A lot of you don't understand what I go through on a daily basis. Some people think the pain I deal with is only in my head. Other's believe it's "mind over matter" & to focus only on the good. But what the outside world doesn't understand is that I endure physical pain EVERY damn day. I do. This episode has lasted over 2 weeks now. 2 weeks of non-stop pain. Imagine being in sharp, stabbing pain EVERY day? A long with nausea, not having an appetite, wanting to eat but afraid to consume anything. I can eat an apple & throw it up 10 minutes later. 3 year's of this of pain, on top of my PTSD adds more stress than I'd like & sometimes, I can handle the pain but these last few month's...I find myself losing hope. Two of the pain specialist referred to me this month either refused to help or couldn't help me. That was my 6th specialist. In cases where I have no medication, my insurance tells me to go to the ER & I go. The ER physicians know I have tried seeing specialis & are well aware of my health/disease. When I was prescribed pain med's for this pancreatitis episode, 3 pharmacist (2 from @cvspharmacy
& 1 from @walgreens
) refused filling my med's. One pharmacist at Walgreens in Chino went as far as saying these statements: "All my patients have pain management, so why don't you?"/"Who's your primary doctor? (Gives name) Oh I know him, want me to talk to him for you so he can give you medicine?"/"I'm NOT going to fill your pills. You're looking like a drug seeker with all these prescriptions." This is the shit I deal with. Being denied medication. Pharmacist insinuating I'm an addict in front of other people...Eye's looking at me up & down, judging me. The system, jerking me around, letting me suffer daily but I bet if I were "homeless", I'd be treated like royalty. I bet if I were an "immigrant" from ANY country, I'd be treated fairly & I bet if I were rich & "white", they'd give me the medications I need. But I'm none of those thing's. I'm 30 year's old, a single working mother, Mexican & I don't bring home thousand dollar checks. I'm a middle class woman but more importantly, I'm human & I am fucking tired. I'm hanging by a thread...