I went to lunch with a sweet friend today who adopted her two children. It was so nice to talk to someone who has been what I'm going through and understands the longing we have to find our baby. She helped me to see Heavenly Father's hand in our path. We know our son or daughter will come to us when the time is right, but waiting is so hard. Please share with everyone you know that we are adopting!
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MY HOPE IS THAT EVERYONE WILL READ THIS BECAUSE ANY OF US CAN GET IT AT ANY AGE.
I decided share with you why raising money and awareness is SO IMPORTANT to our family and so many others that have gone through loss or live with Hydrocephalus. 😭August 7, 2014 was the day our daughter went to heaven. This was also the day that changed our life forever.😭We were broken in a way that is unimaginable. 😭At our 20 week routine check up I felt they were taking just a minute to long. The appointment was different. 😭The doctor comes in and tells us that "sometimes Mother Nature doesn't always create a perfect baby, your baby has Hydrocephalus".😭We were in shock, horror and had never heard of "HydroWHAT". My next question was "how do we make her better: surgery, antibiotics, what?!"😭Doctor: "Nothing we can do, you can terminate up to 24 weeks in GA".😭Me: What F^$k was this man talking about?!!!😭As many of you know, we lost our daughter to Hydrocephalus which is also known as "water on the brain". Her 3rd quadrant was blocked, her cerebellum was 5% developed and after all the doctor's we saw and the final baby MRI doctor told us "she will never talk, walk, feed herself, live without a ventilator she would have zero quality of life". 😭There is no cure for this condition and the only option for care is brain surgery/surgeries to put in shunts that fail regularly.😭Hydrocephalus can happen to any of us at any age. 😭 It can happen to ANYONE from a car accident or hard impact😭Many MILITARY people come back from wars with it 😭 The ELDERLY are misdiagnosed as having Alzheimer's or Dementia but in reality they have Hydrocephalus and are never appropriately helped.😭We are Co-chairing the Atlanta Hydrocephalus Walk to raise money and awareness this Saturday at Chastain Park.
No donation is too small and all are tax deductible. PM me and I'll send you the link.
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Hey friends! Took a few days off to re-center myself. I find that occasionally I need to just take a social media pause so that I can re-engage in real life and really hear my own thoughts and needs. Sometimes one pause is enough for me and then I’m ready to get back into it. Other times, like this week, I find that I need a longer break and so I just go with what feels right. And usually, it’s exactly what I needed.
Social media can be an amazing connector, but it can also, at times, create pressure to show up beyond what we feel we can give. And sometimes, we do it anyway because we don’t want to let people down and because we care. For me, whenever I do that, something else usually suffers like my work, my family, or my own sanity.
That’s when I know it’s time to take a step back. Because how can I possibly show up and provide from an empty cup?
Do you ever feel that way? How do you handle your own self care when you feel like you’re being pulled in many directions?
It is only 8am but it’s never too early to take a selfie with this awesome patient’s shirt that celebrates our love for the uterus and ovaries!
Sometimes it's the problem that seems to speak the loudest in our minds, but what if we focused on the promises of God instead and let God take care of the problem? – We are loved, we have a purpose, His plan is for good, we can do all things through Jesus!
While I was back in Texas visiting my family, I found a “Hello Kitty” journal I kept while interning @waltdisneyworld
in Florida back in 2001 🎠 In this journal were pictures and printed emails of the H’s and my correspondence during his months of chemotherapy back in College Station ⚠️ Looking back I’m both in disbelief and filled with a tremendous amount of gratitude that God granted him the opportunity to heal and continue to live this beautiful life 🍭 We were so young and so recklessly optimistic 🚀 I suppose when you’re 21/22 years old, you’re too naive to really perceive the magnitude of his situation (or at least, compared to how we see it now) and honestly, everything we spoke about during those days were things that made our hearts happy, because it was “OBVIOUS” to us that he would heal 🙏🏼 It’s crazy how in some of his emails, he treated cancer/chemo as if it was a headache 🤕 He carried on with such strength, no complaints, he just kept on going..... cool, calm, and collected. I loved the shape of his bald head, and it was then, that I fully understood the depth of his self assurance 🙌🏼 When looks turned to stares, he just kept on going, with what seemed to be not a care in the world⚡️ #whenwewereyoung
💕 Now with IVF the after math continues, yet regardless if we have a baby or not, I can’t stop feeling grateful because he is here today and is 💯 cancer free. Thank you to my TTC Squad for so much love and so much support, I love learning about your stories and sharing our hearts ❌⭕️❌⭕️
🌟🌟UPDATE ON YOUR BOOK ORDER 🌟🌟 Sound on, I explain everything. You should get your books soon.
Det var ju förra veckan eller tom veckan innan dess, började författa en liten text samma dag men den blev som inte klar. Det är så lätt att bara rada upp fakta. Det är så lätt och samtidigt så energikrävande att vara arg. Jag tycker det är svårt att skriva om självmord kopplat till transnationell adoption. Dels för att det berör mig väldigt mycket (borde beröra alla!?) och när en skriver om det och möter reaktioner som ”sluta svartmåla adoption, lite svinn får man räkna med” gör det mig så upprörd. Varje gång!
Det finns en utbredd psykisk ohälsa bland transnationellt adopterade, kvinnor är värst drabbade visar undersökningarna. Var tionde adopterad kvinna över 22 har försökt ta sitt liv. Sverige har tagit emot över 60 tusen utlandsadopterade vilket betyder att en ganska stor grupp är berörd. Det är den kalla faktan men för mig som är transnationellt adopterad och som genom åren har kommit i kontakt med en hel del likar är det inte bara en siffra. Vi är så många, så många riktiga vanliga människor som bär eller har burit på tankar om att avsluta sitt liv. Vissa är synligt trasiga, vissa med kroppen fylld av ärr, vissa syns eller märks det inte alls på. obs. viktigt att skilja på de som lider av suicidtankar och de som har självskadebeteende. Det är inte alltid samma personer.
Som jag skrivit om tidigare saknade jag spegling som barn och det påverkade just mig väldigt mycket. Jag var en observant typ och såg alltså hur människor runt mig såg ut. Jag mins mina första möten med en spegel och hur jag tittade på mig själv från olika vinklar. Jag gjorde snabbt bedömningen att jag inte såg ut som andra och därmed inte var en människa. Det i kombination med att jag ständigt blev mobbad, retad, trakasserad och därmed upplevde att jag var till besvär för människofamiljen som tagit sig an mig ledde mig till 2 halvdana försök att avsluta mitt liv. Jag var mycket ung och kunde inga bra metoder men tänkte att om jag åt alla svampar som växte i trädgården kanske jag skulle bli förgiftad. Hade hört att det fanns dödliga svampar. Det ledde enbart till magknip.
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I haven't had intrusive thoughts this bad in a long time..and while I know they'll come and pass, I need to get them out of my brain and onto this platform so that I can breathe again. One of my intrusive thoughts is that I'm a terrible person and a narcissistic sociopath psychopath who has no soul or is dead inside. This picture was taken tonight at a staff dinner. I was super excited to see this picture because what you don't see is my beautiful girlfriend to the right of me. However after seeing her face and being like wow I'm lucky to be dating her, I looked at my eyes and realized how dead they look. Now I was already having intrusive thoughts earlier today so it doesn't shock me that they're telling me my eyes look a dead, fake, soulless monster who is fake and terrible in this picture. And I honestly don't know how to validate myself and feel okay with saying I'm not those things. The second I validate myself and say that I'm in fact not the person my brain tells me I am, my brain screams even louder saying there's the narcissist coming in who doesn't have the guts to admit they're an empty shell of a person. Idk I'm terrified that I'm never making any progress or that I'm not even capable of progress because I'm a soulless human. I think intrusive thoughts are happening because I've had a lot of sensory stimulation these past couple days. I've also used my brain heavily at school. Idk I just want them to stop. Riding the wave. Trying at least
So, there’s this human with a really crummy attitude in my kiez who is constantly writing hateful graffiti (this photo is very low level hate compared to some of the other shit they are writing about various minority groups). Since there’s no way to know who’s spreading such bad vibes/stop them, @coryandreen
and I have a little side project I wholeheartedly suggest everyone participate in: keep a marker pen in your bag and frustrate the haters! Upset the upsetters! Conquer darkness with lightheartedness! ✌️😍✌️
We’d love to share your tips on this topic on our website! Let us know, what do you do to escape your #ttcthoughts
“Why Would Someone Even Try You Knowing What Kind Of Female You Are?”😂👏🏻🤷🏼♀️ ‘Cause You Let Them Feel That Comfortable 💯 #FlipTheScript
So, I did this thing today, and it didn’t go nearly as good as it did in my head. I fumbled my words. I was distracted. It clearly was not my best, and to be honest, I kind of started to beat myself up over it.
But then I reminded myself that I still showed up.
You guys, sometimes we need to flip the script we tell ourselves. We need to stop beating ourselves up, and learn to give ourselves a little grace.
So, here I am again, just showing up, learning to let go of perfection a little more, and giving myself some grace.
We have to choose which page we're going to be on, pages of the past or pages of our future. It's easy to be jerked from one side or the other and we may read a page or two of our past because that's where we're drawn and our tears will drop on those pages and we feel such sorrow for the letters that made words. We know that our tears have kept those pages watered long enough
If that's not who we are today, let's change what pages we choose to water, because it's what we water that will grow . 💜 📖 💦📚 💜
what you want to see #grow
and move on to your future. 😊
This is one of the single most important ways to break down self-doubt. It is so dang important to learn not to believe your negative thoughts because most of them flat out aren’t true. If you can just learn to apply this concept to your life consistently, many of your limiting beliefs will lose their power.
Flying away!! Buh-bye!!! Buh-bye! 🌬
We are CELEBRATING the road to freedom this weekend! 🎉Check out the recap - 👉🏽Tap sound on! 👈🏽
Are you working on flipping your script? Tell us at www.flipthescript.life
Follow Pastor Michael on social: @mbrueseke
I am so proud of my Senior Pastor, Michael Brueseke, for the release of his amazing devotional that is now available on Kindle! IT.IS.SO.GOOD! You are going to want to get your copy today! We are going through it together as a church right now and lives are being changed. ❤️@mbrueseke #flipthescript
Recognize, reset and respond. - When you get a new phone, it is set to factory settings. A clean slate. The Bible says, when we are a follower of Jesus, the old is gone, the new has come. We are made new. - We end up adding apps, emails, text messages, photos, videos, etc. There is a phone setting "Erase and Restore". How do we do that in our mind to flip the script, to thoughts that are good and positive? We need to recognize when a negative thought comes through, reset, and respond with God's promises we know are true. Check it out. Pastor Michael gives us the rundown in this awesome clip from our #FlipTheScript
What you see and what you don’t 💥
For the past few months I’ve had numerous people comment on the fact that I look tired and “hey, look at those greys” (zoom in, you know you want to 😉)
Instincts kick in and you’re immediately maybe offended a little, and rush to make excuses and explain yourself. Until I realised these were simply manifestations of what has been going on in my life, which most people had no idea about. So I started telling them. Not in a (hopefully) discomfort-inducing oversharing but if someone asked, I told.
The result has been magic 🌟 Humans supporting humans. Sharing stories and experiences. Creating common threads between the webs of their lives.
I am tired. But you know, aren’t you?
I work full-time in an Emergency Department, where the brakes are never on, and shift work is just a part of life 💉
In my spare time I’ve been working towards passing a bit of a mammoth exam - sacrificing my free time to the Gods of Study. Made infinitely easier by the ENDLESS support of family and friends who have watered and fed me, among other things.
Also, you’re probably just not used to my face without make-up. Not your fault, I never showed you. But I’m (nearly) 35 now, and comfortable doing so. So, tired-looking Sara might just be Sara! 🤣
Overshadowing all of the above, for the past 9 months the hubby and I have been doing our darndest to grow a little human of our own. 3 embryo transfers down, numerous procedures, a body that looks like a pin-cushion and is full to the brim with hormones, we’re still trying. It’s a rollercoaster like none I’ve ever experienced. At times it’s taken over, obliterating everything else. And your gut (and commonplace practice) tells you that you can only share it with your partner/close family/people who have been through the same. It’s taken me a few months to realise that this just doesn’t work for me 🙅🏻♀️
How is anyone meant to understand anything about anything if it’s not talked about? In a world where 1 in 6 couples will struggle to conceive, how do we feel about putting them into a dark room and pretending they’re not there? 💭 Flipping the script on this one!
Behind your ‘tired’ face, I see you 💗
I’m unlearning a lot with the help of a magical little bird, my sweet @foxesandbones
. Do less, more slowly. More rest, pursue pleasure, experience and respect leisure (cuddles, decadent food, changing patterns of anxious movement to more play), understanding a breaking point is a turning point for tuning in, rejecting dogma that disempowers women, flipping power scripts, realizing the deep, deep truth of my limitations, and trying to pivot there, with more self love and compassion.
When I was a kid, I used to be able to do this hellllllla good! I made it a challenge for myself to get back on that grind!! Been working on it for a few weeks now and was finally able to get the motion down earlier this month!! Started with my right leg til it busted then hit the left leg to keep shit even!! This was my last set and as you can see, my left leg busted too!! Showed up to vegas with bruises behind my knees! (Pics in story) none the less, it was fun, exciting and I’m ready to keep hitting this move until I perfect the spin!! Never be distracted by comparison, instead be captivated with purpose!! #hurt #spiritmindmuscle #dontgiveup #snapsawitfirst
This is incredibly true and relevant and thought it would be fitting to share and celebrate 150 @adoptedintheuniverse
family members!! Thank you so much for continuing to follow my journey towards healing and pursuing life. I appreciate those of you who've been here since the beginning and the ones who just followed this morning. I'm thankful for you all. This community of fellow adoptees have shown me just how positive a space the internet can be. I'm eternally grateful for you all
En wat houdt dat in? "Minding your own business". Nou dat dus..eigen verantwoordelijkheid nemen en goed voor jezelf zorgen. Proberen te kijken naar situaties en je afvragen..waarom? Wat is mijn aandeel? Hoe kijk ik naar mijzelf? Wat kan ik hier voor toegevoegde waarde uithalen. Wetende dat Ik de regisseur ben...En mijzelf het beste gun.. toch?! #flipthescript #selfcare #stopthecycleofabuse