I have begun a new body of work unlike anything I've created before. It always feels vulnerable to share new explorations and creations, especially ones that are birthed out of difficult life circumstances, but I think it is time for me to open the door a crack and invite the curious among you peak inside my life and process.
This past year has been particularly challenging. After 17 years of unexplained symptoms, and a year where these symptoms came back in a flood and became particularly disabling (not for the first time), I was finally diagnosed with Lyme Disease (you know, usually known to come from a tick bite). This news was eye opening for me and closes a long chapter of being doubted, brushed aside, trivialized by medical professionals who didn't know what to do with me. Lyme disease is a contentious and political issue that can be incredibly destructive and surprisingly disabling, and recovery is long and complicated.
When creatives are faced with difficult experiences our first line of defense can often be to express what is going on, and for me art has always been my most natural “voice.” This new body of work explores the tension between control and loss of control, between the complicated aspects of the self that push and struggle and pull apart. Through the cutting and ripping and layers and mediums, this work explores what is the “self,” what it looks like to see someone in wholeness, not just on their skin and clothes, wheelchairs or skin color, disability, gender or age.
As I experiment with medications and doctors, and take steps forward and backward, I have been aiming to create an authentic expression of this journey that, I believe, is a very human journey, and one many of you can relate to. Because, really, we are all bumbling through life, struggling to make the best of it, working to be seen and known in our wholeness, to love and be loved, to live and choose the life we want. So this work is for you.
Here are some glimpses into the beginnings of this work.
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