Sept 26th, 2018 day changed my life forever... Somehow it was was the worse thing I had done, leading to both The best and hardest things I've ever had to do. Stuck in a passionless & effortless relationship going nowhere (thinking "love" made me happy), I hit a low, feeling lost I attempted to take my life twice the same weekend..... Unfortunately, my greediness was not just hurtful against myself, but also against someone I Considered my soulmate and love of my life. She could not bare witnessing my eradic behaviour from attempted OD and fight with police, to the witnessing and findimg me bleeding out from the 2nd attempt in the 2nd day in a row. I hurt someome I dearly loved, and she didn't deserve to be hurt like that, nor bare witness to my destructive attempt.
Mental health is real, but the help is hard to maintain.
8 monthes later I Still struggle, I'm Still alone, but I'm working on me self, escaping my environment, the ppl I surrounded myself with, I ran away to find myself (or to make my disappearance easier) not Gunna lie, my demons are still with me, and still strong. But I fight daily.... And even when I have nothing, I still maintain to have some fight left in me.
My saviour has been the gym. So hard to Go and motivate yourself. But as hard as life is, I'm not ready to Quit. I'd rather be beaten down then walk Away. Not Kidding myself, my life is far from perfect. But I'm in a state of acceptance an tolerance. And I'm Gunna do what's needed to keep fighting..... Here's to tomorrow's struggle. Keep fighting!! #mentalhealth #sanctuary #mentalhealthawareness #suicideawarness #bestrong #helpyouself #doitforyourself #everyonedeserveshappiness #everyonedeservestobehappy #fightyourdemoms #fightback #dontgiveup #dontgivein #breathe #PTSD #mania #manicdepression #borderlinepersonalitydisorder #dowhatsbestforyou #soulsearch #growth #mindset #healthycopingskills #myownworseenemy #demons #selfmutulation #suicideprevention #suicideattemptsurvivor #keepfighting #myscars