I would hurt myself. I didn’t have any other way to handle the pain I was feeling inside.
Recently I took the kids on a trip to my old high school. We saw some of my old teachers and one of them reminded me that I was a quiet student. I know me quite lol?! That reminded me of how closed off I was as a kid but at the same time how much I was hurting on the inside. While I was in school my father had teachers report back to him what and how I was doing. I wasn’t living up to his exceptions as a socialite and joining in every activity. How could I?! I had a job to do, to look after my parents. At the same time, that feeling of being alone and feeling like I had no one I could talk to started to weigh on me. I felt I had to get the pain of taking care of 2 disabled and sometimes verbally and manipulative abusive parents out somehow.
I did so by pinching myself or picking at my skin. I discovered that if I physically hurt myself that I could take my mind off my inner pain for a bit and focus on my physical one. My physical pain changed from pinching and picking to anorexia and starvation as I went into high school. This abuse carried on all through my school days, until I started to be able to get some freedom. Meeting,, someone I felt I could talk to about anything, was a big turning point in my life. Over time I gained my health back and stopped expressing my pain on the outside because I was growing as a person and learning to heal it from the inside.
Hal Jordan also self-harmed himself. He had joined the Air Force against his mother’s wishes and was an amazing pilot! Things changed when his mother became ill and was dying. She refused to see him while he was still serving, so Hal purposely self-sabotaged his career to get discharged. After doing so he still arrived too late for his mother already passed. Showing that self-harm does no good to anyone. Thank goodness now he is a Green Lantern and is a model of positivity!
Have you ever hurt yourself, physically or otherwise?
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