Trigger warning!! Perfect photo right? Wrong this photo is hiding an abuser.
I remember when you told me you would kill me and no one would ever know, because you were so good at “lying and manipulating people while playing the victim”. Yes I was a guy who suffered emotional and physical abuse at the hands of my girlfriend, no I am not less of a man for not just “knocking her out” and getting over it. I have no hatred or hard feelings towards my ex because I know one day she will have to face her demons, I wish her the best of luck and hope she get the help she needs.
No I am not posting this to seek “attention or sympathy”, I’m posting this to show you that not every photo you see online is 100% perfect or goals, sometimes the most innocent photos hold dark truths. #abusiverelationship #abusivegirlfriend #seekhelp #knowyourworth #love #relationships #toxicpeople #itsnotyourfault #abuse #mood #vibe #selflove #strengh #vegan #vegansofig #plantbased
"Prefiero morir de pie por mis ideales, que vivir toda una vida de rodillas y sin mente propia." - C.
Insta-Nina: I didn‘t go skiing yet since we are here. Yesterday my back was fine but I carried my heavy toddler and I think today I will have problems again.
I like the idea of chosing many mentors in life. Jim Collins mentioned yesterday that since his father died early he analyzed why he admired some old men. He discovered that he wanted to be like them.
The idea of find aspects in other people that we aspire to resonates with me. I want to find new teachers everywhere so that I can become better at enjoying life.
I used to think more of having only one teacher or mentor but it is better to find many.
I am also fascinsted by psychology (specifically therapy) and how it freed me: enabling me to think highly of myself in situations that are not socially acceptable.
Jim Collins said „I am not normal“ and „This it true for me“. I think we mustn‘t make the mistake to cooy everyone. I truly know that I am not normal but finding others that are the same and emulating their ways appeals to me.
I want to listen to more Buddhist talks. I think they do a lot for gelping me to want less. •
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A friend reached out to me and asked how often I get flashbacks of the sexual abuse I experienced.
My reply: "Almost every day." I didn't realize how my relationship to my trauma is causing me suffering.
It has become like an old wound that my brain just naturally picks at.
I wonder what it's like to not live with these flashbacks in the way that they come in.
Sometimes its flashbacks of my childhood and what life was like growing up with a schizophrenic mother and abusive father.
Other times the memories are of my father taunting me in my room at night.
Today in therapy my therapist suggested we try a new form of therapy called prolonged exposure.
For 10 weeks we will work through my story. I will repeat it out loud and listen to our sessions every day.
She said the results have brought people great freedom.
I am scared but also excited at the thought of doing this work.
I am going to share my process once we begin here.
Thank you for reading. Share this with someone you love. ❤
Love yourself enough to know that respect is a must!
Brave. Passionate. Destined for Greatness 🧠🙌🏾🙏🏽 Borderline personality disorder (BPD), also known as emotionally unstable personality disorder (EUPD), is a long-term pattern of abnormal behavior characterized by unstable relationships with other people, unstable sense of self and unstable emotions. Not fully classifiable as one thing or its opposite. Uncertain, unsure, undecided. Inconsistent, unpredictable, imbalanced. I take this pill for what they say is a chemical imbalance. Yet I'm uncertain whether it will give me balance. Unsteady, not firmly fitted. Never belonging. No sense of identity. I'm already all of these things without the BPD. Belittled, persecuted, damaged. They say it begins in adolescence yet is linked to childhood trauma. I've been all these things for 15 plus years and yet still, this illness cannot be classified. I've been alone in the dark running kicking screaming crying. Not breathing. Breathing. Trying not to breathe. I count 3. 3 times I tried to take my own life. Confused. Broken, bleeding. I woke up in the hospital bed with the vodka still fresh off my lips. They said I was found in an alley way. Bleeding. With speed flowing though my system. Complete oblivion. I tried to piece what felt like a bad dream together. The thick red blood stain covering my favourite jacket. I panick and rip the cords from every tube they placed in my vains. As the thin sea of blood trickles down me. Darkness is all I see and all I could think about was my next peak. I wanted to feel everything yet feel nothing. Numb. The horror of that night wasn't even enough to stop me
I count 3. 3 more times after that. I tried to take my own life....But I never could. I lived to breathe another day. I thank God, the almighty lord and saviour, for saving me, this reatched soul. Not worthy but in his eyes, perfectly made. For his purpose. He allowed me to see the light. By his grace and mercy. After chasing me down with his reckless love for all those years..in the dark, while I ran and hide. I see it all so clearly now. Sober mind, and breathing for my life, my future. This story i Iive to tell...(Continued in comments)
You’re only hurting yourself by holding on. Let go.
🎵Ohhh, we’re halfway there, whoa-ohh, livin’ on a prayer 🎶
THANK YOU so much to everyone who has helped me get this far towards my goal!! I’m excited and I hope we can keep up the momentum to keep moving towards the $715!
All donations are very appreciated no matter how much you are able to give. If you can’t afford to help financially, a ‘like’ or share will help boost the signal of my fundraiser so more people can find out about it. 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻💕💕💕
Here’s the link:
And the story:
My ex husband and I have been separated now for more than 2 years, after only 11 months of being married and living together. Throughout my marriage he was emotionally abusive to me, and by the end of it he turned physically abusive. At the time of our separation I had no job and was financially dependent on him, due to illness, and because of that, I had to be the one to move out even though I had picked out the apartment and paid at least half the deposit, and I had been the one who got my ex husband the well-paying job he had at the time.
He asked for the divorce, not me, and he has promised to pay for the filing of it and just strung me along over and over about actually coughing up the cash for it, only to repeatedly let me down.
Since our separation I’ve dealt with workplace bullying and harassment, and have struggled to maintain employment after the unlawful dismissal I went through. I’m currently disabled due to Major Depressive Disorder and Bipolar, so earning income is next to impossible for me at this time.
Since it has been more than 2 years of separation now, I have the option to file for divorce on my own and claim abandonment of marriage. The cost to file is £550, which converts to about $715 US. If I can at least get a divorce, it will help a lot with moving forward with my life and not having to think about my abusive ex.
Any help is is very appreciated, no matter how big or small the donation. Please share this with others as well who may be able to help! Thank you!
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LAWSUIT ALLEGES THE ARCHDIOCESE OF NEW YORK SCHEMED TO TRICK SEX ABUSE VICTIMS OUT OF SUING CHURCH. Visit https://www.legalactionnews.com/top-stories/sex-abuse-class-action to read more
Hump Day 🐪 is almost here! My Ed used to use this day (and most days) as an excuse to jump into destructive food behaviors. When stress arose mid-week for me, Ed always has an answer. He had the wrong one but an answer nonetheless. (Anyone relate?) Oftentimes, I would ask myself what this image says: what am i willing to do to stay in recovery? This it a tough question. I often wanted to keep the parts of Ed I thought I ”liked.” And I wanted to let go of the other parts. Getting rid of ALL of Ed became key; a grieving period ensued. For me, it required professional support and reaching out to loved ones. What is one thing you can do to stay in recovery today? (Hint: It’s often the opposite of what Ed says! I learned this the hard way.) I know it’s hard; recovery can feel like relearning how to walk; it feels impossible, at first. That’s the nature of the mental illness, but with persistence & help, it gets better, truly better! We’ll discuss this and more on Thursday, Feb 21, 6 PM Central, @themeadowsranch
Facebook Page. Hear from expert Dr. Claudia Black as we have a fun and informative talk. Hope will abound; I saw Dr. Black presently recently. Hands down, hers was one of the best talks I’ve ever seen! Hope you can meet her Thursday. Please ask questions live; we like to really converse with you, provide info that you really need. This event is about you- what you need! Feel free to post any questions you have here, in the comments, and we’ll do our best to answer LIVE. Details:#linkinbio
Thank you! 🙏💕
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AJUMA welcomes Sunny in her performance as “Unborn Child”. “
Playing the spirit of Katori’s unborn child is exactly where I am in my process of using movement as a form of creative expression and performance.” - Sunny
Thank you, Sunny, for being part of this play and journey!
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and reserve your seats now as space is limited; https://www.studiotheaterinexile.com (link in bio).
If they are enabling maltreatment, they are not our people! ✌💞
Why is it that some people sit on the sidelines?
* People enjoy having something to gossip about, having a "front row seat", the drama.
* People don't want to be bullied for speaking up against the maltreatment.
* People see what they want to see.
* People blame the victim too often. It's easier for them than actually understanding the truth.
* People have been triangulated and manipulated by the abuser
Credit: Imglogy Web site
💞 Always Love Yourself 💞
. 💞You're Worth It 💞 .
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This too shall pass...
I heard endearingly shared with a survivor of rape and child molestation. As I listened to the conversation, the inside of me cringed knowing that while they meant well by saying “this too shall pass” that statement simply wasn’t true in the context. As a survivor of domestic violence I often meet with, and counsel, women who have experienced abuse connecting them to resources and simply being a friend. My best friend volunteers with Dallas Area Rape Crisis Center and spends her time sitting with women and men through rape kits and connecting survivors to free therapy and additional resources to pursue healing and justice. (This is the side of @turningpaiges_
you do not see online.)
For a survivor, what happened to you will never just pass. You will never be who you were before the abuse happened. You will never know who you would have been if you had never been abused. There may be seasons of your life that you blackout the trauma in an effort to cope but the memories don’t ever really leave you. And that is okay. Bc while what happened to you may never leave you, you will one day learn to be in control of the triggers that once controlled you. Even after abuse, you do still have the power within you to one day stop longing for the old you and you will learn to love who you have become after abuse. You will always carry the truth of what happened to you but you do not have to always hold onto the pain. Maybe the next time a survivor shares with you their pain, maybe just listen. The Bible talks about mourning with those who mourn. Maybe reassure that survivor that they are not alone. Maybe ask them how you can be there for them before you give a prescription to a pain you know nothing about. Maybe tell them it wasn’t their fault and that they too are loved. Maybe don’t just tell them this will pass but assure them that you will be with them through whatever weather the trauma brings. Bc the good news is, we serve a God that makes all things brand new. He won’t make us the old us, but He does give us the opportunity to be made brand new with no shame or condemnation for where we’ve been. Resurrection wasn’t just for Jesus —it’s for you
A glimpse of the new blog Prayers and Pills by @abimaddyry.
Then, November 10th hit. My campus community was rocked by a mass shooting and the loss of a student. My students, who had lost their friend(s) in the most devastating way, needed support. I wanted to be there for them, so badly. I wanted to dig up the real me from the pits of my soul and give it to them, to wrap them in love and receive their burdens as my own.
But, I was drained. There was none of me, of the real me, to give. I prayed to be filled up so that I could pour out to them. I was scraping the bottom of a drained pool with my fingernails, hoping for water to appear. How could I be so empty when people I loved needed me so badly?
For the full blog check out our link in the profile.
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