Tonight I had one of those precious moments that I live for. I had just put Grady to bed and heard him knocking on the wall. I thought for a moment he was just being silly but he kept calling out to me. He listens to music before bed so I wondered if he was tapping along to the song he had on. I called out, asking him what song he was listening to. "Do you wanna build a snowman?" he replies. He was knocking just like in the song from Frozen! I went scurrying back to his bedroom, did the knock on the door and sang the song, WITH him. Grady then declared it was time for a Frozen Musical and played "Let it go." We belted it out at the top of our lungs, him sitting in his half bunk bed while holding hands with me as we mockingly danced the song away. All those little words leaving his lips with such joy and animation. I wish I could talk to the Tara of old, eight or nine years ago. She would have been awake right now too, thinking about the future. Worried. Scared. Placing her son's future in her heavenly Father's hands, only to try and snatch it back a moment later, then surrender it again. It was a vicious cycle. My dream for this boy was so big and it was only one word: Happy. I wanted him to be happy. I wanted him to talk, have friends, delight in life, know the Lord. We are on a hard road, praying for this dream, having faith for things unseen. But I would love to tell that olden days Tara that its okay. I understand you are up late because you are concerned about your boy. I'm awake too, but I'm crying different tears then you are. He's talking girl...he's talking. He's not just talking, he's singing. With you. So stop your crying, wipe those tears and get ready for some happy ones. The Lord has got this...just you wait and see. This boy of ours, he is happy. 🙂.
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