#anamia

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the quality of my profile pic got FUCKED
I'm tired of anything.. My life is falling apart and I want so desperately to give up this time.. My only goal right now is to reachy gw and be skinny. At least I will feel better right; #skinny #thin #thinspiration4you #anorexia #anamia #goalweight #bodygoal
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my girlfriend fucking knows about my ed and i hate it. i’m trying to convince her that i’m fine by not telling her the full truth of how i am right now. yeah, i’m eating three full meals a day. but i’m not telling her that i only have 500 cals a day...
Damn, my anxiety is like the pop-ups that appear on the screen... always looking for different ways to fuck up my already fucked life. #anorexia #bulimia #ana #mia #anamia #thinspiration #thinspo #meanspo #ed #eatingdissorder #skinny #fat #lossingweight #anxiety
seriously??? This is just as triggering as asking someone for nudes... I am honestly pissed off! Why are people like this?!?! It is RIDICULOUS
Lately, I’ve been in a really weird state of mind. I feel really weird. Maybe I’m overreacting but all the people I was close to kind of gave up on me and I don’t blame them. I feel really alone. I just want someone to love me so hard that the sadness seeps out of my bones. #bigtittygothgirl #recovery #ednos #socialanxiety #undiagnosed #thoughts #anxiety #bpd #selfharm #thinspo #suicidal #actuallybpd #manicdepression #manic #mania #recovery #ednos #undiagnosed #mentalhealth #thoughts #anorexia #bulimia #anamia #sadboy #sadboi #sadboihour #suicidal #4am #darkthoughts #struggling #sadgirl #sad #lonely #eatingdisorder #failure
&&. ive been eating a lot lately and its making me really upset and this guy im talking to is really lowkey triggering me and im just,,,, ugh,,
Okay so one more. I call her my "Inner Thought ", lofting up her shirt to show my deepest desire. The thing that long ago I almost had a d the thing now I would die to get back. Not because of some fashion or social stigma, but because I felt so in control. Ever since my epilepsy diagnosis and the battery of medications I felt out of control. The meds wreaked havoc and still do. But I've been done letting them control me. I'm getting what I had back, come hell or high water. #recolorapp #colouring #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #bpd #bpdawareness #ptsd #ptsdawareness #schitzotypal #emotionallydrained #ednos #anamia #laxativejunkie #notreadytorecover #epilepsy #epilepticartist #vampyre #psivamp #cleanandserene #muscleconfussion
If I keep my net below 200 calories I should lose 20 pounds this month
Innocence lost? Maybe. Yet something I was told in therapy did and didn't make me feel better about it, because now I am to overly aware of my parental units actions. Anyway...in other news my body hates me. I was at a newer low at 167 and was expecting to be lower tonight after work out and toxin flushing along with laxatives, instead my reject period had to show up so I am back up to 169. I havent broke 645calories today. This is what I get for eating McDonalds yesterday. This is why I don't eat FAsT food. So I added diarex to my night meds and will keep on top of it. My mum is making dinner but I have a perfectly good reason not to eat (and get away with it since she is ed as well). So side note if you don't want to get some tracked in writing a meaningful post don't go weigh in. Lol. Also a genuine thank you to those who follow and send responses. I know I'm a train wreck. Just the fact that I have anyone that cares about or that is entertained by what I write means a lot. #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #bpd #bpdawareness #ptsd #ptsdawareness #schitzotypal #emotionallydrained #ednos #anamia #laxativejunkie #notreadytorecover #epilepsy #epilepticartist #vampyre #psivamp #cleanandserene
Well I needed a little snack or else I would have binged... lol
Something witchy this way comes? Or does somewhere wicked this beauty goes? I didnt think of a fun story for her as a headache has been developing today. I have maybe eaten about 645 calories but with laxatives have kept no nutrients from what I ate. Add working out in between that and chain smoking I have been one heck of a bad patient. At anyrate. Here is my last colouring for the day. Thanks for your suppourt with them and all of the feed back. I wish more people did these. It's fun to learn odd little things about people! #recolorapp #colouring #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #bpd #bpdawareness #ptsd #ptsdawareness #schitzotypal #emotionallydrained #ednos #anamia #laxativejunkie #notreadytorecover #epilepsy #epilepticartist #vampyre #psivamp #cleanandserene
Honestly on the deep end rn... . I dunno why....
I ate a lil over 600 cals which is fine I guess bc I wanna fast tomorrow or eat under 200
🍽LUNCH🍽 . 4 croutons - 35 cals Fish oil - 20 cals Liquid vitamins - 20 cals . I think I did ok... I would have done better without the croutons but heck at least I didn't binge.....:) . So 75 cals total for lunch,
have you ever had to fake recovery? (for family, friends, etc) 🌙✨ - - - (tags) #anorexia #anorexiamemes #anorexiaproblems #ana #mia #anamia #bulimia #ed #tw #triggerwarning #notproanything
Spent this afternoon prom dress shopping with my mum and then went to @miamiburgeruk with her and the rest of my family. Okay so this restaurant is AMAZING! It’s fully vegan and honestly the prices are so reasonable it was around £25 for all four of us to eat! I am definitely going to be going here often hehe (@healing.amy @avainrecovery you gotta come with me!). I shared these sweet potato fries, chicken slices and salad with my mum and then had some extra chips and some of my sister’s and dad’s food too and it was all so good! I definitely recommend!❤️❤️ - - - - - - - #veganfood #veganuary #veganrestaurant #veganteen #veganeats #vegano #veganreading #readingvegan #readingvegans #eatvegan #vegancafe #vegandinner #veganlunch #veganlondoner #veganlondon #vegansoulfood #sweetpotato #sweetpotatofries #salad #fastfood #fastfoodporn #veganfastfood #healthyvegan #balancednotclean #edrecovery #anorexiarecovery #anamia #bodybuilding #veganbodybuilder #fatvegan
i have been reading a lot of Marissa Meyer recently. ♥️ • • • #mardigras2019 #mardigras #pose #hujifilm #huji #hujicam #blackandwhite #ana #mia #anamia • i feel so disgusting all the time :( my photos are what i’m okay with posting because i can pose and see how i look before anyone posts them, but i don’t like people taking photos of me. my face is so ugly and my legs look so disgusting. i hate my smile. i hate how my crush doesn’t like me, or how even if he did, i’m going to be moving.
I managed to not gain, I maintained so that’s a good thing I guess
Everyone is saying that I’ve lost weight but I feel like I’ve gained a lot and I’m too scared to weigh myself .-. - - - #ana #anorexia #anablrr #anamia #mia #bulimia #depressed #bpd #fasting #starving #bones #bonespoo #ice #waterfast #skinny #diet #isolation #sad #cutting #fat #needtoeat #suicidal #houseplants #depression #bpd #legspo
possible trigger warning; - - - - - - - i've only had a banana(89) and might be having some vanilla greek yogurt(81 per 100g, 283,5kcal for the whole 350g box) but i'm not really hungry. i feel kinda ill.
hey y’all! good night! now im having a little mental breakdown but i will get over it i hope. like food is so scary for me now. i like cooking, i like buying food but i really cant eat them. whatever i have therapy tomorrow. then we will go to cinema with my family and i will watch lego so its good. but yeah i will be forced to eat. probably i wont be able to eat lunch at school on monday. 😫♥️ ~lunch: soup+ veggies ~dinner: salad
In India they had paintings on the wall made with real gold and the colours of gemstones. I would live to see one up close one day. Until then I shall imagine. #recolorapp #colouring #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #bpd #bpdawareness #ptsd #ptsdawareness #schitzotypal #emotionallydrained #ednos #anamia #laxativejunkie #notreadytorecover #epilepsy #epilepticartist #vampyre #psivamp #cleanandserene #reimagineindia
Hello babies! Two days ago I was diagnosed with gastritis, so now I need to take medication for 1 or 2 months and follow a different diet ... there are many things I can not eat and many changes that I need to make in my diet. I ate around 1500 kcal for two days, due to the disease I have to eat a little more than normal ... now my goal is to eat around 800 kcal. Lunch was 292 kcal. #weightloss #weight #thinspiration #thinspo #ana #anamia #anorexia #ed #eatingdisorder #thin #wannabeskinny #food #foodlog #anawho #orthorexia #calories #caloriescounter #feadfood #skinny #diet #bodygoals #thighgap #ednos #ednosana #countingcalories
I like to colour when feeling a bit drained if life. It helps me create life in some form. Until I get motivated to pull out a canvas and paints. I call this one "Rain". #recolorapp #colouring #mentalhealth #mentalhealthawareness #bpd #bpdawareness #ptsd #ptsdawareness #schitzotypal #emotionallydrained #ednos #anamia #laxativejunkie #notreadytorecover #epilepsy #epilepticartist #vampyre #psivamp #cleanandserene
i'm sorry i haven't posted these last days, i've been a little busy. - tw; - - - - - - i've been eating like a pig these last days, but i've also been working out so that makes it just a little bit better.
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these are some of my favorite quotes from a slam poem called “When the Fat Girl gets Skinny” by Blythe Baird. y’all should check her out she’s so good ••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••••• #ed #ana #poetry #poem #mia #anamia #depression #anxiety #mentalillness #notpro #notprojustusingtags
NOT ME -its lunchtime soon and I have a pack of slim fast cheddar bites wich are 99calories ❤disclaimer: not pro anything,i do not support eds i support recovery,block not report please ❤ #anamia #ana #ana123 #100calories #lessthan100 #weightloss #weighlosstranformation #skinny   #thin #skinnygirls #thin #losingweight #losinglbs #notme #bones #thinspo #healthinspo #skinnyinspo #ribs #mentalhealth #depression #deppresoesspreso #binge #binging #purge #purging
Random pics I know hahaha🙈 How are you feeling? What are you doing this weekend?💖 Alba.💫
Hope you have a great Saturday ✨
- I'm on day four of a workout challenge and I'm down like 0.7 kgs (almost two pounds I think??) woooo 😁 Hopefully I keep this up, I'll be happy if I even lose ONE kg each month this year TBH, that'll get me to at least 78 kgs (about 172lbs) and that's a start . (picture from tumblr, dunno who it is)
I woke up feeling fat. I like the days when I wake up feeling skinny and I can touch my hip bones 🌼 QOTD: Do you like plants? Answer: I love plants and just recently I bought my first plant for my room and it's a cactus. 🌿
I had a mini binge today and ended up eating a lil more that 1000 and I seriously wanna die or throw up or both idk I’m very upset
I woke up late but I lost, only a pound but that’s still something I guess
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