today was a difficult day. last night, i got no sleep, writing my book. then when i woke up, i was in terrible pain, with my hips, right shoulder, and elbows dislocated.
then i got in trouble for spending money i shouldn’t have. i got major urges to purge and starve myself, and harm myself again. after 473 days of being clean. but my parents can tell when i start to be in risk of self harm, so they backed down and comforted me.
next, with our money struggles, we needed to get two carts full of food from our church (we’re mormon)
i am so grateful that i have this church to comfort me and guide me through this life. the programs they have in place have been helping me and my family for my entire life, and i am just constantly in awe of what they do. i am so proud to be a mormon. and having heavenly father as the center of my life throughout my illnesses has created a firm foundation. a firm foundation for my future struggles to fall back on.
anyways, my parents keep fighting and bc of ptsd from my parents breaking up when i was younger. so every time they fight, i feel like they’re going to break up. just a bunch of anxiety today. i hope yalls day is going ok 💛💛 #crps #amps #chronicillness #chronicallyill #sick #pain #eds #migraine #scoliosis #pots #fibromyalgia #chronicillnesswarrior #endometriosis #gastroparesis #tubie #life #explore #explorepage