The first time I did #breathwork
... One of my former clients invited me to a class. I’m always down for new things. Didn’t think much of it.
I showed up to the studio with my #yogamat
🧘🏼♀️We laid on the floor, he explained the breathing, dimmed the lights, started the music. Everyone around me started to #breathe
🙏🏻 I suddenly felt self judging because I couldn’t catch the rhythm of the #breathing
✨It took a few songs to get the hang of it and then holy sh*t 💥What happened once I dropped into that wave of belly, chest, exhale, was beyond my human comprehension. Tears started flowing, my hands cramped up, my body started buzzing. As a 12 year #soberwoman
I felt tons of fear. I realized how much I had been gripping onto life like a #controlfreak
and I had to let go.
At that time I was struggling, even though things looked good on the outside. I had been a #singlemom
a great guy, entered #engagedlife
and discovered I was pregnant. Celebration time, right? Nope! The guy fell into a #deepdepression
& relationship became challenging, the 2nd pregnancy was more difficult than the first, the blended family became hard to navigate, the #marriagegoals
brought out shadow selves to be healed, and my cushy 15 year research consulting company became unbearable. .
On top of it all I faced something I never had in my life - #postpartumdepression
Despite all of my holistic and natural attempts, conscious and unconscious tools, nothing was helping me release, restore and rise. .
What happened in that class is #miraculous
and mysterious. I saw visions, received downloads, experienced hues of colors I’d never seen. I raged and yelled, I cried and grieved. I felt fear, excitement, anger and power. I considered leaving the class but kept going. I cried as I drove home. I signed up for teacher training that night. I returned to class most weeks. To say the practice of #breatheinbreatheout
has changed my life is an understatement. If you’re ready to change yours check out the link in my profile to come #breathewithme
☀️You too can wake up and rise.