It's amazing to look back over a decade and see how far you've come! The first photo is actually from 2009 as I couldn't find any earlier photos. I hated myself so much I refused to be in them, or made a stupid face like this to cover up my discomfort. At the time I had been sick and injured for years, I was overweight and desperately unhappy, and I continued that way for such a long time, I simply couldn't find my way out of the prison I'd created for myself. I rarely left the house and would experience so much anxiety when I did that I'd be physically sick, but fast forward to 2019 and I am now solo travelling around the world and I actually take photos of myself sometimes!! Being diagnosed with aspergers at 30 really transformed my life, as I was able to understand why everything had been such a struggle for me. I'd always seen myself as wrong or broken, and I kept trying to be like the "real humans" so I was suppressing my own unique needs, thus becoming increasingly overstimulated and distressed. I still feel shy and awkward, but I can now look at myself through kinder eyes and acknowledge how strong I am to have survived everything I've been through. I've also realised as I get older that beauty is about energy, the soul that burns within, and that will never fade however much you age. How you feel about yourself always shines through and colours the whole world around you. We so often seek external love and validation as we are unable to give it to ourselves, then we are surprised when our external experience reflects that. Everything in this world is transient, the only constant is you, and your relationship with yourself is the most important you will ever have. Will you make it a love story or a tragedy?
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