#fuckanorexia

109,960 posts

Loading...
Loading...
LISTEN UP✨ Before meeting the owner of @dearoseswim : the new swimsuit brand I’m modeling for, I was nervous. I was scared my body wouldn’t fit a mold I had imposed on myself. I was afraid that my curves would not be okay. I even wanted to cancel our meeting at one point because I was feeling like my body wasn’t ready. I felt like I wasn’t fit & toned enough... but. Did I cancel our meeting? NO. The easy route would have been to cancel & spend the night in my room, comforting myself with food & netflix. I decided to tell myself that I am capable of hard things. This was hard for sure. I showered & I meditated and came to the realization that I am enough. I am worthy of being a model on their website. I am worthy of all the abundance I desire.
My mum arrived this evening! I’m so so glad to see her! We went to Harvester tonight for tea, they have an unlimited(!!) salad bar! I listened to my ED a lot and only got ‘safe’ things so didn’t get all my pre-ED usuals like croutons and pasta salad & dressing... I really fancied the halloumi and chips for my actual meal but last minute when we were ordering my ED screamed at me to get scampi instead because I freaked out about the fact it was cheese & apparently my ED can rationalise seafood a lot better (🤷‍♀️). It was so tough and I didn’t manage it all, I don’t think I even got halfway through (which upset me because pre-ED J wouldn’t have left chips, because chips are my FAVE!😋) but I’m glad I went & even had any at all! I’m already so much more than the scared young lady I was last week who survived on two oat cookies a day. I’m proud of myself. ~~~ #edrecovery #recovery #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #mentalhealth #ed #anorexia #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #prorecovery #anarecovery #depression #food #selflove #anxiety #fitness #mentalhealthawareness #bodypositive #health #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #selfcare #edfighter #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #healthy #ana #nourishtoflourish #anorexiafighter #fuckanorexia
Bonsoir, au cinéma avec ma soeur on est allées voir Happy birthdead 2,il était vraiment bien et j'ai pris des pop corn sucrée et en #dinner on est allées prendre :des tacos! Depuis un moment j'en avait tellement envie mais j'hésitais parce-que j'en ai peur mais il était franchement SUPER BON🤤 avec un 7up mojito et en #dessert :un tiramisu au daim! Aujourd'hui était une journée assez spécial,elle était bien mais il y'a eu des pleures,beaucoup de réflexion,de peine... Mais ce soir j'ai essayé de ne pas ni parler ni écoutée cette maladie de merde pour passer un bon moment avec ma sœur. Je suis très fatiguée et vais aller me coucher,bonne nuit.😚🤗💪#anorexianerviosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #eatittobeatit #eatingisthehardestpart # food #eat #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #fightinganxiety #fightinganorexia #neverstopfighting #behappy #loveyourself #liveyourlife #famille #fuckanorexia #anawarrior #edfamiliy #extremehunger #goodnight
It’s been a hard week in Marissa’s world, it’s got me down. I’m trying to figure out what I’m really doing right. I know it can be hard to think about yourself doing something wrong. In my mind (and eds) I couldn’t be doing anything more right. Truth is I can be a stubborn person....ok very, lol 😂. What if I turn that negative stubbornness into positive stubbornness? Essentially, towards my ed. You know, not listening to it’s bullshit, doing the opposite of what it wants, etc. see? you can always turn your bad habit around, even if it’s your top one 👍🏻. How is everyone today? . . . #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #orthorexiarecovery #overexercise #overexerciserecovery #weightgain #edfamily #fuckanorexia #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #balanced #healthy #foodforfuel #allfoodsfit #wholefoods #realfood #goodeats #futureRD #aspiringRD #ichoosetobewell #eggs #avocadotoast #avocado
tw! ⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀⠀ i woke up this morning and i was gonna go back to restricting to lose any of the weight i gained from minnie maud these past 6 days but it didn’t really work out. i only let myself eat a couple of strawberries for breakfast, but then i got extreme hunger that i couldn’t control and i ended up eating so much. i ended up having a breakdown but then i realized that this only happened bc i restricted instead of eating enough. an hour later my family went out to eat lunch and it was really hard bc i was afraid of people seeing me bc i feel like the weight gain is noticeable :/ but i ended up challenging myself and eating some ice cream that tasted so good :’)
i always find my #nightsnack incredibly difficult. but guess what. i did it. liquid calories in the form of orange juice with bits in it? check✅ • • wow i find my night snack scary!! i have 200ml of tropicana orange juice with bits and my magnesium tablet. it’s scary but i’m making progress! • • #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #kickanasbutt #fuckanorexia #anorexiarecovering #anorexiarecoverymeal #didit #ididthat #healthyfood #whatieatinaday #anorexia #recovery #beatingana #fightingana #ed #edrecovery #fdoe #eatittobeatit #ana #juice #liquidcalories
God kväll på er ni underbara!🤩 Min dag har varit sådär, men den räddades upp av kusin mys samt glass #recoverywin 🌟 Sån himla ångest just nu. Anorexin skriker som bara den! Andas, andas. Jag klarar det här! Du klarar det här! Vi klarar det här!💪🏻 Vi ska bli friska och fria!🕊 #fuckanorexia ♡ ♡ #mellis tidigare idag blev en bar som var delad i två delar från gainomax, i smaken creamy caramel. Den var himla go faktiskt.😍🍫 #middag blev tacos🤩 Åt tre sådan som visas på bild nr.3. Drack cola zero till detta.🌯🌮🥙🥛 #kvällis var dröm. En pint från B&J i smaken Love is...🍨 Den var god, men hade förväntat mig att den skulle vara lite mer spännande då den blev lite tråkig efter ett tag. Puss på er alla fantastiska människor.😘 ♡ ♡ #love #anorexia #anorexi #anorexianervosa #fuckanorexia #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #edfighter #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorder #recovery #fighter #eatingdisorderecovery #ätstörningar #ätstörningsrecovery #ätstörning #food #fdoe #mellis #mellanmål #utmaning #lördag #staystrong #eatittobeatit #slutashameaäs #fuckätstörningar
It’s easy to get caught up in the chaos of life. To forget to take a moment to pause, simply for yourself to stop and breathe. Life is a constant flurry of chaos, both good and bad. We get caught up in it, focused on the world going around us. The world is incredibly demanding, needy and consuming. To survive in the world it requires our attention for majority of our waking moment. More often than not we forget to take a moment to breathe, to stop and simply ask yourself “Am I ok?” To simply stop amongst the uni deadlines, work pressures, socialising, needing to clean the bathroom and take the bins out to pause for yourself. To reflect on your life opposed to just being another salmon simply swimming along the path of life. Pole is the time I pause for myself. This may seem slightly absurd due to the wonder of how can anyone possibly think clearly when they’re taking on the form of a pretzel spinning rapidly in a circle. It’s the only time my mind is silent enough for me to think. Or not think. We all need to just take a moment to pause and breathe sometimes. Especially if your pole dancing. Don’t do what I do and hold your breathe through most of it. #realrecovery #recovery #recovering #edfamily #edwarrior #edfighter #edfam #edcommunity #recoveryisworthit #recoverywin #positivevibes #ana #anarecovery #edrecovery #selfcare #anxiety #poletricks #fuckana #fuckanorexia #depression #mentalhealth #devon #fitfam #plymouth #flexiblegirl #ukfitfam #polelover #anarecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery
i had my pre-ed favourite meal (without cheese because that scares me far too much) at dinner! 3/4 cup wholemeal penne with 1 tin of john west no drain tuna and some veggies. • • good evening loves. this is what i had for dinner tonight. this was my pre eating disorder favourite meal! it was difficult to get through because the portion was GIANT!! but i managed most of it and i’m super proud of myself cause there was so much pasta tonight. even if i didn’t finish it i tackled another big portion dinner!! • • i wanna do a what i eat in a day video over on my youtube but i’m not sure... would you be interested? • • ngl the tuna was a bit mank, it didn’t taste the best but the fact that it was warm made it 10x better!! but your girl did it. i really want to try and incorporate cheese into this soon but i’m genuinely terrified ... • • #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #kickanasbutt #fuckanorexia #anorexiarecovering #anorexiarecoverymeal #didit #ididthat #healthyfood #whatieatinaday #anorexia #recovery #beatingana #fightingana #ed #edrecovery #fdoe #eatittobeatit #ana #bigportiondinner #dinner #pasta #tuna
I’m so mad at myself for gaining weight like in my head it’s a war between me and my ED😔 when is it gonna end? #thin #weightloss #mentalillness #thinlegs #eatingdisorder #skinny #bipolar #anorexia #anorexiasucks #fuckanorexia
Precisando de fibras e vitaminas querido? Taaca fruta!!!🍐😂😂 Vc tem alguma fruta preferida??🤔 As minha são abacaxi ,uvas Thompsons e goiaba. Pra suco é maracujá💕 #emagrecimentosemsofrimento #recoverymind #recoverywin #nutricao #psiquiatria #psicologia #enfermagem #nutri #anarecovery #fuckanorexia #emagrecer #perderpeso #fuckbinge #saude #fit #fitness #fightana #transtornoalimentar #dietasemsofrer #dietando #otaku #animes #cafedamanha
fought with the voice in my head and managed to have both of my TWO pieces of toast with spread, and cup of green tea. • • hey you guys. my breakfast today was two pieces of toast and some green tea. it’s on my meal plan, and i’m so proud of fighting through this because yesterday i could only manage one! dinner post coming later Xx • • today i went shopping with one of my best friends who i havent seen since leaving school. it was so lovely!! of course i got incredibly tired but i pushed through the day and bought some really lovely bits. i got some clothes from primark as well as the @maccosmeticsuk velvet teddy lipstick AND i got fix plus, both of which i’ve wanted for soooo many years, and i finally gave in cause i had the money haha!! overall a lovely day. i have dinner in a little bit (once my mum cooks it) and i’m nervous cause idk what it’ll be, but i have the strength to go through with it regardless. i will get better. and i can do this!! love you all, thanks for all your support💖 • • toast is starting to get reaaally boring as i’ve been eating it everyday since october... any breakfast recommendations that are about the same on macros? 💖💖 • • #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #kickanasbutt #fuckanorexia #anorexiarecovering #anorexiarecoverymeal #didit #ididthat #healthyfood #whatieatinaday #anorexia #recovery #beatingana #fightingana #ed #edrecovery #fdoe #eatittobeatit #ana
Dinner 🥞 A sweet bun with vanilla soy pudding, hazelnut-chocolate spread, cherry jam, peanut butter, berries and coconut shreds + caramel chicory coffee with almond milk. Fear food, but I was craving this soooo much for a really long time and I just faced it, was delicious 😊 Hope you're doing good 💕 Fingers crossed for everyone 🤞🤞🤞 #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #fightinganorexia #anarecovery #eatingdisordersrecovery #edwarrior #fuckanorexia #fuckyouana #edthoughts #iwillbeatthis #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #edawareness #fearfood #fearfoodchallenge
Hallo ihr lieben, Wir (@my.way.back.to.life_ & me) posten unser Wochenende zusammen. Auf den Bildern seht ihr unsere Essens Highlights.😊 Das Wochenende läuft super und wir kämpfen zusammen gegen Ana an. Heute Abend schauen wir noch einen Disney Film und genießen unser zusammen sein (und die Süßigkeiten😉). Wir wünschen euch einen schönen Abend und Stay Strong! 💪💕
Ce midi le #lunch était :un bol de nouille en mode ramen avec des légumes et des morceaux de dinde et en #dessert des macaron(j'ai pris un a la pistache et une boucher de chacun des autres!) et en #afternoonsnack :une #pintparty de Ben&Jerry super bonne j'ai mis un peu de chantilly dessus et c'était très bon! Ce soir ma soeur et moi allons ai cinéma,j'ai vraiment hâte je me dit que ce serai bien et j'en ai très envie,cette après midi j'étais très mal j'ai beaucoup pleurer car ana me fait vraiment chier et il y a un problème pour décider de la vie de mon chat,c'est une histoire assez compliqué mais je me suis jeté sur ma glace pour : faire chier a ana parce-que j'en avait envie et pour noyé mon chagrin. J'espère que le reste de la journée sera bien en tout cas je vais tout faire pour et ne pas laisser ana me faire chier et gâcher ma journée ! Bonne après midi🤗😚💪 Bonjour,pour bien commencer le week-end on va passer un bon samedi,commençons avec le #breakfast : 2 morceaux de pain perdu au nutella banane,de la pomme,du lait d'amande et des céréales,des oeufs brouiller à la cannelle et à la banane et un verre de jus d'orange. Ce matin je me sentais pas très bien mais la ça va je me sent mieux et je vais tout faire pour passer une bonne journée et suivre mais envie,écouter bob et pas ana car elle me fait me sentir encore plus mal ces temps si que se sois mentalement ou physiquement mais ma journée sera merveilleuse je vais tout faire pour qu'elle le soit et ne pas penser ni écouter ana mais c'est si compliqué espérons que j'y arriverai. Bonne matinée !🤗💪😚 #anorexianerviosa #anorexiarecovery #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #fightinganxiety #fightinganorexia #neverstopfighting #behappy #famille #loveyourself #liveyourlife #fuckanorexia #extremehunger
R E S T I N G 🌜 It’s okay if all you did today is breathe. I personally tend to feel extra GUILTY ☝🏼 when I have a rest day. Whether thats taking a day off from the gym or a mental health day off work. You must rest to regroup, and that is okay. We are not perfect. We are humans.
Breakfast for boo and I at the local coffee shop ☺️ Now before I get a bunch of comments/messages expressing concern (or even anger) around a half a bagel for breakfast ✋🏻 I’ve got some health stuff going on that’s giving me some GI issues and making eating larger amounts more difficult. So what’s the logical solution? Smaller amounts of food, more frequently. It’s funny, that’s a normal decision to make, but it’s immediately questioned when coming from someone with an ed. Not unjustifiably so, I get it. But still... support is helpful, doubting and questioning is not. Luckily, I’ve got a lot of great support and they understand what’s going on and are working with me to ensure that ALL needs are met 👉🏻 Intake high enough, discomfort low enough, mental head space strong and steady 🙌🏻 I’m a lucky lady to have such support. (And for the record for the haters... had a small bowl of cereal before we left the house. So this is like my second small meal of the day!) • #edrecovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexiaathletica #strongnotskinny #healthynotskinny #prorecovery #bulimia #ana #mia #recovery #fuckanorexia #adultswitheds #mentalhealth #edfighter #edfamily #realrecovery #intuitiveeating #eatittobeatit #foodisfuel #balance #happy #healthy #beyou
Morning snack This little cake before my yoga class, today I’m happy, don’t know why but I am so I’m having this little treat with myself 🥰 . . . #eatingdisorderawareness #trastornosalimenticios #tca #ed #eatingdisorderssuck #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #fuckanorexia #orthorexia #orthorexiarecovery
Знаете , ещё пол года назад я даже не могла подумать, что смогу иметь так много читателей . Когда я создала страницу я не рассчитывала даже на 100 фолловеров. Вы не представляете, какую поддержку изо дня в день вы мне даёте . Может если не вы , я бы опустила руки и сдалась . Но я знаю , что меня смотрят несколько тысяч человек и я понимаю , что делаю это и для вас тоже . Когда получаю хорошие комментарии и ваши сообщения о том , как я вам помогаю мне хочется плакать от счастья. Ведь когда-то я сама смотрела на спортсменов и и скала мотивацию , а теперь я могу кого-то вдохновить .спасибо за то что вы у меня есть 💜🌻🙏🏼 Кстати меня ещё никто не рисовал , это очень мило 😊 . . . #Фитнесбикини #фитнес #пп #спорт #ппеда #зож #тренировка #ппзавтрак #тренер #зароботок #инстаграм #правельноепитание #анорексия #рекавери #рпп #fuckanorexia #тренировканог #тренировкаспины #похудение #диета #мыщечнаямасса #намассе #сушка #рецепты #мояистория #востановлениеотанорексии
Today's lunch, 4 vegetarian meatballs, some beanpasta and veggies. Really struggling to get all my meals in since they've increased so much the last week. Update from my doctors appointment, I've lost weight and my values didn't get any better so they are increasing my meals even more now. Feels very hard, I can barely go for walks anymore and the gym is unspeakable. I don't see myself as sick, I know I am but I can't see it. To me, I look obese, I know I'm not, but when I think of myself I have a hard time to accept that I am sick since I'm not "skinny enough". What is really skinny enough then? I'm not overweight, I am not even a healthy weight anymore, but I still see myself as if I were obese. I keep thinking, if I had just waited a few more months until I asked for help, then I'd be worthy. Then I'd be sick enough for them to really care. I'm still waiting for ed treatment, and my brain keeps telling me that they prioritize other over me since I'm not skinny enough. I know that it's not true but it echoes in my head all the time.
Hellooo ~ first day of being outpatient & first full day of REAL recovery! I know at present I’m not having enough to gain or anything but I’m starting off small & working my way up!☺️ breakfast this morning with my dad before he left to go home was an almond croissant in EAT & for lunch back in my flat I had a wrap with scrambled egg, grilled chicken & bacon(!!) My mums staying for the next couple of days when she lands from Tokyo later on and she’s suggested going for tea tonight... eating out is a huge fear, particularly evening meals! I went out for tea with my dad last night and he chose a noodle house, the portion was HUGE and noodles are a massive fear so I didn’t have much at all & felt so panicky but I’d forced myself to have so much more food than usual yesterday & the day before so that I could leave hospital that I think I pushed my stomach too far and made it cramp up and become really unsettled😞 So taking a step back today... still going to go eat out with my mum but I’m gona listen to my body & not force too much onto it!☺️ ~~~~ #edrecovery #recovery #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #mentalhealth #ed #anorexia #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #prorecovery #anarecovery #depression #food #selflove #anxiety #fitness #mentalhealthawareness #bodypositive #health #recoveryisworthit #recoveryispossible #selfcare #edfighter #strongnotskinny #eatittobeatit #healthy #ana #nourishtoflourish #anorexiafighter #fuckanorexia
Having some frozen fruit, feeling guilty because I had planned to eat this at 3, but that's what recovery is about, challenging rules #edrecovery #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #strongnotskinny #neda #foodismedicine #anorexiarecovery #fuckanorexia
Upptäckte precis att texten försvunnit igen?😳 Så himla tråkigt.😩Här kommer den igen i alla fall för dem som är intresserade. ♡ ♡ God eftermiddag finisar!🤩 Hoppas er helg börjat bra!🌟 Min dag började med en #brunch med mamma efter en promenad i det fina vår vädret med min lilla vovve.🌞🌸🐶 Så mysigt och skönt var det!🕊 Lite jobbigt att behöva äta lite mer än vad jag brukar till frukost, men det skulle ju vara lunch också så.🤷🏼‍♀️ Nåja gott var det hur som helst!😍 Ta hand om er vackra människor där ute!🤗💞 ♡ ♡ #love #anorexia #anorexi #anorexianervosa #fuckanorexia #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #edfighter #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorder #recovery #fighter #eatingdisorderecovery #ätstörningar #ätstörningsrecovery #ätstörning #food #fdoe #helg #mat #utmaning #recoverywin #lördag #staystrong #eatittobeatit #slutashameaäs #fuckätstörningar
E pra hoje o que é que temos? Pra mim foi: 1 fatia de pão integral light➕2 claras mexidas com temperinhos( sal rosa, pimenta calabresa, orégano e pepitas de girassol)➕ 2 fatias finas de melão e ➕ meu pretinho hoje foi com leite ☕😋 Esse foi o meu #breakfast de hoje. Se quiser comenta aqui em baixo oq vc comeu/quer comer 🤗👇 #emagrecimentosemsofrimento #recoverymind #recoverywin #nutricao #psiquiatria #psicologia #enfermagem #nutri #anarecovery #fuckanorexia #emagrecer #perderpeso #fuckbinge #saude #fit #fitness #fightana #transtornoalimentar #dietasemsofrer #dietando #otaku #animes #cafedamanha
Snack was actually three homemade Smore‘s with some milk but I only have this crappy photo. This was both a challenge and a first. I’ve never done this before so I am kind of proud. I don’t even like marshmallows that much but this was good :3 #strongerthanmyeatingdisorder #strongerthanana #strongerthananarmy #strongerthanmymind #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexianerviosa #recovery #anorexicgirl #anorexiamemes #anorexic #anorexiaawareness #eatingdisorderrecovery #eattolive #anarecovery #edfam #edrecovery #recoveryisworthit #foodismedicine #edfighter #eatittobeatit #fuckanorexia
Bonjour,pour bien commencer le week-end on va passer un bon samedi,commençons avec le #breakfast : 2 morceaux de pain perdu au nutella banane,de la pomme,du lait d'amande et des céréales,des oeufs brouiller à la cannelle et à la banane et un verre de jus d'orange. Ce matin je me sentais pas très bien mais la ça va je me sent mieux et je vais tout faire pour passer une bonne journée et suivre mais envie,écouter bob et pas ana car elle me fait me sentir encore plus mal ces temps si que se sois mentalement ou physiquement mais ma journée sera merveilleuse je vais tout faire pour qu'elle le soit et ne pas penser ni écouter ana mais c'est si compliqué espérons que j'y arriverai. Bonne matinée !🤗💪😚 #anorexianerviosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #fightinganxiety #fightinganorexia #neverstopfighting #behappy #famille #loveyourself #liveyourlife #fuckanorexia #anawarrior #edfamiliy #extremehunger
~Breakfast~ Two Rice Cakes with peanut butter and a chopped banana Such a simple and plain breakfast but a rather delicious one🤤 Had a hard think last night about how I need to change and become even stronger if I want to stay out of hospital🥺 Brand new day which means a fresh start,going to fight against ana today and no matter how much the voice screams at me I’m going to stick to my meal plan and manage all meals including snacks and show ana that I’m not scared anymore! #breakfast #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiasucks #fuckanorexia #eatingdisorderrecovery
For me, it was a giant, men’s, thrift shop sweater kind of day. #anorexia #ana #fuckanorexia #cozy #butsotired #andmytherapistisworried
my whole world.. whenever i look at u all the hurt jus fades away. i’m sry u have to see me so sick. i will get better for u, u deserve a big sister that can care for u & show u how to love urself. i love u so dearly angel grace, one day u will understand jus how many times u saved me. • #anarecovery #miarecovery #ed #strongnotskinny #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoverywin #eatittobeatit #edfighter #nourishtoflourish #vegan #bodypositive #anorexia #bulimia #fuckanorexia #ednos #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #mentalillness #food #selfcare #selflove #foodisfuel #family #sisters #sisterlove
Dinner out with my dad and boo ☺️ Focusing on rearranging priorities right now. Sometimes that means focusing on me. Sometimes it means focusing on family. Sometimes it means focusing on work. Not all or nothing. My therapist and I have been talking a lot about how all or nothing ed is... you should or shouldn’t do something. Can or can’t. Will or won’t. You did well at something or totally failed at it. You’re good enough or you’re not. No in betweens. No grey areas. Which is quite frankly.... always going to set yourself up for failure in the long run. There’s something all or nothing. But nothing else in life is that clear cut... learn to live ::comfortably:: in the middle. Balance. Priorities. Compromise. And knowing that no matter what, you are good enough. • #edrecovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorder #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexiaathletica #strongnotskinny #healthynotskinny #prorecovery #bulimia #ana #mia #recovery #fuckanorexia #adultswitheds #mentalhealth #edfighter #edfamily #realrecovery #intuitiveeating #eatittobeatit #foodisfuel #balance #life #family #priorities
Just popping in (PTW) - things are rough mentally boys. I thought I’d have a better handle on things but my Ed has been SCREAMING since my trip. Every fucking morning it’s like well do I fuck up eds plans to fast and eat something or should I go as long as absolutely possible without eating but then feel like ass all day and eat more at night to make up for it anyways?! 🙃 . . This is one of those really not-fun times in recovery where I have no motivation, no goals to shoot for bc I feel I can’t achieve them anyways, and a cloud of depression that comes and goes and follows my entire life around. . . I should be happy. I should be motivated. I should be grateful I have 2 jobs that will allow me to travel in a few weeks. If I just got off my goddamn ass and ate like I know I should id be in a better spot and I wouldn’t look the way I do and I’d look like ME again. I should feel better and I don’t have a ‘reason’ to be so sad. But here we are bc this shit makes no logical sense so 🤷🏼‍♀️ . . It is literal agony to wake up every fucking morning and fail at eds rules bc I decided to eat something. And then it’s even worse to go to bed failing YET AGAIN because I ate over what I told myself I would and now I’ve failed at recovery too. I’m so so so tired. I want someone to just tell me it’s all gonna be ok and I’m sorry for the fact that this post sounds whiny af. I’m just so tired of the screaming in my head all the time. 😪
Bonsoir l' #afternoonsnack de l'après-midi était :une joli fleur dans son peau en chocolat,le problème c'est qu'il n'y avait rien à l'intérieur et on a pas pu le terminé la soeur et moi car sa faisait un peu beaucoup de chocolat ! Avec un bol de lait d'amande, le #dinner était :de la purée de pomme de terre avec de la cuisse de dinde et quelques petit légumes, en #dessert :une semoule au lait de Nestlé. Aujourd'hui était une journée très bizarre plus dans l'après-midi,j'ai été vraiment mal car j'ai trop de chose qui me reste sur le coeur et que je n'arrive pas à expliquer,sa m'énerve tellement je n'arrive pas a m'exprimer pour dire mes sentiments et sa c'est un gros problème sue je n'arrive pas à régler, j'ai beaucoup pleurer à cause de toute ces choses qui me tracasse depuis ces dernier temps et ana,encore cette chienne qui n'arrête pas et qui n'arrête jamais de me faire du mal,elle m'a fait toute la journée me sentir tellement énorme et grasse et horrible mais ma soeur est et sera toujours la pour me consoler je l'aime tellement,j'aime tellement ma famille sans eu je ne serai rien,ma mère mon père ma soeur mon frère mon chat et celui de ma soeur (mon fils et ma nièce🙃)c'est eu ma famille et je les aime plus que tout au monde. Vers la fin de la soirée j'ai eu une bonne nouvelle qui ma fait me redresser pour continuer à avancer et heureusement ! Je vous souhaite une bonne nuit et à demain vite pour une nouvelle journée.😚💪🤗😴❤ #anorexianerviosa #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #eatittobeatit #eatingisthehardestpart #eat #eatingdisorderrecovery #recovery #fightinganxiety #fightinganorexia #neverstopfighting #behappy #food #loveyourself #loveyourfamily #famille #liveyourlife #fuckanorexia #anawarrior #edfamiliy #extremehunger #goodnight
It’s never to late to better yourself. It takes hard work but you can do it. There’s no can’t in this world. Fuck that voice in your head that tells you otherwise. You deserve to heal 🖤✨ ~ #recovery #youdeservetoheal #nevertoolate #youcandoit #betteryourself #hardwork #loveyourself #recoveryquotes #recoveryaccount #artaccount #love #lovaendlife #toughlove #fuckanorexia #fuckmentalillness #fuckdepression #fuckanxiety #warrior
so for the past couple of days I’ve been doing minnie maud & today’s been kinda hard bc i got weighed. after seeing the number i don’t even know if i wanna continue recovery :( im trying to just distract myself and keep enjoying food (like cookies!) regardless of the number i saw. plus my mom told me she’s really proud of me and that my face looks brighter/happier, so I’m just trying to stay positive and not relapse again :(
i miss the start of my recovery in october. i miss feeling powerful & dedicated & strong. this was just a snack i had at my mum & dad’s when i visited them for christmas. this is more than i now eat in a few days. i miss it. i miss being full. i need help so bad.. i feel like i’m giving up & abandoning recovery, it’s too hard. i feel bad for having this account. i’m keeping hope though, i’ll get strong again & it’s inspiring to see all my friends on here kick ana’s ass. just need to ride the wave. • #anarecovery #miarecovery #ed #strongnotskinny #eatingdisorderrecovery #recoverywin #eatittobeatit #edfighter #nourishtoflourish #vegan #bodypositive #anorexia #bulimia #fuckanorexia #ednos #anorexiarecovery #bulimiarecovery #mentalillness #food #selfcare #selflove #foodisfuel
#tbt this awesome dessert ♡ // Unfortunately I am not allowed to do sports again. I wished it so much but I had 200 grams too little 🙁 I don’t want to do sports to burn calories or something. I want to do sports because I love it and I’ve done it all my life. It’s a big part of me and I miss it so much. But fortunately my next appointment is in 10 days and I think I will surely gain these 200 grams☺️ // I’m feeling so much bette atm and I can feel how much recovery has helped me already. What you have to know is in recovery you of course are going to gain so it doesn’t matter if you eat more or less more even if you eat not much you are going to gain because you have eaten so little and then it doesn’t matter how much more you eat you will always gain. When you start recovery you did not decide to only recover mentally you also decided that you will start gaining. So I think you should enjoy the time you are gaining and eat whatever you want. You deserve this! I know it’s hard because of this guilty feelings after eating but you have to think of how much calories you missed when you were losing and now your body just wants these calories back. So give your body what it wants and needs and enjoy all the good stuff you haven’t eaten for so long!!!🥰 // #anorexianervosarecovery #edfamiliy #anorexiafight #recoverywin #recovery #recoveryanorexia #recoveryisworthit #recoveryjourney #edwarrior #anorexia #anorexiatips #anorexiafighter #anorexiasucks #anorexiaquotes #beatinganorexia #fuckanorexia #recoveryispossible #keepfighting #bestrong #dontgiveup #food #foodlove #eatittobeatit #recoveryisthebest #happiness #beatit #delicious #anaisaliar #anafighter
Blueberry muffin 🧁 ❁Oml this is my biggest fear ever I haven’t had this in about 2 years and it is terrifying. My mum bought it for me and it’s terrifying, there was a panic before but I did it and am quite proud. It’s never as bad as it seems ❋ ‘recovery is hard but it’s much much better than dying from anorexia” #anxiety #edrecovery #anorexianervosarecovery #fuckanorexia #anorexiasurvivor
I LOVE MY BODY!!! Ok.. to be honest, that's a lie. Some days I feel mentally down and struggle with my body image.. but there are also other days.. good days!! and these days remind that everything is possible. It's possible to overcome fears, it's possible to be happy and the most important thing: It's possible to ignore the unrealistic beauty standards of today's society!! In my opinion, we're all beautiful because everyone of us is unique! The problem is that our world is full of sad people and I really wish I could help them. I wish that I could show them that there is a way to get out of anxiety and pain. I wish that I would have the possibility to change something in our world. Sorry, just some thoughts that I had today and I thought that it would be time to post something!! I love you 💖 Marie🌼🌻 #alternativefashion #gingerhair #alternativestyle #scenegirl #scenefashion #altsceneft #jfashion #fuckanorexia #recovery #alternativexfashion #alternativegirl #alternative
this was a challenging one!! another #fearfood tonight... chips! • • hey my lovelies. my dinner tonight is was chicken with veggies and one of my biggest #fearfoods chips. it was difficult, really difficult!! i couldn’t finish them because i started to feel really uncomfortable but i ate the majority of them!! i’m so fucking proud but feel so guilty... • • so today was interesting. i had my camhs appointment and got my meal plan written and on paper. i wanna do a separate post i think updating about the meal plan, but it made things really difficult tbh today. i couldn’t decide what to eat for dinner. PTW: so my dad had to practically force me to eat and chose my meal for me. i still haven’t told them i only ate half my breakfast and didn’t have my pm snack... i’m so scared but i want to get better... i need to!! END OF TW. so now i’m watching some @rebeccajleung and am going to have a nice long shower to destress, cause i’m going shopping and thrifting tomorrowww fuck yeah i can’t wait!! • • this tasted good!! i let the chips go cold accidentally whoops but i still feel guilty, but i ate as much as i could and took another step towards KICKING ANA’S BUTT! fear food: chips? ✅✅✅ • • #fuckana #anorexiarecovery #kickanasbutt #fuckanorexia #anorexiarecovering #anorexiarecoverymeal #didit #ididthat #healthyfood #whatieatinaday #anorexia #recovery #beatingana #fightingana #ed #edrecovery #fdoe #eatittobeatit #ana #dinner #chips
School used to be a place i hated I was terrified to just go there and be around other people Exams would be something I was stressing out so bad , that I near to passed out every time we had to write one I had a hard time figuring out who I was ( because of my Bpd , it is still really hard for me to be just "Myself") I changed my style , personality,look,hair etc. So often that most people found it really complicated to be with /around me because they didn't know what / who I was I missed over a year of school because I was in hospitals and psychiatry's While I was gone , so many rumors were out there over me , why I wasn't in school and why I wasn't online anymore . People thought I would be dead , that I just didn't wanted to go to school , that i went to Spain and just stayed there , that I tried to kill myself and so many more things It was really hard to explain why I was gone for so long , everyone asked me rude and disrespectful questions about how I tried to kill myself or how underweight i was etc But now I am here I went through all this and now everything is really different I have some friends now I'm not alone and there are not so many rumors about me out there I'm a lot stronger and can deal with most hate / trigger comments I have a better relationship with my class and people actually see me as a person and not as a weird psychopath It's a process and took me a long time , some tears and a bunch of fears BUT I did it !! My fear of school got a lot less , I'm not freaking out over exams that much , I'm not hiding myself and I'm definitely stronger It's all a process , you have to keep going , keep practicing what you want to change /want to learn and one day you will be able to do it !! ( And yes those pictures were taken in school today ahaha #nofilter xx) Stay strong everyone and please remember that you are loved and we need you in this world ❤️
#middag = Sushi för andra gången idag!😍 Någon som är lycklig- JAG🙋🏼‍♀️. Så 10 bitar sushi, ett glas cola zero och även en LYCKOKAKA! 🍣🍙🍥🍤🥛🥠 Varsågod anorexin!😋 ♡ ♡ Vi brukar alltid äta lyckokaka till sushin här hemma. Men jag har inte vågat det på ett längre tag, förräns nu. För varför inte egentligen? YOU ONLY LIVE ONCE!🤟🏻💛🧡💜❤💚💙 ♡ ♡ ♡ #love #anorexia #anorexi #anorexianervosa #fuckanorexia #anorexianervosarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #edfighter #eatingdisorders #eatingdisorder #recovery #fighter #eatingdisorderecovery #ätstörningar #ätstörningsrecovery #ätstörning #food #fdoe #mat #utmaning #recoverywin #sushi #friyay #fredag #staystrong #eatittobeatit #slutashameaäs #fuckätstörningar
Threw myself a prawn and avocado PASTA together for dinner 👌 Made the avocado saucy stuff with half a smashed avocado, lemon juice, garlic and pepper ... its very yummy ! 😍 (I use brown rice penne so this is #glutenfree too!) #dinner #foodpics #instafood #instahealth #prawns #fishfriday #yummy #avocado #pasta #foodisfuel #foodismedicine #anorexiarecovery #fuckanorexia #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatittobeatit #eatpastarecoverfasta #edwarrior #edfamily #edrecovery #prorecovery #recoveryftw #realrecovery #prorecovery #balance #nutrition #healthy #healthyfats #loveyourself #simple #fresh
Tonight's #dinner was a huge #fearfoodchallenge !! Me and my dad were planning on making our own sushi or ramen tonight but we met my old taekwondo coach so we decided to eat with him 😅 . All in all it went well, I orded "falafel with bread". The sauce made me really anxious but I still ate it all and it was REALLY good 😍 . REMEMBER FOOD WON'T EVER HURT YOU!! 💪😊 . Tomorrow I'm going out to meet a guy and I'll probably eat all my meals with him besides like breakfast and nightsnack so im hella scared. He doesn't know about my ed. But I can do it! I won't let Ana rule over me!💪 . . Have a nice Friday!😌 #anorexianerviosa #ed #anorexafighter #ätstörd #anorexiarecovery #äs #anorexia #anorexic #ätstörningar #ätstörning #edfighter #edwarrior #edrecovery #fearfood #fuckanorexia #fuckana #eatittobeatit #eatingdisorderfighter #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorder #minniemaud #minniemaudrecovery #depression #mentalilness
Zítra v 7:00 první video na YouTube !🌱Rozhodne se teste,protože jsem si s videem dala práci,prvně teď nasrali nějaké problemky ale všechno dopadlo jak má !✨ #ppp #anorexiastory #youtube #youtuber #fitness #healthy #video #youtubevideo #new #tomorow #🌱#vegetarian #nofilter #loveyou 💓 #anorexia #anorexianervosarecovery #beatanorexia #fuckanorexia #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #beatinganorexia #fightanorexia
next page →