it is not over
One of the biggest issues faced by those that have experienced trauma of an extreme nature is a sense that the life they feel they never lived, is over, its done, its finished, stolen and gone for ever.
That is simple not the case, that is a choice.
You have the power to choose how you write your next chapter
Love this @drjohnaking
#suicide #dissociation #endthestigma
Don’t Find Time, Schedule Time
Put the big rocks in first:
Imagine you have a large glass jar and next to it you have a pile of very important rocks, lesser important pebbles and not so important sand, all of which you have to get in the jar. If you put in the sand or pebbles first, what happens? They fill up the space and t .. http://www.drjohnaking.com/ptsd-recovery/dont-find-time-schedule-time/ .
COURTESY OF @drjohnaking
#dissociation #breakthestigma #endthestigma
I won a giveaway that The School of Life (@theschooloflifelondon
) and Shelf-Awareness ran of this lovely book On Confidence and they surprised me by also including a set of confidence prompt cards. They arrived in the post yesterday and I'd just like to say a big thank you for them. The School of Life produces a whole range of fantastic books that apply philosophical wisdom to help us learn how we can best live our lives. In the book On Confidence they've drawn on various wisdom from philosophers such as Montaigne and Nietzsche, as well as artists such as Bakhuysen and Frans Hal, and many more, while discussing the subject. They also have a wonderful YouTube channel that is really worth checking out.
Confidence is something that I'm actively working on. Living with various illnesses over the years naturally dents your confidence, especially when your illnesses are mostly invisible. Agoraphobia and migraines have slowly stripped away the confidence I once had. But the brilliant thing about confidence is that it is a skill and can be learnt, and relearnt. I'm really looking forward to reading the book, and using the prompt cards, so thank you! I'll leave you with this wonderful piece of wisdom:
"An inner voice always used to be an outer voice that we have absorbed and made our own. Many of our inner voices need editing out."
#book #bookstagram #philosophy #confidence #mentalhealth #mentalhealthmatters #mentalhealthawareness #health #healthy #mentalillness #mentalillnessawareness #gad #anxiety #anxietydisorder #anxietyattack #panic #panicdisorder #panicattack #dissociation #ptsd #cptsd #agoraphobia #healing #wellbeing #wellness #motivation #inspiration
Dear everyone in the universe, today is just one of those days.
So I am going to need you to
BACK THE FUCK OFF.
Well what can i say….?
It is what it is.
Great post by @drjohnaking
#dissociation #veteransuicide #stopthestigma
Develop a Work Ethic
You are not entitled to success. Develop a “blue collar” work ethic and marry it to an unbending will.
There are no real rules, so make rules that work for you.
Creativity – it’s like the magic pudding – the more you use, the more you have.
ORIGINALLY POSTED BY @drjohnaking
I can tell what a project is about roughly and describe my thinking process, but no single piece of artwork refers to a specific event or thought of mine. For some in the audience it's confusing, for others it's liberating and invites people to share personal experiences and thinking on delicate subjects. I see this as possibly my main contribution as an visual artist. 🔹// Jag kan berätta vad ett projekt handlar om i stora drag och beskriva mina tankeprocesser, men ingen enskild bild refererar till en specific händelse eller baktanke jag har. Detta är förvirrande för en del, men frigörande för andra som tar bladet från munnen och delar med sig av känsliga erfarenheter och tankar. .
LOSS of INNOCENCE / OSKULDSFÖRLUSTER (2018)
Inner realities are not linear narratives. This project, as previous "Escape of Innocence", is about emotional turning points in woman life which change life perspectives for better or worse. The artwork of "Loss of Innocence" is inspired by psychological concepts such as fragmentation of memory and dissociation. All my collages/montages are composed of imagery photographed by me. More: www.jolineklinga.se
#fertility #miscarriage #abortion #periods #stillborn #birth #rebirth #uterus #childless #rape #whitedress #innocence #photocollage #ptsd #photoart #photomontage #förlossning #oskuld #innocence #mens #barnlös #livmoder #äggstockar #jolineklinga #c_expo #konstfoto #fotocollage #fotomontage #dissociation #pregnancy #periods
one of the most common ways to treat anxiety is through exposure. you expose the anxious person to an anxious situation, they survive the situation, and then use their survival as evidence for why they might be able to face the same situation again. for me, this doesn't work in the same way, because as soon as i am exposed to an anxious situation, my dissociative brain stops processing memories and emotions, so my survival is never integrated into my beliefs about who i am over time. i survive - i am even good at surviving - but my survival depends on my dissociating from memory and emotional processing. i can't integrate my surviving as evidence for my capacity to face future challenges. if i am really anxious about something, i stop feeling anxiety as soon as i enter the situation. i shut down my anxiety and appear calm, happy, bright, and pretty good at whatever it is i am doing. i don't seem like a person who is dissociating - yet as soon as i am outside of the situation i can't integrate it with my experience of being a consistent person over time. in effect i occupy two self states and these are dislocated from one another. the knowledge that your friend is good at coping in anxious situations doesn't give you enough evidence to suggest that you can do the same thing - but this is kind of what exposure therapy feels like for me. it doesn't work. no matter how many times i cope in the same situation, as long as my coping depends on dissociation, i will still be equally terrified to do the same thing every time i am faced with it. this is because my dissociation makes me feel like i never faced anything at all. this is important to share because it highlights that people with dissociative disorders can be anxious about the same thing over and over, while simultaneously being very good at doing the thing they are anxious about. we can be terrified about something and then do the thing without any signs of fear at all. it's less important for us to be exposed to anxiety more important to learn how to cope without disconnecting from emotions and memory processing. #dissociation #psychology #anxiety #mindbody #recovering #recovery #mentalhealth #mentalillness
My therapist and I haven’t been doing much trauma work for a little while, but we finally had time today and so I read aloud what I had written a few sessions ago. Previously, I wrote out in as much detail as possible: a happy memory, the earliest memory of trauma in can recall, and the most recent one. I started to shake and anxiety rose as I read the traumatic ones- there wasn’t much written that I could remember in terms of details so my therapist had me read it again sentence by sentence and add more thoughts, feelings, descriptions (sight, smell, sound) and situational specifics of the space. This was really difficult to do and I became even more anxious (she was monitoring my anxiety by asking how I was on a scale of 1-10). Part of the memory included acts of physical abuse which she had me go into detail with as well. After taking a few minutes of frantic thoughts, I put something down...but my body did NOT like that. I had a pen in my right hand and I was looking down in my hands, but then all of a sudden my hands holding the pen were not mine, then my arms were not mine, then my legs, then I could feel myself detaching from my body- dissociation. I was able to describe the entire process to my therapist including “I don’t think I’m in my body anymore” which alerted her that I needed to do grounding ASAP. We did some descriptions of the room and I tried to describe how it felt to sit- pressure in my shoes, weight in my shoulders, but I was gone. I couldn’t feel any part of my body touching the couch so we did more grounding by deep breathing. This mostly brought me back to myself because I started to cry. The rest of the session was spent on a different, lighter topic to calm down, but I continued to silently cry. My therapist gave me some positive affirmations which I greatly appreciated and told me to repeat them on my way home and throughout today since this is the day I’ll probably struggle with due to feeling raw and exposed. I’m proud of myself, even if my body didn’t like the process, I made it through. .
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The image is for Levia, but this post is going to be introducing both her and who we’re going to refer as “the little one”!
Levia is one of our protectors. She is both a doctor and some sort of divine being. She very rarely fronts. She mainly looks after the little one and intervenes when others have a breakdown or become destructive. She rarely shows any emotion outside of caring for the little one, and avoids interaction with anyone outside the system. Whenever she does front, and most of the time when we have any contact with her, the body is completely drained and exhausted afterwards.
‘The little one’ is the youngest in our system (~4-6 yrs old), a major trauma holder, and we’ve decided to keep most other information about her confidential. She fronts even less than Levia.
#dissociativeidentitydisorder #dissociation #dissociativedisorder #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #didsystem #mentalhealthrecovery #mentalillnessawareness #mentalillnessrecovery #multiplepersonalitydisorder
Some wholesome memes thrown your way ~🍑
When you’ve been feeling fat, tired, migrainey, aspie burnout, insomnia, clumsiness, dissociation, sleep paralysis, ringing ears, zitty, farty, acid refluxey, but wait there’s more... you go back to the hair color that feels like you when you look in the mirror, n get a pep talk from your stylist. ————— #blondie #blonde #longbangs #blondehair #iamblonde #blondeatheart #hairstyle #renew #pickmeup #stylist #feellikeyourself #backtoblonde #aspiestyle #beyou #beproud #youmatter #loveyourself #sashay #actuallyautistic #aspiegirl #aspielife #aspieburnout #crazylikeafox #nerd #neurodiversity #divergent #dissociation #autisticburnout
and #depression #iced
up with some #adoration
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The human mind has always been intriguing to me. The way others act when put in certain situations is quite fascinating. As an empath, coming across someone who has no attachment to any feeling whatsoever amazes me. And I find myself "stepping away", or dissociating with the situation instead of judging them. To figure out how their mind works. This is why criminology has always been a dream job of mine. To be able to step inside the mind of someone, to see their train of thought and line of reasoning, gives me goosebumps. And that's when I realised that so far in my entire existence, I've come across two narcissists. The feeling I get when thinking of these two people is that of dissociation. Not anger. When you find out you've been gaslighted, you usually get angry. Upset. Why would they do this? That question is exactly why I don't get angry. Or upset. Instead it intrigues me. I want to know more. How can someone feel so little? Does it amaze me because I feel so much? The way a person can fully dissociate with their existence and those around them 24/7 will always be mind boggling to me. It makes me wonder if they have ever truly been happy.
This is what I have mostly recovered from. I say mostly, because I'm not sure I'll ever not have some separation inside, or perhaps its work to do down the road. While everyone around me functioned as whole people, I had dozens of parts of me inside that I had to learn to live with and that was extremely challenging
Regardless, the work through DID was at times a full time job when I first began therapy, just learning how to function as an adult. Bit by bit pieces came up and got processed, felt, talked through and then integrated inside into who I am as a whole. I know DID isnt that well known and not really talked about....it is and was a lonely journey through and I'm thankful I can speak a bit more now about it.
I say I'm recovered from it bit really, I have come to recognize I have some left to do although I believe it is being healed through living and life.
#mentalhealthawareness #dissociativeidentitydisorder #bellletstalk #mentalawareness #dissociation
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This is an important choice that you'll want to get right - the wrong therapist can really hinder your progress.
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When you bend forward is the movement coming from your hip or your low back? •
This exercise is challenging because it forces you to isolate hip movement in rotation and flexion. Personally, I have a tough time dissociating my low back from my hip, which is likely due to years of compensational patterning that has developed due to poor motor coordination. In english? My hips don't move too well on their own so my low back kicks in to help with the movement. •
What would this compensation look like? During this exercise you would see your low back twist and flex to give your leg the space it needs to clear the ground. This would happen if your functional range of motion in the hip was limited. •
Can you do this challenge? Try it out and let me know! •
Music - Bensound.com •
#chiropractor #hip #lowbackpain #hipmobility #yoga #bodybuilding #dissociation #health #healthtalk #medical #movementisarmor #crossfit #wod
Personal story time biitcch.
Hi. I'm Emily.
I have been diagnosed with severe manic depression with dissociative features. Also generalized anxiety - of course.
I've had highs and lows for as long as I can remember. In the past year, my mind has spiraled. I tried to take my life 3 different times.
This shit it real. This shit is hard. This shit is hard to hear as a friend or family member.
I'm posting this for awareness. How many of you know me personally? How many of you know me as hilarious, raunchy, and real? How many have you have seen me in my dark days? How many of you say you're there, but actually aren't?
This isn't for guilt. This isn't for pity.
If we do not open up about these issues, we are going to have an epidemic of suicide and self-harm throughout our schools and work places.
I have a good life.
I have a good job, a good boyfriend, a good family, and a roof over my head.
And guess what? *I'm still not okay.*
THAT'S mental illness. I'm not just 'sad.' I've had so many people in my life tell me to just BE happy. If I just ACT happy, it'll get better. I make things worse. I got called TOXIC when I FINALLY took my own health seriously.
Please educate yourselves. Read a book.
#mentalhealthawareness #mentalillness #manicdepression #dissociation #bipolardisorder #real #longstory #fitness #journey #takingmyhealthseriously #kayredfieldjamison #anunquietmind
I am my own prison, carrying my secrets in my jail and parts of me locked inside.
Some secrets are to dark, to painful and to dangerous to tell.
I hurt people by telling, and than again I feel that I hurt people just because I am me.
I’m tired of flashbacks, nightmares and sleepwalking. Never knowing what will come next night, and thinking this will never pass, and never end.
I’m the protector. Still protecting people around me from the horrible truth. Protecting all that should have protected me when I was ripped apart. Protecting all these who looked away, from feeling guilty for not doing anything.
Protecting the abusers and their family.
I’ve lost all inspiration, and all energy.
If everything is locked up inside me, no one around me will be hurt.
I’m still haunted by the demons from the past. That decide what I can say or not.
But they can never control my writing..✍️ #psykiskhelse #cptsd #dissociation #mentalhelse #lofoten