A tough mentality + perspective. These two things can either make you, or break you...regardless of what type of fitness goals you have. Regardless of what type of life goals you have. ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨
Yesterday was one of the days I almost let it break me. For some reason, sending my check-in to @jmihalyfit
in the morning didn’t excite me. I felt anxious, and very stressed about it. Was it because I’d been bloated several days? Maybe. But it definitely felt like a deeper internal issue. I spent the day feeling down and just flat out terrified that I’d get to show day and “make a fool of myself.” I feared I wouldn’t “fit in” physically with the rest of the crowd. Could I do this in another 6.5 weeks and be happy with myself? ✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨✨
A few things pulled me out of this funk. Justin’s response to my check in was encouraging, and provided me with a couple refeed days — and I was reminded of the smart and capable hands that I am in. I have a great coach I trust. I also had my first posing session with @_fitness_1st_
and that gave me something new to focus on. She was so positive and encouraging and helpful throughout the session that my mood improved immensely just from those things, but I was a little off still. My boyfriend (and biggest supporter) was next. He reminded me that I will have so much to be proud of on show day and it doesn’t matter who I am standing next to, it just matters that I’m standing there. He reminded me that the judges (and other girls) have no idea where I started or the insane work I put into this transformation...literally starting from the impossible. Lastly, I went deep stalker mode into someone else’s Instagram who’s first journey to the stage has been so inspiring: @dumbbells_n_doughnuts.
I read her captions from her first show where she expressed how she’d never been more proud of herself, felt more confident or accomplished, than standing on that stage because of the journey it took to get there.
And finally, it hit me. My “why” I just shared the other day became overwhelming again. I’m doing this for ME. Not for anyone else. Would some hardware be a dream come true? Duh. Do I expect it? (Cont in comments 👇🏻👇🏻👇🏻)