burden of situations I was unfairly put in and ultimately be made to feel like were my fault. If you have time to watch my story please do. Especially if you grew up in a similar situation. It was never your fault. When you can accept that you can start healing. #therapy #anxiety #anxietyawareness #anxietyrecovery #panicattack #mentalhealthawareness #itsoktonotbeok #productofshittyparenting #healingandlettinggo
I've used a gender neutral restroom at a university before and that shit was nasty. Now I think all gender neutral restroom in that building are nasty. I've used a man's restroom before. It's a single room so I don't have to worry about other people coming in or stalls. But one day that door didn't lock correctly and I was ify on it and I needed to go and the woman restroom next to it was being used so I could give an excuse if I got caught coming out of it. Anyways, some guy ended up opening it and I yelled busy and lucky he backed out and didn't see anything. Now I have trust issues going into that restroom. I've never trust doors with button locks, they are the worse! I randomly use the woman and man restroom there. But I can never get enough strength to go into a multiple stalled man restroom. I'd die from a panic attack.
#trans #translife #restroom #genderneutralrestrooms #panicattack
Let me introduce my self!
I am a mother of two, happily married, with a beautiful family and life. I been suffering with anxiety and being extremely nervous all my life. But through the years I been able to over come my fears and have been able to manage my anxiety. Back In 2008 I suffered from really bad panic attacks and I was able to recover from them ever since until they came back December 2018 right when this picture was taken when Inwas told my baby had pneumonia and we had to be hospitalized. My panic attacks came back and I have not been able to recover from anxiety attacks ever day since that day.
I’m not willing to live like this the rest of my life, so here so am trying to recover ONE DAY AT A TIME .
#Anxiety #anxietyrecovery #healthanxiety #wellness #depression #anxietyattack #panicattack #anxietydisorders #mentalHealth #mentalhealthawareness #yournotalone
Who's suffering with anxiety??
My friend @jenniferrimes_chnc
just finished creating a free training session that I wanted to invite you all too!
It is the most extensive free training she's ever offered and will teach you ALL about anxiety, the three roots she addresses in her practice and 4 holistic strategies to help you get relief ASAP.
She is running it live twice in the next 2 weeks so you can pick between the following two dates:
Click the link in my profile for more info!
Both sessions will be recorded and a replay will be sent out, but everyone who attends live will get a free Intro to Tapping For Anxiety E-Guide.
this is literally how i feel when i have panic attacks because of my eating disorders
i literally feel like i'm being torn appart by some sort of invisible rope preventing me to breathe and i try and the more i try the more i panic
i discovered recently that i have body dysmorphia, which explains my intense hatred about some parts of my body
it's ridiculous because i find the same thing on other people's body beautiful but my perception is just blurred
the french parts means
i'm better now but i'm still bulimic and still have some days harder than others
anyway i think it's important to share how people feel when they have a panic attack for people around to understand better!
#traditionalart #pencildrawing #blackandwhitedrawing #sketches #scribbles #panicattack #bodydysmorphia #dysmorphia #bulimia #bulimic #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorders #ventart
I’m only posting this picture because it’s reality. This was from an “after the holidays holiday party” work event. These girls get me through some of my toughest days at work (and I know I can always reach out to them when I’m off too)! After I saw this picture I was utterly disgusted. I don’t have many pictures of me over the last 6-8 months because honestly I refuse to take them. Or if they are taken, they’re by someone else and I don’t see them. I’m hoping this is one of the last pictures I have to take and that’ll I’ll get approved for surgery soon. I’ve had such bad anxiety about going out in public lately. I’m afraid everyone is staring at me - thinking about how fat I look and how I constantly wear the same clothes because nothing else fits. This night I actually had a panic attack and had to leave early because I lets those thoughts and ideas get the best of me. I’m sick of living like this. Surgery, please come soon! #vsg #vsgpreop #vsgjourney #panicattack #anxiety #verticalsleeve #sleeveastrectomy
A memo to my 17 year old self (and to you!)
You're still kickin at 24, didn't think that would happen!
Give it a year and a bit and you'll start making some sense of that pain you're feeling.
Believe it or not, at 19, you'll asked to write an original song. You'll perform it at a youth treatment center opening, and you'll bring the room to tears. The Premier even starts a standing ovation for you. You're mortified because your picture ends up in the paper, but it hits you:
Sharing your story touches people. You don't understand how you can affect anyone positively, but you roll with it. You'll find small moments of courage and you'll learn to speak up.
Looking at this picture of you, I see so much beauty that you can't even yet fathom. As much as you try and hide it, you're gifted, you're a light.
Eventually, you'll want to start helping other people share their stories. You start realizing that speaking the words outloud loosens their grip on you.
There's a whole bunch of rollercoaster rides in between, but now we're here.
And now I'm speaking to YOU, reading this.
What would you tell your younger self? Or even just someone who's going through what you've been through? Big or small.
I know you may not 100% believe it, but your story matters, and it can help other people. Even just one other person.
And whether you have a business or not, you can start getting it out there.
I'd love to help you in starting! I've created an Instagram Strategy Guide based on just that. On showing up in a genuine way, on growing a community, and on connecting you with others.
You don't have to go through the trial and error that I've taken 7 years to go through. All you have to do is send me a DM to grab your copy!
So I was wondering the other day what I could do with the celery pulp from my morning juice and the answer is..... wraps! I make wraps out of them. I dehydrate the mix, keeping it low fat and raw. These ones are curry wraps.
In a high-speed blender mix the following:
1/2 red onion.
1 2/2 tomatoes.
1 green onion.
1 tablespoon parsley.
1/4 bunch cilantro.
1/3 cup cut carrots or peppers or zucchini.
1/2 cup water.
3 dates, pitted.
1 lime, juiced.
1 cup celery pulp or 2 sticks celery.
Curry powder to taste (I used 2 tablespoons)
You can also add ginger.
1/3 cup freshly ground flax seed.
This is enough for 4-5 wraps.
You can also add 1 handful of spinach.
Dehydrate at 110 degrees for 6 h, then flip and dehydrate for another 4-5 hours. Make sure you use the teflex sheets or wax paper.
#wrap #rawfood #medicalmedium #celery #healing #ebvslayer #workfromhome #healthcoach #cleanse #anxiety #panicattack #smallbiz
Arm is getting near completion....maybe.... Third eye. It’s not what you look at that matters. It’s what you see. #tonkspiration