First day 💊 clean.
Have you ever been so hooked on something you'd watch yourself die and do nothing about it. More, more always more. I'd get sick and puke nothing but stomach acid from not eating. The mirror would reflect a white shadow with only dark circles as a reminder of all these nights passed awake. I'd try to smile, act like it was fine. I pull up my shirt and all I see is skin over bones. I saw my friendships break and felt my hair fall out. But the high? Oh was it worth it? In the moment I thought it was but oh, you never know you're addicted until you try to stop. I saw my life break into millions of pieces because of a pill, and what you break can't be repaired with glue and glitter.. but it can be fixed with time and patience. And today as I was smilling in the mirror again saying everything is fine i swear i could only see a frown. So i turned around and flushed every single last one of my pills. I saw myself hit the bottom and i didn't even realize. Now what about seing myself hit the top on purpose? -Chayse
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