This is so fucking selfish but I honestly don’t care anymore . I hate it when people talk negatively about themselves ALL THE TIME but they don’t know what self hate actually is. Then when someone tells them that they are worth while and important, and the person actually means it. The other person just brushes them off and ignores what they said and keep contradicting the kindness. It happens so much that whenever I try to tell others not to be so hard on themselves and that they are important, and they just ignore me and keep yapping. I just want to tell them that maybe they are worthless and they should just kill themselves. But I won’t because of how unbelievably rude and horrifically disgusting it would be of me to say such a horrible thing to another person. Then again, I sometimes do what I just said, so who am I to complain? I’ll beat myself up later for thinking this. Then I’ll just think it again, be mad at myself, get back up, and repeat the cycle. I think one of my fears, is that when I die, nobody will know just how much pain I was actually in. And they’d never know how hard it was for me. Wow what a selfish ramble this has become.
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