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One BAD DAY, a Bad Week.. HELL EVEN A BAD MONTH ??? PLEASE ๐Ÿ™„ I could TELL YOU A FEW STORIES... but I Wonโ€™t... โ€ข INSTEAD JUST CALL โ€ข 1-800-273-8255 โ€ข they are Available to talk 24/7 โ€ข suicidepreventionlifeline.org โ€ข Because You Know you need to TALK to Someone, You know you have A lot of HURT Buried deep down... & you canโ€™t keep it bottled up... & sometimes itโ€™s JUST BETTER if that โ€œSomeoneโ€ is a Complete stranger... โ€ข No one is their to Judge You.. Just Talk... โ€ข Suicide is a Permanent Solution to a Temporary Feeling, that WILL PASS BY when you Open up & Talk about itโ€™s not a reason to remain Silent or to End it All, over a Bad FEELING... that WILL PASS by in time... โ€ข Killing yourself just BOXES up All that Hurt & Pain & passes it along to Everyone whoโ€™s left behind ๐Ÿ˜ž โ€ข 1-800-273-8255 โ€ข they are Available to talk 24/7 or Go Online โ€ข suicidepreventionlifeline.org โ€ข Because You Know you need to TALK to Someone, just make the call... โ€ข 1-800-273-8255 โ€ข #suisideprevention #suiside #depression #deepdepression #noshame #noguilt #gethelp #fitfam #thestruggleisreal #thesyruggleisreallyreal #itstemporary #youcansurvive #yourworthmore #neverquit #neverstop #neversurrender #healthcoach #healthcoachlife #igersgreenville #greenville360 #upstatesc #getfit #weightloss #extremeweightloss #chooselife #sparkthechange #dontletthemwin
@league_of_metal Reviewed Lostprayโ€™s PRIESTIANITY ใƒปใƒปใƒป "Priestianity" By: LOSTPRAY ============== [Released:] 2018 [Members:] Drums- Nikolay Dovgopolov Vocals, Guitars- Burak Gundogdu Bass Guitars- Vyacheslav Babienko ============== [Track List] Cyberblood Deep Depression Haternity The Evil Child ============== >Verdict: Absolutely Stunning < All in all, I have no doubt you'll love this album. 'Priestianity' is an album drenched in glorious playing.. The riffs, the drumming, the bass, all of it is grand and plays in unison. You won't find yourself bored.. For one, the album diversifies in it's sound, going from slow to heavy, or somewhere in between.. As well as swift solos. Despite the strong nature of the album, LOSTPRAY still maintains melody and interest. While achieving a prog tone, the band still manages to incorporate other styles. Thrash-esc and traditional pieces are very noticable. 'Cyberblood' for example is a grand example of this mixture.. Going from slow.. to heavy n' thrashy.. And on the side, the album cover is pretty interesting. Well recorded, written, creative.
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Priestianity released on 1st of July, got 22500 Streamings on Spotify so far! Share below your thoughts and your favorite track!
Posting sad boy shit from a hospital. . . . . . . . . . #sadboy #sad #deepdepression
I just found out someone I know from high school killed them self... and they had recently separated from wife and had 2 kids. That freakin sucks, was a nice guy too. There is ALWAYS another way and can always be a brighter day, but sometimes peeps don't believe there is and that's when that happens. There's always something else you can try or do before it gets to that. Doesn't matter how dark it may be and for how long, but people that take their own life have lost faith that there is something else they can do or see. NEVER LOSE FAITH. There is ALWAYS something else you can try to do, someone else to talk to, some other book to read, or video to watch or just a shift in your perspective that could possibly make it all click for you. Even if you've been feeling HORRIBLE for years and years, you can change that. This is not fluff, it's the truth. Each one of us has a different path in this life and at the same time we're all one and the same. But on your path just know that even if it's been dark for years and years, the instant you "figure it out" and that light shines through, it will be as if the darkness was never there. You may never "figure it out" who knows, but believe it or not, even if you're miserable and realize that the person that is miserable is not even you (it's just your thoughts of the future and memories from the past that you choose to attach to), it becomes a lot easier to manage and you can even enjoy yourself while being miserable at the same time. But in the process of realizing that, most likely the misery will fade away and you'll be chillin for the rest of your days, even if and when that darkness does creep๐Ÿค™ #suicide #thinkagain #findthelight #justfreeyourself go #globehopping instead
In light of the many recent deaths of so many loved ones, It is time to take action and take responsibility for our conversation around whatโ€™s been plaguing our community more than ever. Depression and Suicide are real. Theyโ€™re real thoughts that real people have, and they have real consequences if we donโ€™t Ask for help when we need it... Read full article @ DerrickJonesjr.com . #suicidepreventionday #depressionhotline #deepdepression #whatyoudontsee @_youngtaylor #thediaryoffrederrickdouglasshortstoiesvol2
What is the worst thing you could do to a person? Kill them? Nah, thatโ€™s too easy. Torture them, keep life and death far away from them. Now is that how you live? It will get better but Life is not guaranteed. Forgive yourself, Love yourself, Live the Life you Love. Live Alive. : : #ICYMI #DEEPDEPRESSION #LILBELLA #BELLANAIJA #MYIMAGINARYDAUGHTER
I told another lie ~ ~ ~ I fucked up with the love of my life what should I do know๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ˜ญ #deepdepression #unhappy #depressionedit #deppression #sad #killme #iwanttodie #hlepme #betterlige #lies #mylife
Here we R #deepdepression
Life is crashing down on me. Cannot function. I need to build myself back up and I cannot do that and my social accounts. Please understand. For those who are close to me, you know where to find me. For any followers I have, I am so sorry I let you down ๐Ÿ’” But I need to do this for me. . . . Love you all!!!๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž๐Ÿ’ž . . . #Break #MentalHealth #SocialBreak #INeedHelp #TooMuchHappening #BuildMyselfBackUp #SuicidePrevention #IfYouCouldSeeMyWounds #CannotKeepThisUp #SorryILetYouDown #DeepDepression #NotSureIfIWillMakeItOut
Priestianity will be aired at @rockrageradio . Tune in to Banging with MizBehaVin Monday -Friday at 7am central and on Saturdayโ€™s at 12/c only on Rock Rage Radio!
So I said I love u one more time๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿ–ค ~ even tho it didnโ€™t change ur mind๐Ÿ’”๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿ–ค #deepdepression #unhappy #depressionedit #deppression #sadedits #sad #killme #iwantodie #unloved #lonlygirl #lonly #lonlyplanet
Burak is recording guitars for Priestianity, about two years ago from now
Seeing how I told work Iโ€™d be gone for a mere week and it has now been over two months since Iโ€™ve physically been in the office amplified by the fact that Iโ€™ve gotten no indication from the US Embassy of ever getting my renewed passport, Iโ€™ve decide to grow out a dirt bag beard and officially become a radical extremist... in that Iโ€™ve elected to partake in the extreme sport of urban Rickshaw biking and itโ€™s totally radical bruh! Thatโ€™s right folks Iโ€™m officially an Uber Rickshaw biker! With potential (but highly unlikely) earnings of 72 cents per week Iโ€™ll be swimming in that literal coin Scrooge McDuck style in no time. (I probably put the owner of this bike, his family, and multiple generations of his family to come into starvation because my 210 pound fat ass partially broke the bike seat sitting on it trying to take a stupid photo with a dilapidated Rickshaw for the social media interwebs.) #Rickshaw #bangladesh #sylhet #socialmedia #uber #uberRickshaw #dilapidatedboat #dilapidatedRickshaw #Skarsgard
Nights like these ๐Ÿค๐Ÿ”ซ #DeepDepression #lordsavemenow
Bois falling into depression again #deepdepression
Mood of the day: Netflix-Divano-Bridget ๐Ÿ” Adoro! ๐Ÿ” - - - #moodoftheday #crazygirls #singletudine #netflix #divano #film #ladiesfriday #weekend #deepdepression #jumparound
Everyone I need you to pray for me! DEPRESSION IS NO JOKE! Itโ€™s hard for people to understand you. Itโ€™s hard tryna explain and very emotional at times. All I can do is pray. ๐Ÿ’ฏ If you vibe with this post a โ€œ๐Ÿ™Œ๐Ÿพ๐Ÿ’ฏโ€. Never give up just seek positivity! Repost Repost Repost! NOW ON YOUTUBE AND SOUNDCLOUD! #depression #deepdepression #emotions #realmusic #newmusic #heart2heart #god #pray #praisethemosthigh @djkhaled @houstonsnext @houston_got_barz @tooshort @ogrecordsla @lavishways @kenikafamousrapchic @trillypolk @traeabn @troubleman31 @979thebox #repost @theshaderoom @saycheesedigital @wheremybeerwent @qcmceo_p #houston @akadmiks #xxxtentacion
I donโ€™t have a soulmate ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ’”#depressionedit #deppression #deepdepression #sad #unloved #unhappy
Sunday night mode #deepdepression
#mywords #readifyouwish Ridiculously, I wrote about the birthday and the blues and all the feelings associated with it in a previous post, Itโ€™s hard to believe that it has passed yet again, but my birthday blues has begun and with it I write. 1. I am Drunk. One beautiful bottle of red merlot down and Iโ€™m loving the warm feeling around my mouth. The slow signs bellow up towards my numb finger tips, and the warmth that I feel all over is ever so satisfying. There sadly is no other way that I can label how I feel in this moment. (Seriously the typos thatv I am doning aere astonin=shing) The drunkenness Is unbearable as I am the only person up in the home that is currently awake and semi functioning. ย I have been Netfl!XX and chilling, watching a show about killers on death row. Sad thing is I can see myself in these people. * I do not and wish not to kill anyone that I know or have any affiliation with. Some have drug induced psychosis and others do it because they can. This is NOT Me.ย  Quote this if necessary at trial in future. Over the last couple of months, I have been dealt a couple of huge Blows and to someone that is suffering this is not how you wish to see the future. # 1 Dr has joined a new surgeryโ€ฆ without notification #2 ย  Dr does not have the decency to advise this and re schedule new appointment. (to which I would pay real $$ for) #3 The Nurse Practitioner that has helped you through the times in between appointments with DR no longer sees a future with you without other medical imput. I am too HIGN RISK. To hard to deal with. #4 GP is declaring that no medical history with Physiatrist is on record. Thus, throwing my life in to chaos. Options are; Drink or Drug myself stupid. One thingโ€ฆ Drink excessively every day to cope. Laugh whilst doing what I can to physically harm myself with out physically harming my kids.ย  IE, starving myself. Drinking myself stupid. Eating excessivelyโ€ฆ. To be honest I havenโ€™t fully committed to any kind of sabotage just yet.ย  I guess I am waiting to see what the birthday blues have to offer. CONTINUED
Its so crazy how one day you can be so happy,so glad to see your friends. Listening to your fav. Music everyrhing is going so well....then in the blink of an eye your back in that hole again..sinking...starring...crying....hopeless...like a penny with a hole in it.....fuckkkkkkk. #depression #why #depressionisnojoke #deepdepression #Itslife #I 'mcoping #missmyfamily #lifeissohard #hatemylifesomanydays #crytoomanynites #prayforbetterdays
Yeah, part of it's luck...But MAJORITY of it comes down to HARD WORK... and for me it's an every day battle. For example, THIS ISN'T MY RIDE, it's part of my work and I'm very blessed because I work hard at what I do... But reading between the lines, this is also God, the universe and my ancestors all helping me focus on my POTENTIAL... I am grateful. #ineedtoworkharder #whipgoals #beyourbest #highanxiety #deepdepression #helpingothershelpsyou #dontbeatyourselfup #getup #dustyourselfoff #takeonestepforward #andawayyougo #nextday #nextday #andthenextday #garyvee #letsgo
We need to talk #coachyourlife Are you experiencing tiredness and exhaustion? Are you feeling lethargic and lacking in energy? Are your hormones running riot? Do you feel bloated? Is your waist line expanding? Are you experiencing PMS for more days than you can remember? Well so do I! ๐Ÿ˜๐Ÿ‘ But I've now found something that helps me turn my frown upside down ๐Ÿ™ƒ๐Ÿ˜‰ It lifts my spirits, dampens the aches and pains, distracts me from being inside my head, helps trim my waistline and boosts my energy levels ๐Ÿ’ชโšก๐Ÿ˜Š๐Ÿ’ฏโ™ฅ๏ธ๐Ÿ˜œ So when I can't be bothered. When I feel so tired I could sleep standing up. When I crave the contents of the biscuit tin...it's there, just waiting for me to press play ๐Ÿ‘โ–ถ๏ธโค๏ธ Want to find out more? Want to discover what has worked for me! Then please DM me for more details and I will get back to you as soon as I can ๐Ÿ™† #pms #pmdsolutions #womenshealth #expandingwaistlines #hormonesrus #hormonalwreck #vitaminb #nutritionalsupplements #tiredness #lackofenergy #feelingtiredallthetime #hiddenstressors #innerthoughts #deepdepression #moodswings #emotionalmess #women #tears #monthly #womensissues #contraception #perimenopausal #reallifesolutions #anotherdaytomorrow #womenswoes
@lostpray ใƒปใƒปใƒป It has been a month since we released Deep Depression. Thank you for your great feedback guys!
The darkness is real๐Ÿ˜ข๐Ÿฅ€๐Ÿฅ€. โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€” FOLLOW THIS PAGE ๐Ÿ˜Žโ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€”โ€” HASH TAG #deepsleep #heartbreakclub #heartbreak #heartbroken #sadedits #sadnessquotes #amvedits #naruto #hello #nightclub #goodvibes #deepdepression #bye ๐Ÿ˜ข
8 ุนู„ุงู…ุงุช ุชุคูƒุฏ ุฃู†ูƒ ุชุนุงู†ู‰ ู…ู† ุงู„ุงูƒุชุฆุงุจ ุงู„ุญุงุฏ ุฏูˆู† ุฃู† ุชุนู„ู… #depression #deepdepression #sadness #badmood #laziness #gainingweight #losingweight
The first time I did #breathwork ... One of my former clients invited me to a class. Iโ€™m always down for new things. Didnโ€™t think much of it. . I showed up to the studio with my #yogamat ๐Ÿง˜๐Ÿผโ€โ™€๏ธWe laid on the floor, he explained the breathing, dimmed the lights, started the music. Everyone around me started to #breathe ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿป I suddenly felt self judging because I couldnโ€™t catch the rhythm of the #breathing โœจIt took a few songs to get the hang of it and then holy sh*t ๐Ÿ’ฅWhat happened once I dropped into that wave of belly, chest, exhale, was beyond my human comprehension. Tears started flowing, my hands cramped up, my body started buzzing. As a 12 year #soberwoman I felt tons of fear. I realized how much I had been gripping onto life like a #controlfreak and I had to let go. . At that time I was struggling, even though things looked good on the outside. I had been a #singlemom who #manifested a great guy, entered #engagedlife and discovered I was pregnant. Celebration time, right? Nope! The guy fell into a #deepdepression & relationship became challenging, the 2nd pregnancy was more difficult than the first, the blended family became hard to navigate, the #marriagegoals brought out shadow selves to be healed, and my cushy 15 year research consulting company became unbearable. . On top of it all I faced something I never had in my life - #postpartumdepression Despite all of my holistic and natural attempts, conscious and unconscious tools, nothing was helping me release, restore and rise. . What happened in that class is #miraculous and mysterious. I saw visions, received downloads, experienced hues of colors Iโ€™d never seen. I raged and yelled, I cried and grieved. I felt fear, excitement, anger and power. I considered leaving the class but kept going. I cried as I drove home. I signed up for teacher training that night. I returned to class most weeks. To say the practice of #breatheinbreatheout has changed my life is an understatement. If youโ€™re ready to change yours check out the link in my profile to come #breathewithme โ˜€๏ธYou too can wake up and rise. ๐Ÿ“ธ@mamanielaphoto
Long time ago I was a thin guy with a broken heartโ€ฆ lonely, broken and melancholicโ€ฆ . . . . . #thin #deepdepression #melancholy #oldtimes #collagetime #university
still waiting the end
Dentro de mim existe vocรช. Esse sorriso debochado, mas sempre encantador. Esses olhos que tem mais sex appeal do que o corpo inteiro. Esse cabelรฃo que chega em qualquer lugar primeiro. Dentro de mim vocรช estรก escondida esperando para voltar, para sair, para danรงar, beber, gritar, falar alto daquele jeito que incomoda, dar aquelas risadas sem noรงรฃo que continuam depois que todos jรก pararam de rir... Dentro de mim vocรช aguarda impaciente porque a vida tรก passando e vocรช tรก perdendo enquanto eu, deprimida, passo todos os dias na cama, assistindo Netflix, sem comer direito, sem me cuidar, sem me amar. E vocรช se ama demais! Eu sei que vocรช tรก me odiando nesse momento, mas sei que vocรช entende, pois quando รฉ vocรช que tรก no comando vocรช vive com medo de eu aparecer. ร‰ muito difรญcil pra nรณs duas conviver no mesmo corpo, na mesma mente. Sorry. Fica tranquila, afinal vocรช jรก vai voltar. A medicaรงรฃo recomeรงa amanhรฃ e eu aposto que vocรช vai ressurgir com o dobro de energia, de luz, de vontade de viver e provavelmente numa virada manรญaca. Mas antes manรญaca do que deprimida desse jeito. Pode vir, eu jรก tรด me preparando pra ir embora. * * Inside me you exist. That smirk, but always charming smile. Those eyes that have more sex appeal than the whole body. That hair. Inside me you're waiting to go back, to dance, to drink, to speak loudly, to make those laughs that continue after everyone has stopped laughing ... Inside me you wait impatiently because life is passing and you're losing it while i am depressed spending every day in bed, watching Netflix, without caring, without loving me. And you love yourself so much! I know you hate me right now, but I know you understand, because when you're in charge you live in fear that I appear. It is very difficult for us both to live in the same body, in the same mind. Sorry. Stay calm, after all you will come back. The medication will restart and I bet you will re-emerge with twice the energy, the light, the will to live and probably in a manic turn. #bipolar #bypolarix #bipolardisorder #deepdepression #mania #anxiety #controlledmedication #tired #multiplepersonalities #psychiatry #uncontrolled #dailybattle #fallandrise #startingover
My amazing and very cute psychiatrist "picked me up" quickly today when I went to pick up my daughter's recipes. He did not need to, he could have just left them at the reception. He could only have given me up. But when he saw me he knew at the time that I was very bad, depressed, and talked to me. He fought with me for not having contacted him to say that I was in this state. Anyway ... With so many years of experience I should already know and understand that my brain does not work without medication. That I have a disorder mainly affected by biochemical deficiencies that can only be treated with medicines. But in the depressive phase it is difficult to seek help and remember all this because slowly we are giving up and just wanting to disappear, to die. And one of the ways to achieve this is not being treated. So, I'll start over again. Six different medications to get me from the bottom of the pit, from the swamp that is depression. If it were not for the very few friends who care about me and send me messages and try to help me, for the love and patience of my family, for the videos and photos of the twins that my sister sends me constantly, for my brother's affection and coexistence with my nephews, by the insistent and ogre love of my husband and my daughter, I would not be able to do it this time. Only I know where I am right now. The darkness, the hopelessness, the fear, the anguish, the immense sadness, the sorrow ... I thought that this time there would be no return. #bypolarix #bipolardisorder #endstigma #anxiety #deepdepression #mooddisorder #mentalillness #transtornobipolar #psychiatrist #depressao #psicose #ansiedad #psychosis #altosebaixos #CIDF31 #lithium #ritalin #bup #alprazolam #quetiapin #dailybattle #endstigma #nevergiveup #fallandrise #despair #anguish #intrusivethoughts #fear #pain
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