Sometimes it’s too painful to talk about and sometimes it’s too painful to not talk about it. Right now it’s too painful to not talk about... I was 17 when I lost my mommy, my everything, to cancer on December 19, 2006... I don’t get to make new memories with her, I can’t take new “silly pictures” with her or new pictures at all... I’ll never get to hear her voice again or see her again. I couldn’t call her at midnight to surprise her and sing “happy birthday”. I can’t call or text her when I need to talk or want to talk, like right now, like always. I’ll never be able to see her again or feel her loving hugs, those hugs that made everything else go away.
The pain doesn’t get better with time.
I’m broken and lost without you... happy birthday mommy... I love you and miss you so much that no words exist to describe it... “Oh please let me trade, I would...” #goneaway #imissyou #iloveyou #alwaysandforever #bestfriend #everything #iloveyoumommy #imissyoumommy #grief #forever #pain #fuckcancer #broken #lost