Today was exactly what my mind , body and soul needed... Seasonal Affective Disorder S.A.D, is no joke. The last few weeks with all the rainy , cold and gloomy days messed with my head and my emotions. When I say I needed some sunshine, I really did.
I would LOVE to hear if you suffer from S.A.D. , and what you do that helps you ☀️✌🏻💕
people generally dont talk about not wanting children - but I didnt want children; for as long as I can remember no part of me desired any part of motherhood yet sometimes when I look at these two I wonder how my heart hasnt exploded yet.
thru my addiction I figured I wasnt capable emotionally or physically of carrying or raising a child. as all my moms best friends celebrated becoming grandparents i overheard her confide in a friend that it appeared being a grandmother wasnt in the cards for her; my brother married another man who didnt want children & i roamed about as a thirty year old child, caustically strung out on heroin & crack.
when I found out about my pregnancy with Brixton I chain smoked for two weeks before quitting at the point it really mattered. we discussed all the options & despite fear on both our sides we committed our lives to caring for & protecting this little fella. we were in early recovery - he celebrated a year & i celebrated 18mo clean less than a month before Brixton's birth; but I finished working my steps before I became a mother because the idea being responsible for a dependent, helpless, living creature felt surreal & terrifying.
Im ridiculously grateful I got to know my self before I got to meet my son.
to me, my son is a concrete reminder of the importance of faith - without faith he wouldnt be here & I wouldnt know the love Id be missing or the courageously vulnerable person Ive become as a result of that love.
is it a struggle? fuck yeah. but these moments make the struggle worth it; knowing I can be more than I ever thought possible makes it worth it; knowing I can feel love more than I ever thought possible makes it worth it 💖 xox
#ifuckinglovescience #goadventuretogether #letthemexplore #wildandfreechildren #toddlerontheloose #honestmotherhood #uncens #motherhoodunplugged #toddlerbreastfeeding #punksgoneparent #ourcandidlife #thehappynow #fatherandson #ontheroad #onstage #ontour #concertphotographer #tourphotographer #workingmom #sobermom #sobrietyrocks #cleanandsober #giftsofrecovery #soberaf #justfortoday #odaat #wedorecover
NO TIME FOR DESSERT TODAY FOLKS 🤣 I'M GOING FOR THE MAIN COURSE, LOL
I FOUND A NEW PAGE I LOVE & I'M GRATEFUL FOR HER KNOWLEDGE & WELLNESS ADVOCACY 🎯🏥❤@biohacker.md
I remember when I could see Advertisements after Advertisements of what alcohol has the potential to do to your liver, and that didn't MATTER! NOT ONE OUNCE!
FRIENDS, WE ONLY HAVE ONE LIVER & ONCE IT'S HAD ENOUGH...THERE'S LITTLE RECONCILIATION 🏥
I would find an excuse to make it OK, Mommy juice, bad day, holiday, etc...
I KNEW DEEP DOWN MY BODY DIDN'T FEEL GOOD, and I honestly had NO CLUE how much BETTER I could actually feel if I gave the SOBER life a SERIOUS SHOT 🚫 NOW I KNOW ♥️
🎬WHEN WE KNOW BETTER ~WE DO BETTER 👑
A SERIOUS STANDING OVATION FOR ALL MY FRIENDS WHO FIGHT HARD THROUGH THE GOOD TIMES & THE BAD TO GET HONEST WITH YOURSELF, LOVE YOURSELF, AND STAY SOBER 🙌🏻
I LOVE YOU SO DEARLY 😘
#soberissexy #sobermovement #odaat #happiness #mentalhealth #recovery #success #passion #purpose #strength #inspire #motivationalquotes #liver #fitfam #healthynurse #health #godisgood #all #nurse #nursesofinstagram #noc #babesinscrubs
and the urges are strong! Does anyone else get a few days, weeks, months and find the alcohol monster starts scheming plans for just "one day" or "I'll stop again on this date" it's so fucking frustrating..
I suppose there's a reason I got a tattoo that says "Starve The Fucking Monster" for a reason.. I've played this game SOOOOO many times.. So imma gonna meditate on this and check my ego.. Oh and keep starving the monster.. #sober #soberlife #livethislife #odaat #recovery #wedorecover #sobercommunity #sobersisters #afaf #freedom #stfm
It’s great to see my friend @colicchie
in Maryland putting in work with the @wearecloudgang
fam. Can’t wait to see him perform again tomorrow night! This guy is a true inspiration to many of us. Live ya homie!
Let’s be super honest for a minute. We see a lot of posts on social media about recovery. Whether it’s a death from overdose, someone shipped off to rehab, or celebrating 60 days or even 20 years. We see either the worst of the worst or the best of the best. I’m here to remind you all, that sometimes there’s life in the middle and sometimes that gets messy. Some days are going to be hell. Feeling emotions will feel like drowning. Flashbacks will happen. Regret and shame will creep in. Tears are going to fall down your face when you’re home alone on a Saturday night. Some days the anger will come back. Some days will be so monotonous you’ll cringe. You’ll get bored. You’ll feel left out and isolated by your sobriety. But regardless of all that, you’ll survive. Because you’re sober. Because no matter how shitty life feels sometimes, you remind yourself what it was like to wake up the next day wondering what the hell happened. You’ll remind yourself what it was like to be so numb you were begging to feel anything at all. You’ll remind yourself that the feelings will pass, but your addiction might not if you give in one last time. So please please please. Know you’re not alone. Know it is only temporary. And remind yourself what got you sober to begin with. 🖤
It was tank top weather today, yasss. Jay and I went for a run and even though it rained a bit on us, it was perfect. I’m not great at motivational stuff - it feels preachy and weird, idk. But I want to say: please stick with the promises you make to yourself. Making reasonable promises helps, and give yourself grace, but try to honor your commitments to yourself one day at a time. It’s a weird balancing act sometimes, but it can be figured out as you go. Don’t wait for circumstances to fall in place to give you permission to make changes you know you want to make, deep down. Don’t get stuck thinking it has to be a massive change. It might not be, at first. I quit drinking 3 years and 9 months ago. That was huge for me, but “our liquor was but a symptom.” I had, and still have, more work to do.
I’ve gone back and forth on other changes in my life, and I don’t know what the future holds, but for the first time in years I’m sticking with regular exercise and reasonably healthy eating (no strict rules) and I feel AMAZING. Calm. Like I’m at home in my body again. I feel beautiful, energetic, grateful. It’s insane what a difference this makes for me. It’s not every day, and it’s not all just from exercise/veggies. There’s more that I do, spiritually and emotionally and all sorts of things, but I’ve found that when I’m not taking care of my body, the other pieces don’t fit quite as well either. It also feels good to keep promises to myself. You can do it, too. .
That’s all, folks. ❤️
#soberliving #sober #soberaf #sobriety #sobermom #soberwomen #sobertogether #soberevolution #onedayatatime #odaat #recoveryjourney #recoveryisworthit #trusttheprocess #progressnotperfection #alcoholfree #forgiveness #serenity #gratitude #12steps #teetotaler #soberfun #godisgood #healthymom #gettingfit #soberfit #wearetheluckiest
While some recovery modalities are rooted in the foundation of self-help and willpower, that did not work for me. I couldn’t self-help myself out of a paper bag let alone try to navigate recovery. However, I was a master at being a hot mess. The only thing willpower did, when I tried to stop drinking, was land my ass right into a relapse. What worked for me may not work for you but if your recovery attempts have resulted in relapse after relapse...when is enough going to be enough? I would be dead or in jail if I had believed that chronic relapses would be okay and part of recovery. But that’s my story.. not yours. However, if you are sitting in the bottom of another relapse... maybe it’s time to try another way. There are so many out there but before you pick up.. reach out. To someone you trust. Really examine if you want recovery.. if you want sobriety. Or.. is there a deeper issue that tells you ‘hey it’s okay to pick up.. just start again tomorrow’. My disease tells me every day that having a drink would make my life glorious. Why? Because my disease is an asshole. That’s why it’s one day at a time. You are not alone. And if you can’t find anyone to reach out to.. I’m just a dm away from you being able to talk without judgment. Suffering is optional... are you ready to start your journey towards the life God intended for you? #sober #sobriety #recovery #recoveryquotes #recoverymemes #recoveryquotes #recoveryispossible #recoveryrocks #happysaturday #soberlife #soberlifestyle #onedayatatime #odaat #godisgood #youareloved
So my rock bottom, (at least the very last drop of it), was a 2 day binge including a bottle of vodka, a bottle of whiskey, and a bottle of scotch. It ended with a broken relationship, no home, and finally me choosing myself over alcohol. From there it was off to rehab, then detox, the ER, back to detox, and then to back to rehab.
I don’t remember much of those days. I spent 5 days and 4 nights in detox, only really remembering the equivalent of one full day.
But now, 928 days later, I’m still sober, I bought a house, just got promoted to VP at work, and still have the love of my life.
Sobriety is not easy. It’s fighting everyday for yourself. It’s learning to control your urges, to sit in your painful emotions, and that it’s ok to just yell “fuck” if that’s what you have to do. I thank my HP every damn night for the day behind me and ask for strength for the day ahead.
Stay strong my friends. If you need help, ask for it. Never feel weak for needing to love yourself. 🥰
Splish Splash I was taking a bath on a Saturday night! 🎶🎶
Lavender is one of the most popular and versatile essential oils. It's also one of the oils most widely known for being sold as fake (MUCH more lavender is sold every year than grown ... Hmmmm!). So make sure its 100% pure lavender AND you know your farmer (I only trust Young Living since I've been to their lavender and other farms to see the growing process and distillation myself).
Lavender is known as the Swiss Army Knife of essential oils because it can be used in so many ways. Adding it to some Epsom Salt and putting it in your bath to relax is just one.
Here's a Few More Emotional Uses:
🔆Diffuse it to promote a calm environment
🔆Calm normal stress and nervousness
🔆Promotes restful sleep
🔆Calming for stressful situations
🔆Provides emotional support
🔆Promotes ease of self-expression
🔆May be soothing for a wide range of tough emotional situations:
🔆Try it with ...
➕Neroli and Bergamot for nervousness or agitation
➕Rose for desperation
➕Clary Sage and Cypress for exhaustion
➕Bergamot and Peppermint for impatience
Keep fighting for your sobriety. Keep fighting to be better than you were yesterday. Keep fighting for all who lost the battle.
One of my New Years Resolutions was to fall in love with lifting again.
That included focusing less on the scale and more on the bar. I’ve gone through quite a few phases: gaining the freshman 15, obsessively counting calories, gaining weight again, saying “screw it” and binge eating, losing 25 pounds after college, obsessing again, becoming underweight, and the quest for balance. ⚖️ Instagram has been my worst enemy when it comes to deciding on how I should treat my fitness journey. It’s always a choice to click away or unfollow, but when certain aesthetics, body types, workout clothes, etc. have been conditioned to be the norm after years of ~*IG Fitspo*~, it can be tough to differentiate what works for the long term and what’s only curated for the gram. 🤳🏼 There have been moments where I’m either feeling empowered or battling with old patterns of self talk. But I have the gift of recovery on my side - the gift of staying present and with my emotions rather than try to numb them out. I’m not giving up. Neither should you.
Today we had our first Impact Training! It’s safe to say it went fantastic. We had people representing the medical field, law enforcement, pastors, and community leaders all come together for training and encouragement on how to more effectively impact their communities in this fight against addiction. This will be the first of many 🙏 if you or your community are interesting in hosting us for an Impact Training or are curious to know what it’s about contact us and stay tuned for our video about this very needed training. 🙏🔥💯 #impact #recovery #transformingcommunities #lovepeople
Apesar de ser uma série aclamada pela crítica, "One Day At a Time" está correndo o risco de ser cancelada a qualquer momento, por conta da baixa audiência! Confira o que a criadora da série, Gloria Calderón Kellet, disse:
"Me reuni com a Netflix para discutir o futuro de One Day At a Time. Eles deixaram claro que amam a série, a forma como atende minorias mal representadas, e também seu humor e coração... mas que precisam de um público maior. Eles vão decidir sobre a renovação em breve. Queria me sentir mais confiante. O que podemos fazer? Diga aos seus amigos para assistir!".
Quem nunca assistiu essa série maravilhosa (e que não merece ser cancelada agora) essa é chance! Além de ser hilária, aborda temas importantíssimos! Vamos ajudá-la a não ser cancelada, gente! 🙏🏻💙
Here I talk about my recent experience with goals and perseverance. I think documenting our journeys can be beneficial to all. Please forgive my face so close to the camera. 😂