Does anyone ever feel that every step they take regardless of what direction they go only makes your situation worse? Then, your beautiful mind will start to unravel a list of your most darkest thoughts which then brings to light everything you’re most self-conscious about and to top it off you then start to put yourself down; telling yourself that you’ll never be good enough, that you’re not pretty enough, asking yourself how could anyone ever love you. You continue to dig yourself deeper and deeper in a hole where you don’t want anyone to know you’re in. So, what do you do? You fake every smile, every laugh, to be the S T R O N G & H A P P Y person everyone “sees” you as. Behind those fake smiles, laughs and hard exterior is a timid, scared, and self-doubting young women. And to be honest, I can’t [ e v e r ] remember a time where I felt beautiful, where I felt I was good enough.
It wasn’t until I forced myself to stand in front of a mirror and I kid you not, I was in front of that bathroom mirror for a good hour just looking at myself, asking G O D why...demanding answers. Instantly I began to point out every flaw, telling myself that I was fat, ugly and that I could NEVER be H A P P Y & LOVED. As much as I wanted to fight with that dark place in my mind, making myself feel lesser than I am, there was a sudden rush of peace come over me where I felt comforted. A tear rolled down my cheek as I looked at myself but this time I didn’t see myself the same, I was shook! I was soooo good at pre-programing myself to see ugly, instead, I genuinely felt B E A U T I F U L and it was glorious! [YOU] may be going through the same valley where I was and it feels that it will never end, even in the darkest of place there will be a hint of light, hold onto it with dear life and remember, “I loved you at your darkest.” Romans 5:8 Don’t give up! He made you exactly how he envisioned you but remember it’s up to you to trust Him wholeheartedly. #igdaily #photooftheday #bestofinstagram #trustinginhim #breakthrough #bestoftheday