I wanted to shoot someone so desperately, so I shot myself, again. Using some very wrong camera settings. I didn't plan anything, I had rain, window with a dry grass behind it and myself. I wanted to improvise. I wanted to prove that the final image will mean exactly what I meant. The way better and deeper than when you plan it. I believe I did prove it, there's a lot of current me in this portrait.
There's one very important thing Dasha @dashapears.art
taught me. Knowing that I often shoot something for different challenges, she asked: "Why wouldn't you shoot whatever YOU want?" (Can you imagine it? Whatever!) I know it sounds strange, don't we always shoot whatever we want? Well, do we? Like whatever whatever? I doubt it. We always look a bit at others.
And then Dasha said "there's no rules", "break the rules", meaning there's actually nothing right or wrong when it comes to your art.
Well, even if there is, how would you find out what's right, if you don't try what's wrong? And after all, how would you understand that yourself is the only right person to ask?
I broke many rules shooting this: shot against the window, a reflector lights the face from down (I read it's too creepy to use it that way), with the face down (definitely not the best angle for someone with those cheeks), too long exposure, too small aperture, too much post-processing, and it's not really sharp image.
But it is all right, isn't it? So I'll tell you what, f*ck the rules 😜💛