long sappy post, so bare with me. ive been waiting a very long time to post this side by side. i remember in 2011, when i stepped on the treadmill at 300lbs, and began to walk, i thought about what drove me. i worked out in the basement of my college dorm at the time. as i walked, id stare at the cement brick walls and think about myself in the future and how i wanted to be. thin, sure, everyone wants that— but it was more than that. i wanted to see myself as a role model for those who never believed they could. my entire life ive underestimated. im quiet (but seriously i have a loud mouth lol), i keep to myself, only speaking my opinion when asked, i like to be alone and i try to be kind to everyone. i wanted to still be that girl, but also be comfortable in my own skin and know that when people looked to me, they saw hope. over the years, i lost weight, but i made sure to still keep that goal in mind: hope. .
yesterday, i achieved that goal. i stood on the stage at the #indianastatechampionships
with my head held high because i deserved to be on that stage with all the other amazing athletes that i had the honor of competing against. it was a tremendous honor standing in front of the judges and showing them my best package. a huge thank you to the judges of the @npc_indiana
for awarding me with not only 1st in Open and Novice Figure and Physique for my classes, but awarding me with the title of 2018 Miss Indiana Physique. i will carry the title with me for the rest of my life and honor it. thank you to @dave_bowers
for taking the time to speak to me and awarding me the “best new competitor” award— a title that i will cherish for the rest of my life. it was an honor to stand next to all the figure and women’s physique competitors. thank you all for answering my dumb questions and befriending me. thank you to @fiercefitsteph
for helping me with my posing and my routine, tanning me a million times, and helping me countless hours with my suit, make up, etc. a huge thank you to my coach, @arc_fitness_community
, for never giving up on me. (READ THE REST IN THE COMMENTS) 👇🏼