Don't be scared about changing, be truly afraid of staying where you are.
Of course recovery is terrifying. You're taking on a very powerful opponent. It won't be easy, in fact it will be one of the hardest things you'll ever have to do. It'll take everything you've got and a whole lot more that you didn't even know you had. The eating disorder will kick and scream so you'll have to be stronger and braver than you ever thought possible.
There will be times when you feel like giving up. Times when you feel like a cowardly failure. Times when you wonder if you can carry on. BUT...
...what's the alternative? To stay sick? To be bullied by your own mind? To never do the things you dreamed of when you were a little girl? To have a life where all your friends have moved on and left you behind? To feel so sick, cold, tired and hungry all of the time? To have your freedom taken away, your life controlled and decisions made on your behalf? To have your life cut short and your friends and family left in despair?
Yes, recovery is tough, it's messy, it's shitty and it doesn't always go to plan. But if you stick with it, no matter how hard it is at times, you'll never regret it.
Recovery is ALWAYS worth it ✨💖💫
#recoveryisscary #recoveryisscarybutsoisstayingthesame #recoveryisworthit #fightforrecovery #change #recoveryishard #recoveryistough
We all have the power to change our beliefs about ourselves and lives! At the moment I am struggling. I am struggling with my family. Everyone is in a bad mood. My mom is sick and complaining of how tired she is and she can't get a break! My dad is mad because our refrigerator is broken and he wants all the food on our basement fridge out (which he knows my stuff is in there). He says whatever is in there when he comes home tomorrow is garbage. He isn't working on fixing the current fridge we have so I dont know what he expects me to do. He says he comes home from work and continues to work on the house. I told him this is the life he has so make the best of it. He is what causes my anxiety, depression leading to my ed.
I work tomorrow so I am hoping me and my mom can talk it out tonight so I wont be anxious thinking about it at work and throughout the night.
Today hasn't been the best of Mondays for me. Yet I'm still going to fight for the better days. There was good in today. I went out to get a coffee and heard rumors that Maroon 5 might be playing at the superbowl. I also know new episodes of Spongebob are on this week (starting today). And only 3 months until my birthday, meaning only 3 months until Christmas!
You have the power to change and enjoy the little things in life❤💪
What’s BETTER than a green smoothie?💚🌿 A super thick, creamy + delicious green smoothie, served in @coconutbowls
with some crunchy toppings of course!🙌🏼
The perfect balance of carbs, plant protein + healthy fats, packed full of fibre, essential vitamins and minerals + antioxidants ~ I couldn’t think of a more nourishing, healing and energising way to start the day😇
1 frozen banana
A handful of frozen pineapple
1-2 tbsp plant based vanilla protein
1 tbsp hemp seeds
1 tsp spirulina
Handful of your favourite greens (or greens powder if you don’t have fresh greens!)
1/2 cup coconut water
Blend it all up until super smooth and creamy, scoop into your bowl, add toppings + ENJOY✨👅
P.S. I consider this a snack not a meal, just FYI!🙊
😱Isn’t it crazy to see how far God can take us? I started a complete lifestyle change over 4 months ago. 🧀🥖I cut out dairy and gluten from my diet. I started walking almost every day. I started to get control of my body and health again. 😐I’ve been up, I’ve been down, and I’ve been on that same roller coaster since I was 13 years old. 😭I struggled with an eating disorder, I struggled with wanting the perfect fit chick body, I struggled with how my body felt and looked. And if I’m honest, I still do. 🙌🏽But this past weekend I was in the dressing room, doing a LOT of trying on of new clothes. And the sizes I was trying made me feel so content. 😍How I felt in the clothes made feel incredible. I FINALLY felt so *happy*.👏🏽
You may be thinking, why would your body make you feel happy? Well because when you’ve struggled for 15 years, it’s nice to finally feel GOOD about yourself. 🧡Sometimes we have to realize that we don’t accomplish ANYTHING on our own.
God is always listening, He is always there, He is always working. And today, I’m just so incredibly thankful for progress and for Jesus for getting me there. 🙆🏽♀️If you’ve ever experienced this, can I get an amen?
🧡‘This Body is Worthy of Love.’ A new design coming out tomorrow!
#eatingdisorder #christian #encouragingwords #praisegod #thankyoujesus #yawlifestyle #worthy #worthywords #bodypos #bodypositive #edrecovery #thankful #graceupongrace #mountains #healthyliving #glutenfree #dairyfree #weightlossjourney #body
Okay so my new addiction... Rice cakes!!! Okay so yeah I usually eat them at breakfast with peanut butter or yogurt and fruit, but I wasn’t that hungry for lunch and wanted to try something different... so I did peanut butter and jelly and I was going to do a mini pizza thing, but I didn’t have pizza sauce so I used the next best thing... bbq sauce and cheese :)
These things are so versatile they’re amazingggg😍😍
So everything just gets worse. What am I supposed to do, I gained two pounds today but I binged yesterday so it’s probably water, my boyfriend and me are fine but my mom and me, I don’t think there’s any going back. I’ll try but she hates me. She called me a piece of shit today and that I don’t deserve anything, yeah It upsets me but it’s gonna hurt her longer in the end then it will me. All I want to do right now is binge and lay down with my boyfriend and sleep, I want to hug him and make out with him, and just be ok but Ik Im not. #anorexia #eatingdisorderrelapse #eatingdisorder #anorexiatips #emancipation #ana #mia #fat #loseweight #depression #suffering
(not me in photo) Hey how are all y’all? I set my limit to be 300 cal for today but I’m already 130 cal over 😭 How does one learn self control? Lmk if you have tips.
The stars have aligned and I have received and tasted the most glorious superfoods flavor that corporate has yet to create. 🎃✨
Seriously though, so good! When I think about all of the essential amino acids, probiotics, phytonutrients, superfruits & supergreens in this tasty little treat my heart could skip a beat.
When you KNOW you are fueling your body w/ the BEST vitamins & nutrients that you can’t get from your daily diet, it just makes you feel like you did something right today.
I took care of me today by having a pumpkin spice superfoods shake mixed w/ cold brew coffee, a little vanilla, some almond milk, ice, & PB as an afternoon snack to curb my cravings. #delish
part 2-> Strawberry, cookies&cream and 70% truffles 😍💛 the cookie one was the best!!
I had a bad time yesterday with body image but after that post I asked my mom for pizza and that was the best decision, coz I craved it for a month or so.
Today I was pissed, I had pizza too late and wasn't hungry at all for breakfast. But hey, ya gurl gotta eat right? So I ate all my meals and even more, because I was feeling sad due the changes I've noticed in my body and thought "oh so now I should go back to normal eating (which for me means restricting)"
I'm still underweight. I'm still mentally ill. I still crave food. I still have a long path to go trough. The change in my body was minimal, plus, it arrived after +- 20 days.
And hey, who said I can't eat if I wasn't thin anymore? If I was already recovered? Big no no, I am more than allowed to eat whatever whenever!! Rewire brain, rewire!!!
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #eatingdisorder #edfighter #bulimia #foodisfuel #bodypositive #projetovidão #anorexierecover #recovery #beatingana #prorecovery #food #disturbioalimentar #mentalhealth #nourishnotpunish #eatittobeatit #anorexicgirl #anorexic #recovering #mentalhealthmatters #cheatday #cheatmeal #foodie #nourishtoflourish #bodypositivitymovement
Shout out to @taylaclarke
for killing it even in the worst of circumstances and being a shining example that just because everything is hard, doesn’t mean we don’t try our very very best 🧡🧡
every day will always leave you with an interesting collection of moments and thoughts. some of those will be good, and some not so good. but it happens to everyone, everyday. some days, people get better or worse shit than others. thats okay though, because we all have our shit and we have to accept what comes our way. cause we don't always let ourselves accept that our suffering is not a punishment, or a result of our own personal fault or uselessness. it's not your fault that something went wrong. it's normal and natural, and at some point soon something will probably go right. but it's life, guys. and as much as the bad moments suck, that's what makes life manageable. how imperfect it is. because perfection can be a drag and can be a stressful mother fucker. so instead of striving for perfection, strive to be able to accept the good and bad in the world. because the world is not out to get us.. believe it or not.
Hey y’all, ya girl Danni here just got out of clinical early and got herself a Large Cola Slurpee to celebrate 🎉 Today was probably the hardest clinical day for me of the three I’ve had so more because I got really tired and also began to get a headache 🤕 I didn’t take lunch and snack pictures but my lunch was a Turkey Rubin Sandwich and some Sour Cream and Onion Cracker Chips from the Cafeteria and snack was Tea with Sugar and three Shortbread Cookies from the hospital’s Tea Time ☕️ Despite my face in this picture I am extremely exhausted right now, but I am also starving for dinner. I’m thinking I’ll rest my eyes for a bit and then get to dinner.
Sorry I haven’t posted in a while. I’ve just been really busy and I started to feel better, I started to feel normal. You know those cuts my wrist yeah they’re going away but I’m still covering them. But everything went downhill I start to gain weight of some kid in gym called me fat because I finished first running the track. That really got me fucking down and so I kind of stopped eating for a day until my fat ass had to eat. I’m gonna try not eating again, and I started cutting again too. There’s no escape is there? I mean at least I tried. I mean and I’m starting to loose friends. And I swear EVERYONE hates me, I mean everyone. I don’t know what it is everyone just freaking hates me. For that I’m sorry.
#depressionquotes #depression #suicidal #eatingdisorder #killme #idontwantoliveonthisplanetanymore #depressionisreal #triggerwarning #worthless
ahhh i got chips at college wtf. me and @getfuckedkenzi
had a load of free time at college, so we chatted n i did her homework cause im a babe n we got these to eat! did not think id be able to eat chips from the college cafe ever/for a long long time but eek i did it n idk if im proud of myself or sad about it aghhh
Never let any motherfucker dull your shine or squash your dreams. End of discussion. ✨
yo yo so i tried protein bars for the first time in forever because i used to be afraid of them since most of them are high calorie but i had a fuck it moment at the store and my mom bought these two which i randomly tried. the no cow was kind of gross it just has a weird texture so it’s definitely not the best one but i liked the chocolate chunks so that’s something.
so there’s ur random protein bar review😄
Conversation 💬over lunch 🍴
Sometimes you need to stop, and remember just how far you’ve come. I’ll never not appreciate the smaller things, the fresh air, watching the sunset with Mum on a park bench. It was my far away dream a year ago, to just feel the air, to feel peace, to be with my family, to be away from hospital even for a few hours, and now, finally, it’s real.
22 weeks later... I’m finally off ALL 1:1 observations!!! Baby steps, but I’m getting there 👣☺️🦋