Sunday relax (at least for an hour)
Така изглежда в момента неделята ми. Но кааааак започна?! В 6 часа сутринта Джулс реши, че е готова да обърне с главата надолу всичко. Аз от своя страна, ама хиииич нямах желание да напусна леглото. 😴😴 Една закуска и един кош разпилени из целия хол играчки по-късно, Джули реши, че все пак ще си доспи. Аз? Аз бяха повикана от другото Ураганче, което току-що отваряше очи. 👧🏼 Хайде още една закуска и след това подреждане. Но както споделих на @mellymihaylova
- да разтребваш докато децата са будни, е като да си миеш зъбите, докато ядеш Орео 😂 Докато подредя хола, Лора обърна стаята си буквално наопаки 🙈
През това време Джулс приключи сутрешната си дрямка и го ударихме на игри...
Сега едната излезе с баща си, другата отново спи, а аз просто оставих всичко както е, пуснах робота да чисти (дано глътне разни играчки, че да се оттървем 😆)и седнах на терасата, която е единственото неразхвърляно място вкъщи ✌🏻 А, да, чак сега стигам да пия кафе - за справка, часът е 11:45 😂😂😂
Само мога да гадая каква ще е останалата част от деня 😆
#NeedSomeQuiet #CoffeeTime #MomLife #MyLifeIsNotPerfect #LoveMyLife
I should have taken a before picture because let me tell ya'll, filters are magic. Here's a bit of #reallife
for you - warning, I will probably ramble and therefore create a pretty long post.
Today has been rough. Bennett, bless his heart, went down for a nap pretty easily but putting down Caleb for a nap is basically impossible these days. I laid on the bed with him for over an hour, repeatedly telling him he can't eat the candy he somehow has in his hands until after he takes a nap. I keep having to grab him and lay him back down. Why are his toys all over my bed? I know I raised my voice a few times and I certainly am not proud of that. At this point, I'm very exhausted myself and hoping I can even take a snooze before Bennett wakes up. But I was not so lucky today. Bennett woke up after a really good nap but Caleb still wouldn't nap and alas, Mama doesn't get to nap either.
So here I am, an exhausted mama, yesterdays makeup under my eyes, my hair tossed up in a messy bun, stomach grumbling because I only had time to woof down a few bites of food for lunch and yet somehow this filter makes me look like I might have my life together. News flash: I don't.
Life with two kids is hard. I love it so much but it's so much work and I often feel like I'm failing in different areas of my life because I can't keep up with the demands of everything and everyone.
Mama's, we can't do this alone. Don't feel guilty for needing or wanting help. I certainly cannot do this alone and neither can you. Thank God for my husband, my Mama, my mother-in-law and all my other family members because I need their help!
#momlife #momguilt #nosleep #needcaffeine #messybun #gethelp #momsarenotalone #mylifeisnotperfect #momoftwoboys #boymom #naptimestruggles #selfie #momselfie #filters #filtermagic #icantdothisalone
is a battle. Your child screams, cries, and drives you to your wits end. Yesterday was one of those days. I yelled, cried, and felt so hopeless. As I went to sleep last night I prayed. I prayed for more patience, more understanding. Today I was able to remain calm. I breathed and 5- 4- 3- 2- 1 after an episode (if you have read this book, you know what I'm talking about). Today was one million times easier than yesterday. Or is it that I became more patient? Will I ever truly know? All I know, is that days with #azalearaia
are not always easy. I mean, seriously, she's a teething toddler who acts like a nonverbal teenager. However, the moments she randomly runs up and hugs me, when she leaves her own sitting spot to join me on my lap, or when she experiences new moments that bring her absolute joy and laughter... that's when I am reminded of the happiness she brings. The good ALWAYS outweighs the bad. Remember that!
#realstagram #lifebehindthehappines #reallife #momlife #momentlens #toddleryears #toddlersofig #adventure #imperfectlyperfect #momdays #mygirl #shesgrowingup #sassy #onegoingonsixteen #testingmypatience #capture_today #mylifeisnotperfect #imperfectionisperfection
Today is a bit of a strange #wednesdaywisdom
Someone very recently said something that made me think 🤔. The person was basically convinced that I was almost always happy & my life was as near to perfect as it could be.
The reality is that Most days I have it all together but there are a lot of other days where I feel like I am under water & no-one can hear me scream. There are some days where I feel like I fall so far short of the person I want to be. I feel like a failure, I get stressed out. I overthink. I worry, I feel lonely. The list is endless. The thing is I have learned to deal with difficulties internally.
I see people and they tell me how tough they think I am. They tell me they admire me for my strength. Maybe I am tough and maybe I am strong. But honestly that is not something that is there 100% of the time. I make a conscious effort to convince even my closest friends that I am the cheeriest happiest person they know.
It is so much easier for me to put on a smile and fake it till I make it than acknowledge maybe everything is not ok.
I say this to say, social media makes everyones’ life look so shiny and perfect, so well put together. Don’t buy into the lie. A picture gives you a snap shot of a second into someones life. Everyone has pretty awful days, don’t assume that sadness isn’t there, just because it isnt on show.
#itsoknottobeok #everyonehasastory #behindeverysmileisastory #mylifeisnotperfect #dontcompareyourself #asmilehidesalot #justsaying #wednesdaywisdom
Muchas veces nos equivocamos pensando que la vida de otros es perfecta, porque quizás tienen algo que a nosotros nos hace falta, pero saben una cosa, solo es cuestión de que se detengan y analicen bien todo lo que tienen, podrán darse cuenta que tienen todo lo que necesitan, ni más ni menos.
Recuerden que lo material se hace, lo importante son esos momentos que nos llenan el alma de alegría y que son solamente nuestros.
July 19, 2014 I lost the greatest fan of my life, my daddy... That day I lost it all. I lost myself, I didn’t know who I was anymore or how God expected me to live with such devastation, pain & grief.
I tended to my horses daily, but never got them out of the pasture. It wasn’t their fault, its just that some of the greatest memories of my daddy were with my horses and I was not prepared to face reality. ⁛
The days & months passed... I stayed locked in a dark room & sat in the floor with my head buried in my lap as my dog tried to comfort me. I wanted nothing to do with the world, there was nothing left of it for me. I didn’t celebrate holidays, stopped going to church, refused to go to family outings, I became a stranger to my friends, I hated the things I once loved. My eyes stayed swollen & bruised, clothes fell off of me, I didn’t eat most days & when I did I was sick. I’d tremble, have nose bleeds, panic, hyperventilate & black out. I was alone in the darkest place of my life for nearly a year.
Until June 2015: mom said to me with tears in her eyes “Just put a halter on one of the horses & brush them”... The thought of waking up everyday without my daddy was hard enough- now I gotta try to face something my daddy was always supportive of... something I loved so dearly, now seemed unbearable but I was killing myself with depression.
So I put a halter on my mare & started brushing her, which led to me saddling her up. I put my left foot in the stirrup & as I swung my right leg over, an indescribable weight was lifted off of me. I could breathe, I could actually inhale & exhale without feeling as if I was suffocating. I rode for the first time since I lost my daddy... ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀
It was that day I realized that horses were not in my life for the money, buckles or trophy saddles to add to my collection. They had a bigger purpose! God knew that horses would be the only thing to bring me back from rock bottom. Horses took my hand from the devil & lead me back in the hands of God, they saved me. I still struggle every single day but horses are there to lift me up. No amount of winnings, buckles, saddles could compare for what they do to my heart.
Theres so many people who get sucked in to people's lives on social media. We can all look at one photo and think someone has the absolute perfect life, the dream house, dream car, perfect family, but what you don't see is the anxiety, the stress, the self doubt, the feeling of failure, the low days, the days they hate them selves, the days they physically have to drag them selves out of bed to go to work or even just function, the days they think they are an awful mum, awful wife, just an overall awful individual.
We are all humans with real raw emotions, don't always believe a smile means someone has the perfect life. These are the
people don't see because I have always choosen to hide them.
#depresion #puttingitoutthere #dontalwaysbelievewhatyousee
#anxiety #notgoodenough #tryingtobestrong
Today is a good day but I wanted to get my message out there that these days are real
15 years spent more on medication than off medication
I choose to try and make the most of each day