And my own affairs were as bad, as dismal, as the day I had been born. The only difference was that now I could drink now and then, though never often enough. Drink was the only thing that kept a man from feeling forever stunned and useless. Everything else just kept picking and picking, hacking away. And nothing was interesting, nothing. The people were restrictive and careful, all alike. And I've got to live with these fuckers for the rest of my life, I thought. God, they all had assholes and sexual organs and their mouths and their armpits. They shit and they chattered and they were dull as horse dung. The girls looked good from a distance, the sun shining through their dresses, their hair. But get up close and listen to their minds running out of their mouths, you felt like digging in under a hill and hiding out with a tommy-gun. I would certainly never be able to be happy, to get married, I could never have children. Hell, I couldn't even get a job as a dishwasher. #nature_brilliance#instafood#handmade#amazing#lifestyle#stayandwander#iphoneonly#sea#travel#followback#nofilter#natgeohub#f4f#summer#inspiration#motivation#christmas#followforfollow#dog#photooftheday
I can’t believe I had a drink for the first time all by myself! I had plans for the night originally, but that changed. I have constant anxiety about life, so was nice to have a relaxing night to myself. And the people at @mudlounge are so nice!