Warning-triggering to unfortunately, many
I’ve been having dreams that I wake up from being mentally exhausted. Last night really took me under. I believe I have dreams that would scare the devil himself. Mostly about people being pulverized in the most heinous ways possible, and in mass amounts. But last night was different in its own evilness. I was being sexually abused in front of an entire audience of people. A man with such great power had his shit pressed against my ass. He was holding onto me from the front yet everyone watching couldn’t see. I remember feeling nothing, feeling numb, feeling maybe I should like it so I could feel better about it. But when I was away was when I knew it was wrong. But my mind kept playing games with me to try to justify it when it was not justifiable. I had blood dripping down my face because I was ripping apart inside.
Now I cannot explain why I dream to the depths of why I do but I can tell you from being where they take me, I can feel everything-every emotion, every physical feeling, everything. I’m just lucky enough to wake up at the end
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