First off a huge formal congratulations to my amazing pageant sis @laacieeechoy @misshiusa
💖 Girl you slay! And now about me haha. I've been collecting my thoughts and it's still a jumble so I'm just going to toss it out here and see what happens. Some of it is from a book I've been reading, others from conversations, and some just things I want to say.
👑 Like a queen ;) 👑
The world is full of people who have stopped listening to themselves or have only listened to others - about what to do, how to behave, and what values to live for. Instagram teaches us how to pose, what we should look like, celebrities show us how to act, etc. Similarly, judges in pageants, experienced or not, can only pick one "ideal". On a super small insignificant scale, every pageant I've done has been a true new iteration of me. I've been the same awkward geek throughout the entire process - and each time I've also progressed, showcased, and articulated my interests, my accomplishments, my goals, and my vision. Yes, I've lost a few times (and won others), but the answer is not to blame or explain disappointments but to handle the life that arises. Sure external meaning can accelerate internal meaning, but if you don’t start with internal and sustainable meaning then there's no point. "Losing" does not mean my values are not valid, it just means I need to find a different way.