just going to sleep again, I need to get better with timing. I avoid for so long that I have no time to eat. I feel really weird right now and just need to rest
Foodporn на маршмеллоу и овсянку 👉⠀
На фото вчерашний завтрак .⠀
Good morning!Я наконец то иду в школу !Знаете чему я так радуюсь :⠀⠀
1.)Я покажусь в новом шмоте 😂⠀⠀
2.)Я вернусь в режим .⠀⠀
3.)Я увижу подругу .⠀⠀
Но вообще мне очень понравилось на этакой системе «дистанционного обучения ».Конечно бывали моменты когда не понимаешь тему ,но тут мой папа выручал меня :) В основном я с алгеброй и геометрией не супер хорошо дружу ,но лажу.⠀Зато я была полностью во власти над своим временем и намного быстрее делала задания .А потом могла заниматься чем хочу .Я вот делала материал для вас( любимые фоточки) .⠀
Иду я к 10.00 утра ,лишь на три урока .К 13.00 пообедаю и с мамой пойдём к эндокринологу ,из-за выпадения волос , ,потом напишу пост обо всем .Но не обещаю,что выложу сегодня.О советах врача ,подробно о моих проблемках тд ,возможно врач расскажет про кд и гормональные штуки .И в 15.00 мне надо быть в художке до 7 вечера ,но не факт ,может быть смоюсь с последних 2 уроков под названием «История искусств ».Я пришла в художественную школу рисовать ,а не писать нудные тексты ,как на этом предмете .🙄⠀
Всех люблю хороших оценок 😄👌
18/09/18 I’m pretty proud of myself because I was at my boyfriends house and I still didn’t eat dinner without him getting suspicious so that’s good and I didn’t work out as much today because I was really tired.
Big,big challenge today! Today I faced my fear of cupcakes.So I had 2 fall cupcakes for my challenge today! for my 400 follower challenge! I am sooo,sooo,so thankful for each one of you guys that decided to click that follow button and follow me through my journey.Some of you guys followed me since the very,very first day and seen me struggle at my worst. I’m doing much better than I was before even though I do still struggle I do my best to stay positive. I’m very determined to recover soon!!! And I’m taking It with small baby steps but bigger steps with all your guys support! I love you all so much!!! So today with all your guys support I faced my fear and had these delicious cakes! 💞💓💕
Hey guys👋🏻 so my name is Eva and I was diagnosed with anorexia nervous when I was 10 years old. After a few months of struggle I recovered and went on to live my life normally for the next 6 years. Then about a month or so ago my family and I started traveling and I lost some weight on the road (and so did they) and now poof I’m suddenly right back to where I started 6 years ago despite not displaying any symptoms of an eating disorder whatsoever. my weight is low at the moment but I intended to put the weight back on myself. however my parents seeing that id lost weight freaked out and instantly put me on a 4,000 calorie meal plan, SChedualed weekly weigh ins with a doctors clinic and signed me up for therapy! Yay! They’ve also taken the liberty of choosing every single meal and snack for me and giving me no choice in my own life! I’m not allowed to exercise (something I have always loved) and I’m pretty much completely miserable. I’ve decided to document my “journey” and all the things I’m being forced to eat on here in the hopes of connecting with people experiencing similar things. Sooooo yeah dm me if you wanna talk about LITERALLT anything as I’m really bored atm and could use someone to talk to!
#anorexia #anorexiarecovery #eatingdisorder #recovery #anorexianervosa #eatingdisorderrecovery #edrecovery #anarecovery #edfighter #chooserecovery #recoverywin #gainingweightiscool #edfamily #bodycheck #fightingana #recoveryispossible #minniemaud #maudsly #anorexianervosarecovery #fuckthis #depression #anxiety
a perfect storm
florence was devastating. here in winston, we didn’t get hit too hard. but there are so many places around us that did. my heart is with those affected by the storm. you will be okay.
there are a bunch of different factors affecting the atmosphere in my headspace currently. stress from school, stress from different clubs and teams, stress from ed, stress from mental illness, and stress from people who don’t care about much other than themselves. anxiety, depression, and the voices of ed and panic and self-negativity are spiraling all together and creating, well, a perfect storm for some bad ish—ie, a lapse.
storms can be devastating. they can be destructive. they can topple whole cities and drown ideas and flood the canals of the hearts of all of us. they can rip you apart. and they will, if they can.
what happens after, though? if a storm comes through, what do we do? how do we begin to rebuild the city that’s been riddled with trees and overturned cars?
the short answer?
we clean up.
we will be okay.
yes, storms can destroy. but we can choose how we handle the destruction. as for me, i’m choosing to slip on some shoes, walk outside, and start by picking up a branch or two. i will be okay.
whatever weather the atmosphere’s cooking up for your mind right now, know it’ll pass. know that the hurricane passes, and know that the sunny days and blue skies pass as well. that way, you’ll learn to cherish the beautiful days, but you’ll also understand the need for rain.
#ana #anorexia #ed #eatingdisorder #panic #recovery #anarecovery #anorexiarecovery #edrecovery #edwarrior #eatingdisorderrecovery #eatingdisorderawareness #panicrecovery #anxietyrecovery #depressionrecovery #awareness #edawareness #anorexiaawareness #go #nourish #transformationtuesday #wewillbeokay #bodypos #bodypositivity #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #florence
This isn’t really mental health related but like you know a lot of people are getting sick with the cold or the flu and I know when you’re sick and when you’re sad it’s annoying to be surrounded by incessant positivity and you can’t make yourself happy. So tell me down in the comments, what’s something crappy that happened to you today? What’s something good that happened to you today? I hope whatever happened didn’t make your day too sucky and remember our DM is always open if you wanna talk 💕🖤
National Suicide Hotline (available 24/7): 1-800-273-8255
We have all felt at least one of these in our lives however feeling most of these, most days than not, is hard to manage. Don't wait, get help. You're not in this battle alone.
Self Reflections Psychology is ready to fight alongside you against any body image, self-esteem or confidence concerns as well as symptoms of any eating disorders.
‘18 Bourban Imperial Pumpkin was like the basic bitch of fall beers 🍻
Only a few more days till my parents leave and i can fast
Wow wow wow!!
Today hasn’t been the best evening but I challenged this and I’m so proud of myself. I had he whole DOUBLE chocolate bar but not a lot of the coke sadly. I’m just feeling so anxious...
МОЯ ИСТОРИЯ БОЛЕЗНИ. ЧАСТЬ 4.
СТАВИМ ЛАЙК И ЧИТАЕМ ДАЛЬШЕ ❤
После этих походов в поисках хорошего врача я рассказала все своей подруге из Алматы, и она сказала, что покажет мою историю своему супер- доктору. Доктор дала мне назначения : она подтвердила Визанну, но не на три месяца, а полгода. Прописала капсулы Эпигаллат, Трансфер Фактор Плюс и Серапептазу . Все это на три месяца. Плюсом ещё назначила свечи "Тукофитомол "( о них напишу тоже отдельный пост ) на месяц. И я решила довериться ей, потому что в моем городе нет такого врача, который смог бы предложить адекватное лечение.
На тот момент состояние оставляло желать лучшего. Боли атаковали по полной программе, кровотечения были два, а то и три раза в месяц. Первые два месяца меня жутко мучала тошнота, я наедалась одними таблетками, почти не ела ничего, но сильно набирала вес . За полгода на Визанне я набрала 15 кг.
Казалось эти адские 6 месяцев длились бесконечно. Мне не верили, насколько сильный у меня болевой синдром.
На третий месяц лечения, не увидев никакого результата, а наоборот только ухудшение, я решила что надо ехать в другой город к другому врачу и убедиться в правильности лечения. Решила ехать в Новосибирск.
Я нашла врача по отзывам на сайтах и форумах. Доктор М.А. мне посоветовала делать операцию, но я не согласилась с ней, хотя сомнения меня одолевали. Перед приемом у неё я в Новосибирске по скорой попала в больницу с жуткими болями, пролежав там два дня я написала отказную и ушла.
Лечения мне не делали поставили обезболивающее, говорили лёд прикладывать на живот и ждать будни, чтобы сделать узи. Я просто ушла и все. Хотя мне ставили диагноз апоплексия яичника (разрыв ).
До сих пор не понимаю, как с разрывом яичника можно ждать узи до понедельника, там на операционный стол нужно бежать, но я убежала от него.
Я все же верю, до сих пор, что смогу вылечиться без операции.
В августе, на шестом месяцев приёма визанны я полетела в Казахстан.
I haven't seen any evidence for a specific macro ratio being better or worse for recovery. Here's how I think of it: 1. Don't eat anything "low fat". It's crap and our bodies need fat. Full fat dairy, full fat salad dressings... cooking with oil not just spraying the pan... 2. Eat carbs. probably with most meals. pasta, bread, cereal, rice, other grains - and get some simple carbs like sugar and stuff that will spike your glucose. Our hypothalamus likes glucose and insulin and if we're keeping it low all the time that can be detrimental for recovery. 3. Protein is good. no better or worse than fat and carbs though. Eat it. 4. If you're someone with a heavily plant based diet, cut down on the volume of fruits/veggies you're eating. They take up a lot of space in your stomach without providing a lot of energy. They can a) lead to digestive issues like constipation and bloating and b) make it really difficult to get enough food in to recover. Finally, 5) If you're on a crap ton of supplements, take a look at them. What is truly beneficial and what are you taking to try and micro control things in search of "optimal health"? Are there perhaps supplements you were taking to help with exercise goals (I know weightlifters will take lots of stuff to help with muscle building,for example) that aren't relevant right now? Cut that shit out and trust that your body will get the nutrients it needs from the foods you are eating.
The ratios don't matter very much. Eat food. Enjoy food. some days you might feel like eating bread for every meal and some days you might crave eggs and chicken. It's all good. Our bodies take and store what they need. They won't suddenly go haywire because one day you get 30% fat and the next you get 50%, or whatever. you don't need to hyper control your food to reach specific ratios.
The mental effort of tracking and trying to reach a certain goal every single day is very wearing and also not super helpful for recovery.
My holiday is coming to an end. I'm already thinking about all the things I have to do when I get back. I have a psychiatrist appointment Friday. I'm not feeling that great within myself. My mood is flat and thoughts about suicide are current. Kinda struggling at the moment and feeling frustrated because I just want to be over this illness. 😓
•larabar - 190
•chips - 110
•dark chocolate - 120
•dinner - 353
•ice cream - 80
Total - 780 ish
Burned - 219
Not a very good day in terms of how much I ate but I wasn’t expecting to actually have a family dinner thing...
How to deal with binge guilt? :,)
I have homework to do and I also really want to go to bed so idk what to do 🤷♀️ I’m exhausted but I feel like I haven’t accomplished anything today so I’ll probably do homework
Things have been going well. Work yesterday was a lot better than I thought it’d be! I was really nervous to go because of Tracy drama but it was fine. I learned how to do a jugular blood draw on a fake dog with tubes taped to its body so that was cool. Today at school we started our rabbit dissection! I had Amanda do all of it and I watched cuz she knew how to skin it. 😂 I cleaned all of the instruments and trays because I like doing that stuff. After that we went through some power points and my instructor showed a few of us a picture of her wearing a dress from a wedding she went to this past weekend. Dana and I looked at it together and Dana kept zooming in on Crystal’s stomach and arms and making mean comments about how she looks. I told her to shut up and it made me feel bad because Crystal is pretty cool and I think she looks fine how she does. She’s had 4 children on top of it! Nobody looks perfect. You will never have the perfect body. Even the models and fitness people who do- it’s so much work and effort to maintain. It’s not worth it. Just love yourself. I’ve been doing better with eating lately. I had dinner before Pilates tonight then had a Nutri Grain bar afterwards. I’m really hoping that tomorrow will be a good day, too!!
Happy Yom Kippur and Kol Nidre! G’mar chatima tovah!!
#Salem #Cat #LGBT #Lesbian #Gay #Bisexual #Transgender #Equality #Bible #Sin #Christian #SabrinaTheTeenageWitch #EatingDisorder #Anorexia #Recovery #Realcovery #2fab4ana #Positivity #Happiness
Sorry for disappearing. Apparently being a student/intern/graduate assistant is quite busy. Who knew 🤷🏻♀️. I’d complain about the 12-hour days but I secretly love it 🙃
(But maybe ask me how I feel about that in, like, two months.)
In all seriousness, so far, it’s all good. Really good. My co-interns, classmates, professors, and mentors are amazing people, and I think I basically won the lottery by getting to do my internship at CSAB. So much training, so much attention to teaching new clinicians.
It’s strange how different my life became literally overnight. It has not stopped blowing my mind that I now spend all-day-every-day thinking, reading, and talking about the things that have interested me for years, but were previously relegated to my extracurricular life. I know what a gift that is. I’ll remember that as the hours and papers and vicarious worry starts to feel overwhelming.
The biggest struggle, as always, is self-confidence. Allowing myself the space to be a beginner while also trusting that I have not a little bit of relevant life experience. I need to own that experience, I’ve been told. But every day it takes work to strike that balance.
How do you walk the line between trusting your ability while also allowing yourself room to make mistakes? 👇🏻👇🏻
Dinner today after THE LONGEST day of life! So update and TW. Had my appointments today. At my dietician I weighed in at 87.6 pounds. Last week I was 88, but my dietician considers this a maintain because it could just be fluids. Nonetheless, she said it was time to add to my meal plan. We decided the best place to do this was at breakfast because it is my favorite meal and I can identify some hunger at that meal time. Breakfast is also the easiest meal for me to make and with my lack of support for the next two weeks, my dietician thought this would be the best place to add. I also really need to work on my steps. I kept them the same as last week so this week I NEED to start working them down. I’m scared that this is going to make me gain a shit ton of weight but my dietician assured me that we will take it a week at a time and adjust my meal plan accordingly. I am going to be on my own for a little while and im scared, but I do have a little motivation right now. As I have mentioned before, I used to work for a fitness company that has studios all over the country. I had reached out to the closest studio to my parents house and explained my situation to them. (It’s actually super close to where my dietician is) well last week the owner of this studio sent me an email asking to meet in person and today we did! She basically said she really needs teachers and that whenever I am medically cleared she wants me on her team! I’m so excited! Just being in a PB studio made me feel so positive and full of life again. The energy and the people...it was just amazing. I didn’t workout obviously but I got to observe a class and when I heard the music turn on, I started tearing up. I miss teaching. I want to do it again. So that’s my motivation while I am on my own. #2fab4ana #strongnotskinny #eatingdisorderrecovery #anorexiafight #beateatingdisorders #ed #edrecovery #edfam #eatingdisorders #ana #anorexia #anorexiarecovery #anorexiafighter #anorexiawarrior #prorecovery #recovery
I love this picture. Also I binged yet again today 😪 fasting always makes me binge when I end it ughhhh
I had mixed feelings about the eating disorder-content. Mostly because I don’t intent to stand on a soap box and preach I have it all together. I have nothing of the sort. But I will say I have never felt so alone as I have in my love affair with eating disorders, and if you struggle with an eating disorder, addiction, or any mental illness, I just want you to know you’re not alone. Take my hand, because I do not know the way out, but I believe we can find it together. ✨🌙
And I'm part of that 50%. This is something I haven't talked about publicly before. Mainly because I just became aware that I even fell into this statistic earlier this year when a repressed memory made itself know. I was 3 years old. And at 37, I finally remembered.
I've been busy writing about this revelation for the past 6 months. It's been a very cathartic process and I hope to publish it soon, but right now I felt the call to post this.
Because of those f*ckers who say "why do you want to bring up something that happened decades ago and ruin a man's life and career?" What about us? What about the lifetime of trauma that has sat in my body showing up as perfectionism, an eating disorder, anxiety and depression? What about MY life?
I'm sick and tired of this conversation. Of the victim shaming and the patriarchy.
Things need to change and I hope to God this #metoo
movement has only just begun because we've got a lot of work to do.
#edrecovery #metoo #timesup #EatingDisorderRecovery #riseup #edwarriors #bopo #bodypositive #bodyimage #anorexia #bulimia
Christmas mug in September?? Tonight’s going to be a chill evening.
I’m cleaning my room and setting up my new laptop!! 💓
Just had such a nice FaceTime with my lovely @mar_recovering
love her to pieces. .
I had a psychiatry appointment today to sum it up it was shit. My appointment Is in 2 months and idk how I feel about that.
muffins have been my biggest fear and I can’t believe I did this!!!
— Language of the video is in Portuguese... I do not speak English very well, but here are the words of the #typography
— Mantenha-se focado (a), o objetivo você já sabe qual é então você tem que manter-se focado (a) em ter foco em seus momentos do agora...
Você não tem o amanhã, o ontem se você o notou passar ou não, já foi, é passado, você não tem mais o ontem, a única realidade que você pode interferir está no hoje e o único momento sob o qual pode escolher ter controle é o agora, cada movimento, cada inspirar e respirar, cada batida do seu coração é um agora que nesse momento já não é mais porque o seu coração já lhe concedeu outras novas batidas, outros novos agora, esteja presente, se sinta, simplesmente pense em cada articulação sentido-a quando estiver em movimento. Então...
Foco na força pra ter força na fé pra que não falte foco pra continuar tendo força.
para se sentir bem.
#myvideo #motivação #acredite
#treino #recomeçar #persistência
#saude #treinoemcasa #confiança
#movimento #fitspiration #foco
#maissaude #obesidade #anorexia
#instafit #instagood #pesado