I remember feeling so horrible about myself in that change room trying on that dress. I needed to find something for my college graduation and I was having no luck. I loved the feeling of the dress but I hated the way my body looked in it.
I was at a point I had no choice I had to go with something. So I bought this one and another one that was on the same sale. And well if I can save money and get what I'm looking for then I'm all over it.
I knew with the dress I could find something to go over the top and cover my rolls but I totally forgot to factor in that it was going to be 9000 degrees because its August and I'm also going to be in a grad gown. So when I got home I realized this wasn't going to work. I felt defeated and depressed, hated myself and my body and I didn't even want to go to my own grad because I wasn't comfortable in my own skin.
This hasn't been the only time in my life when this has happened. I can remember feeling the same way when I was a child, pre-teen, teenager, young adult and up until the point I started to work on myself. And that all changed.
However losing the weight was only a 1/4 of the battle.
Changing my mindset and learning to love myself again was the biggest challenge. With the support from those I work with closely online they helped make it possible. I have been able to work through more problems then I ever have on my own. Being surround by positive, inspiring, strong women has been a big rock to stand on.
#alwayslearning #loveyourself #community #womeninspiringwomen #momof2 #careaidegrad #dressshopping #maxidress #changingmindset #onedayatatime
After being off & on (mostly off😒) keto/low carb for nearly a year, we have started our journey again today!😀 I'm so excited and it is honestly needed in so many ways! I know I've gained back most, if not all that I had lost. ☹ I haven't weighed & done measurements yet but I may do that in the morning to see where I'm at with that. It really doesn't matter though, this is a new journey and all that matters is moving forward & not focusing on the bad I did. 😊 The main reason I need to do this beside the obvious to lose weight is to get my blood pressure under control! I'm going to share a few BP readings I've had lately & that's with me being on several meds a day!!! 😱 That's scary! I want to be able to do things easier, without being out of breath. Without being so tired all of the time. I have a few health issues going on & maybe I'll touch on those later if I get a few people interested in my page but for now I'll go & call it a night! Goodnight friends & I hope you have wonderful dreams! #ketofood #ketodiet #lowcarb #ketosis #lazyketo #dirtyketo #lowcarbsupper #crackchicken #greenbeans #bloodpressure #keto #KetoOn #weightloss #weightlossjourney #onedayatatime #onemealatatime #onepoundatatime #oneinchatatime
Today I am 4️⃣ YEARS SOBER!!! How the hell did this even happen!? In the beginning I didn’t even know how I could go a few days without alcohol, let alone 1461 days! Today I am definitely feelin’ myself, I’m proud of myself, and I am grateful I chose recovery every day thus far. No matter what your recovery journey is, all that matters is that you work on it every. damn. day. I am still surprised by the amazing things that come with getting sober. What I know is that it takes work. It takes willingness to get through the uncomfortable feelings in order to find peace. It takes honesty; with yourself & others. It requires an open mind to trust in the process, because your way didn’t work out so well. It takes a fucking village. There is no way I would be here without the support of my family, friends, and even my employer. Today I am so damn lucky I tried a different way. I’m gonna go listen to Birthday by Trap Beckham now 🙌
#recovery #wedorecover #recoverywarrior #recoveryispossible #recoveryisworthit #addictionrecovery #sober #sobriety #soberaf #soberlife #soberliving #soberissexy #alcoholicsanonymous #odaat #soberbirthday #onedayatatime #sobermovement
Okay I had to share this because I am so excited about it. I just recently watched The Paleo Way on Netflix (GO WATCH IT! NOW, just do it!) which inspired me to get this book. I am so glad I did! Everyone should read this book. No matter what your health level is and no matter where you are on your health journey. I have learned so much. Things that just make sense. Things that we should be taught about our bodies and things that we should be teaching our kids & those that we love. I recently have gotten a wake up call. I have stage 3 chronic kidney disease, my kidneys are functioning at 55% & full of cysts. Because of my kidneys not functioning properly my heart is having to work extra hard & I have hypertension as well. I went from never going to the Dr. to having my regular doctor, a kidney & hypertension specialist & a cardiologist. This wellness journey I started not all that long ago just got serious! So much of our wellbeing starts in our gut, as well as what products we are putting in & on our bodies everyday. So welcome to my journey. I hope that I can learn & grow each day on my journey & if I inspire some of you or even one of you along the way it will make it all worth sharing! We only get one body, on life! I’m determined more now than ever to take care of myself. It’s too bad it took this to wake me up but I’m grateful for all that I’ve learned & all that I’m still learning. I’m blessed to be surrounded by amazing people, my husband, family & friends. I’m grateful everyday for this life I live! It’s a great one! #thecompleteguthealthcookbook #thepaleoway #guthealth #itsseriousbusiness #kidneydisease #heartdiease #theyvegotnothingonme #gettingheathy #onedayatatime #nontoxicliving #nontoxiclifestyle #ditchsndswitch #essentialoils #younglivingessentialoils #youngliving #yleo #takingcareofmyhealth #itallstartsinyourgut #learningeveryday #sofreakingfacinating @chefpeteevans
Here is my stack that I take on a daily. Just reordered. Take Total war, moab to help build that muscle and bignoise to get that full pump during my workouts . During the day I’ll stack boomstick and halo throughout the day mainly after meals. Cluster bomb 💣 is for my intra workout to feed the muscle carbs and helps me with soreness. Hardly ever sore. Some will say I’m not working hard enough but to each their own . Love taking rpg after heavy carbs helps with glucose disposal and takes the carbs straight to the muscles vs fat storing. Then there is double tap that I take early in the morning for work to get my day going instead of drinking coffee. Also helps with that stubborn fat. Sometimes I’ll add mental trigger if I’m having a bad start to my day. 💪🏽👍🏽 #rc1checkin #rc1fiftystacks
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It's crazy how one decision can lead to many small changes that add up to what can seem like an overnight transformation. The in-betweens are not show in this pic, the failures, the struggles, and the constant battle in my mind. Not saying that I made it because I am undergoing yet another transformation with this baby belly. But life is constantly challenging you and THERE IS NO FINISH LINE.
When I started it was so hard, so much to learn and wanted results immediately but I was desperate so I stuck it out. The yo-yo dieting, the shitty feeling, the low energy, and the frustration of not feeling good in my clothes, not feeling unattractive for my husband, and feeling embarrassed and uncomfortable in my own skin. My unhealthy habits showed with my lifestyle, my struggle in my mindset, my job, my parenting, and as a wife. I didn't want to take accountability for the hole I dug myself into but there comes a point when enough is just enough and I had to DO SOMETHING.
I said Yes to myself and have not looked back. That one decision snow balled into many other good decisions and well, the one transformation lead to another and my life reflected that. Between 2015 to 2018, I landed my dream job, completed my MBA degree, and we were also blessed with another baby. The positivity, the success just manifests when that is what I focused on.
Are struggling with you? Are you tired of those excuses? The constant battle with your mind, your actions, and most importantly the inaction? I can share what helped me with my journey. The process isn't going to give you overnight success but will get you on the right track. Are you ready?? Next challenge starts on Monday. Don't miss my Busy Babes challenge because who knows...this might be that one decision that changes everything. Comment "I'm In" to find out if it's for you cuz why the hell not! You deserve this just like I needed it in 2015.
I didn't really love any of the photos I had for today, so in the name of not breaking the pattern I have going here is a photo of my best friends cat spending her day the way I wish I could. In a fort. 🐈
She still won’t take anything from my hand...🙁 no matter what I try to give her she won’t take it... and I notice her tail goes straight down and at times she’ll tuck it between her legs and that uncertain look... Her past must’ve been a harsh one, I’m guessing.😔
Ow! 😬 I think my body hates me... 😂
I just started a 28 day workout program with the Better Me app in Google Play store @betterme.weightloss
My 14yo daughter was a trooper doing the full body (hard rating) exercises with me! My heart is still racing!
We had pizza so I needed to do something to help offset those calories...even though I'm still about 200 calories under for the day according to #myfitnesspal
I've been dropping about half a pound a day for the last week. Looking like very soon (tomorrow?) I'm FINALLY saying GOODBYE to the 170's lbs!! ✌🏻
This is the perfect time for everyone to step up taking better care of your body during Virgo super full moon energy. 😄🙏🏻💖
#betterme #bettermeapp #workit #fitmom #fitnessgoals #dreamsintoreality #onedayatatime #selflove
. Life has been going well since cancer treatment ended 3 years ago. This photo showed up today so thought I'd share the difference. Somedays I miss the buzz look though.
Our little angel’s 4th week in heaven. 👼🏻 Discharged today, S/P Emergency Suction D&C. Along with the home instructions, Lori, my nurse cared enough to offer some materials to help us deal with grief and miscarriage. She made me feel that my grief is valid, no matter how many days have passed, how early on I was in my pregnancy. She acknowledged our loss and that meant a lot to us. 🖤
We our thinking about you little boy everyday, we love you. #ourlittleangelinheaven #missingourbabyboy #onedayatatime
I cannot emphasize enough how important it as a mother, especially as a single parent, to make time for YOU. Whether it’s getting to drink your coffee while it’s still hot or not melted, reading a book, pampering yourself, etc. I’ve chosen to dedicate my “Me Time” to my weight loss journey. Yes, I’m doing this for me, but I’m also doing this for them. Working out makes me happy. Me happy makes me a better mommy & my babies deserve that. I refuse to allow my weight get in the way of my happiness. One day, I’ll look back and remember why I started in the first place.
Show is one day at time such a great show and cast and talks abt real things just great!!!
Sorry for the krap audio buh tech difficulties lately 💛
The truth is, I still battle with my mind every single day, I'm way better than I was two years ago, but I still struggle so much even though I don't want to let it show. Fighting with the voices in my head is something I do on a daily basis. I don't do much all day because I'm trying to breathe, stay calm and get what the voices tell me to go away. I may seem okay, but the truth is, I'm not most of the time. I try to do everything I can to live a "normal" life but it's hard because the voices keep telling me to give up. I may seem lazy to you, but the truth is, I'm struggling and I'm trying to stay connected to the reality most of times. I dissociate a lot and when i'm not, I'm trying to stay on top of the game and do the things someone "normal" would do, but most of the time, I can't. I'm stuck with these horrible thoughts and voices all day long. I'm trying. You don't see it, but I'm trying my best to be good enough, but no matter what, I never am.
I'm struggling, and I'm tired, but I'll keep fighting, because that's my only option. #mentalillness #mentalheath #recoveryvsrelapse #relapse #recovery #depression #dissociation #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #bipolardisorder #anxiety #ptsd #realityoflivingwithmentalillnesses #mentalillnesses #imtrying #struggling #onedayatatime #onedayillbeokay #fighting
When the waiter asks if the table would like another complimentary bread basket. 🥖🍞🥐
I'm a very codependent person, which is a shock to someone who always thought they were very independent. Thank my upbringing... But to actively choose to be in a relationship, not because I need him or feel like I carry him, I CHOOSE to be with him. All because I love him. I love what we are together. I love who I am with him. He doesn't hold me back, but instead pushes me for more. He pushes me to have a life. To a codependent, that feels like the person doesn't love you so there's a pretty big internal fear that is triggered that they will leave because they're done with you, but with the right person, they allow room for you to breathe. More importantly, they allow room for themselves to breathe and NOT be responsible for you. .
With this Weightloss journey, no longer having him as a crutch (thank God! I was going to lose him by trying to hold on), food as a crutch, having instead to feel and process every emotion is completely new. I have some set backs. I can't help it as I'm human, but I'm setting up some solid groundwork for myself to help when things get a bit much and I go back to bad habits of ignoring myself and avoiding reality. .
#fitfam #fitness #fitnessjourney #fitnesslifestyle #weightlossjourney #vsg #verticalsleeve #gastricsleeve #gastricsleevesurgery #myjourney #gastricsleevejourney #healthychoices #igfitnessw #igfitfam #personalgrowth #obesitycontrolcenter #vsgcommunity #vsgjourney #onedayatatime #finallyliving #trustyourself #weightloss #wls #weightlosssurgery #100lbsdown #onederland #transformation
What Is an Addiction?
We all know that addiction can be fatal. But did you know that deaths resulting from addiction tops that of heart disease and cancer? Some common deaths resulting from addictions are more obvious to us than others—like heroin, drunk driving, tobacco, and alcohol use, while other less obvious addictions like food—that can lead to obesity, diabetes, heart disease, and stroke—we tend to overlook.
Addictions affect us not only physically, but also psychologically and spiritually. Let’s spend a bit of time pulling back the curtain on addictions to save our body, mind, and spirit.
Addictions fall into two main categories:
Substance addictions—these involve chemicals. Common examples are alcohol, caffeine, marijuana, cocaine, heroin, and prescription meds.
Process addictions—these involve our behavior. Common process addictions include gambling, pornography, shopping, and exercise.
The medical diagnosis of addiction lists these 11 symptoms: *Failing main duties at school, home, or work *Continuing despite physical harm *Frequent cravings or strong desire to use the substance or engage the behavior *Frequent social or relationship problems *Need more to get the same effect *Withdrawal symptoms *Using larger amounts or spending more time on the substance or behavior than intended *Failed efforts in stopping *Significant amount of time, energy, and thought regarding the substance or behavior *Time spent on substance or behavior is more than time spent on social, work, or fun activities *Continued use despite many harmful consequences
Do you see any of the symptoms above in you or a friend?
0-1: No problem
4-5: Moderate >6: Severe
Simply put, addiction is when something is harming you in some way and you can’t stop doing it. Addiction controls and harms you. No one begins using a harmful substance or behavior hoping it will take control over them. Yet, so often we let these things do just that. Take a look at yourself for a minute.
What substance or behavior in your life, if taken away, would make life stressful for you?
Would God still be enough for you?
It was a busy day for me today but I did get my workout in this morning & some self care while my girls were sleeping! Face mask & a bath with @lushcosmetics
I'm from the East Side, mmm,
You bring my best side, mmm 🖤 #6lack
"Don’t personalize or internalize other people’s behavior. What they do is not a reflection of you. Their actions represent them and where they are in their growth. Just observe instead of getting caught up and overreacting emotionally." ~Idil Ahmed⠀
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If only people were taught this early on... this world would be a much happier place ... #onelessonatatime #onedayatatime #notmybattle
Ayyyy, still at it🎉 As most of you know, I’ve been struggling with my mental health a lot lately. I used to cope with alcohol, which just made me sink lower. Although I still struggle, the hurt is not near as bad as when I was drunk. There are, of course, days when I wish I could just relax with some wine, go to the bars with friends and let loose, or have a beer with dinner. But I don’t. I refuse to hit rock bottom again. I’m so thankful for the folks who have supported me in this rollercoaster of a journey. There’s no way I would be sober without you all. You know who you are. So thank you, to everyone who’s helped me get to this place❤️ #sobriety #mentalhealthawareness #bipolar #alcoholic #onedayatatime