How I wish I had a friend like me.
A real friend.
Christina and a few friends from the valley were the closest I’ve came. But no ones been what I’ve been through, so,... you know how it goes.
I’ve just reminded we’re all animals. It’s survival of the fittest. And no one cares about a depressed lonely girl.
Absolutely no one in the world.
I think I understand why the grinch stole christmas
Or why Drake said “The honesty of my music has left me too exposed”
That shit doesn’t live here. Except I’m the living embodiment of fear, that’s why people will tell you don’t go near. It’s cuz im begging you to come and leave me breathless. But instead I leave you breathless, you really can’t help yourself to peer into my abyss, and wish you absolutely COULD CARE LESS.
But what’s more entertaining to watch, than a pretty, smart, funny, artistic, vocal, emo kid. That sings a pretty song every once in a while, it sounds pretty even though I haven’t and will never hear it.
Eerie. When it comes to my major lows like this where no one can hear me. I only open my mouth through texts but today was my last day opening up period. Next time I open up, it’ll be my last few days on earth, before I land in a cemetery.
I’m so used to the feeling.